PCOS and Queerness: A Bodily Haunting
Despite being one of, if not the, most common endocrine disorder in those classified as women by the medical system, there is barely any research on PCOS.
To Be Trans Is To Refuse Borders
In 2022, I brought my girlfriend daddy to my homeland.
Untethered: I Can Still Hear My Ex Mother-in-Law’s Voice
Last night, while out with a date, my voice pitched too high. I winced internally. There are a lot of complications around this for me.
Uncertainty and Disquiet: My Non-Consensual Childhood Circumcision as a Trans Woman
At the time, I didn’t know that I was experiencing a contentious procedure that would leave me physically scarred and emotionally wounded. I did it because I was told I should. Decades later, I learned about assent in a postgraduate research course.
I Didn’t Know Existential Therapists Were a Thing Until I Got One
“I’m an easy host, a rake, a card, I’m bejeweled, I have a gay face. I want to love and be loved. If reaching is a kind of being, it’s a reaching toward.”
I’m a Psychologist Who Didn’t See My Own Divorce Coming
Psychologists can see potential in every patient who is seeking therapy. I can’t look at my marriage without seeing all the ways we could still fix it.
Untethered: The Designated Girl-Son
I came across the concept of the “designated son” on TikTok.
They Should Have Sent A Poet
“I was around the same age as young Ellie when ‘Contact’ came out. The way she so clearly carries her childhood self with her made adulthood legible; it made time seem like less of an unknowable straight line and something more like a circle. Watching it as an adult I have that same feeling.”
Transition Is Allowed To Feel Bad Sometimes
Realistically, I understand that if you do something for 11 months, the chance that you’ll feel good for every second of those 11 months is zero.
Untethered: You Need Help
Asking for help, the kind that requires another person to set aside time for me, to exert themselves physically, feels as easy as touching a hot stove.
The Big And
If time is blurry, and I think it is, then so is everything else.
Untethered: A Great Lady
I’ve been eulogizing, just to myself, in the moments between other moments that are claimed by tasks or thoughts of the present or literally anything else.
Queering Time: The Offering of ‘Kairos’
We all know how a certain kind of kiss can eclipse time.
For My 30th Birthday, I Moved Back to New York
Essays about turning 30 are almost as annoying as essays about moving to or from New York.
Untethered: Mercury Retrogayde
USPS has been sending my mail to my ex.
Gaza, We Carry You With Us
Every few days, Healthcare Workers Watch sends me a google drive folder with lists of names and photos of healthcare workers killed and abducted in Gaza.
The Unexpected Loneliness of Getting Divorced
I wondered if my friends were afraid that the honesty it takes to face that a relationship needs to end might be contagious. If they stood too close to me, they might realize they wanted to take a closer look in that mirror too.
Untethered: I Have To Stop Getting Engayged or Married on Holidays
My ex and I mutually proposed to each other on Christmas last year.
Untethered: In Defense of a Messy Bed
There’s a certain kind of comfort to me in dishevelment.
Where Are All the Scream Kings?
When I was in fourth grade, I got in trouble for discussing how fast my body would decompose if I was stabbed.