Noelle Stevenson & Amy T. Falcone Are Queering Up D&D With Their Kickass Butch Characters

feature image via Kit Buss and Amy T. Falcone.

I wrote a whole introduction to this piece, but I think perhaps we should start, instead, with a quote from Amy T. Falcone, player on Penny Arcade’s C-Team (Thursdays, 3:30-6:30 PST).

“I have definitely been excluded from a campaign because of being “a girl” before. At the time, I was upset but didn’t think to really fight it because I had friends who were excluded from video game tournaments or any other number of things. It seemed par for the course! Does that really come as a surprise? One of my least favorite quotes is by Gary Gygax, the creator of Dungeons & Dragons, “gaming in general is a male thing… Everybody who’s tried to design a game to interest a large female audience has failed. And I think that has to do with the different thinking processes of men and women.” This, along with being profoundly tone deaf and problematic, is the mentality that we are still fighting.”

Falcone is one of the people fighting this mentality the best way I, personally, know how: by being a queer woman playing Dungeons and Dragons in public.

Walnut Dankgrass and Tova, Dungeons and Dragons characters played by Amy T. Falcone and Noelle Stevenson. Art by Amy T. Falcone and Kit Buss.

The age of Twitch has the potential to save nerd culture from itself by portraying a varied and complex notion of “gamer” to the community at large. There are so many different sorts of streamers that it’s hard to define anything as narrowly as Gygax did when he conceptualized Dungeons and Dragons; it evolved from war games, a particularly white, male, hetero- and cis- centric corner of the nerd universe. Heavy on strategy and light on diversity, it would take us years to get to where we are with fifth edition, which portrays the default human as a Black woman in the Player’s Handbook. It took me so long to jump into tabletop RPGs because it was a world that didn’t visibly include me. I’ve never been a joiner where I didn’t think I was wanted — life is just too goddamn short.

Noelle Stevenson, author of National Book Award-nominated Nimona, the comic series Lumberjanes and also an avid player of D&D, jumped in about the same time I did — after things had already started getting better:

“I only just started playing and 5e is the first edition I’ve ever been aware of, and there’s so much female representation throughout that it never felt anything less than natural to me. I haven’t really delved farther into the gaming community than just how I interact with it within my personal friend group. Like, I know so many queer women and so many of them are into D&D. I don’t feel like an outsider. I guess I’m coming in at a good time.”

Stevenson was a two-session guest player on Geek & Sundry’s streamed Dungeons and Dragons game, Critical Role (Thursdays, 7:00 pm PST). Both shows are expanding the definition of what a Dungeons and Dragons game can look like, and they’re also expanding the definition of player and what it means to game. Both Falcone and Stevenson play characters they designed themselves — both queer women also. And Falcone is in hot pursuit of an openly queer storyline. And I do mean hot pursuit. I caught up with both players to talk about what their games look like.

I wanted to know how they wound up on their respective shows—Critical Role is a game between friends that evolved into streamed entertainment and C-Team was explicitly cast by Penny Arcade to be a show from the very beginning. Their processes looked a bit different, and understandably so—Stevenson wound up a guest on the show by virtue of her friendship with Sam Riegal, who plays the (gay) adventurer Taryon Darrington, as well as his original character, Scanlan Shorthalt. Falcone, on the other hand, was selected as part of a cast of players: “At some point, months before being officially invited to join, I was simply asked, ‘Amy, you play D&D, right?’ I responded that not only did I play it, I was INTO it. There was a little back and forth but for the most part, I think our DM, Jerry, had his fantasy team picked and was just hoping we’d say yes.”

I asked both players to tell me a bit about their characters in the context of being queer. Falcone, who plays Walnut Dankgrass, a Druid who is very militantly always on the side of nature, approached her character creation from three axes. First, as a queer woman: “I think I always make my characters queer, because I am and, at this point, I would feel weird consciously making one straight. It just wouldn’t feel right. With Walnut, she just IS queer, there’s no question.” Second, as an aware person at this particular political moment in the United States: “…we started creating our characters right around the time that it became clear our government wasn’t going to make ecological preservation a priority. I was pissed off and wanted to make a wildly nature focused character, of course, a druid was the obvious choice.” And lastly as a gamer:

“When it comes to making builds, I do tend to min/max… to a point. I am heavily into the roleplaying side of things and so I did make some choices with Walnut that are not “optimal” for her build, but make sense with her backstory. I think you have to make compromises. At first, I really was trying to make her a perfectly efficient fighter, but that just doesn’t always go along with the story or who she is. She isn’t perfect, and I don’t think her build needs to be either. Instead of trying to focus on being a tank or a DPS, I just let her situation dictate how she is going to fight. Is she worked up? Angry? Emotionally compromised? Then she’s probably going to turn into a wolf and do a few bites. If she can keep her cool and think it out (hardly ever happens), she has other skills that help dissolve conflict.”

Stevenson had the difficult task of approaching character creation as a queer woman, a gamer and a guest player fitting into someone else’s campaign. So when she sat down with DM Matthew Mercer to create Tova the Blood Hunter, she had a few things vying for her attention. Being a guest in someone else’s world — something that could’ve been quite difficult — she took as a positive, because she got to play with a home-brewed class:

“I wasn’t really sure what kind of character I wanted to play at first—it was only my second character and I wanted to try something different than my first character who was a 20 charisma, 7 strength warlock. I was pretty sure I wanted to be more of a fighter, but I still wanted some spells, so he suggested the Blood Hunter class, and my eyes kind of lit up like a kid with a new toy because Blood Hunter?! Okay!!”

She also had this to say about creating butch characters, and it is Relatable with a capital “r”:

“It’s really hard for me to not play a butch lady character—I like playing different types of characters, but it’s hard to see myself in characters who aren’t some degree of butch lady. I’m so starved for those types of characters that I don’t even think about it, it’s just my first instinct and it kind of always has been.”

As a masculine woman, myself, I have adopted tabletop RPGs as a way of inserting myself into stories where folks like me would not normally be visible. Usually, this is done in the privacy of my own table, but when players like Falcone and Stevenson play these characters publicly on the internet, their choices take on a whole new weight, the same sort of weight that television, movies and books have with regards to the creation of culture. Stevenson, a creator of books and comics, sometimes has to remind herself of the difference:

“I look at everything from such a narrative point of view and I tend to want things to play out in a narrative way. So I’ll have ideas of how other people’s characters should act and how things should play out and then everything just goes to shit. But the cool thing about D&D is how unpredictable it can be! Anything that gets me to loosen up and just let things happen and roll with it is a good thing.”

The tension between private game and public entertainment is often felt when anyone tries to analyze what, exactly, is taking place here. I think it’s okay to let it be complicated, let it be both. And let it be important that we’re seeing queer gamers play queer characters in traditional nerd spaces. One of the delightful byproducts of these two characters is the potential disruption of toxic masculinity in a particular nerd-space that’s sort of famous for it. Which swung my brain in a different, perhaps darker direction; we all know what it’s like to be a woman on the internet, and these nerd spaces are fairly mainstream. Geek and Sundry’s Twitch channel has 19,561,682 total views; Penny Arcade’s has 7,905,947. On YouTube, episodes of Critical Role average between 275,000 and 300,000 views per episode, about the same amount of viewers Orphan Black averages per episode. I asked both players about reactions from the community. Stevenson had nothing but nice things to say about Tova’s reception in the Critical Role community, a group of internet denizens dubbed “Critters.”

“Honestly, the Critical Role community has been nothing but positive to me! They seem like such an enthusiastic bunch and if there’s a mean underside to the fandom I haven’t been exposed to it. I feel really lucky to get to play in their sandbox for a bit – I worried that people would view me with a lot of suspicion, since I’m a rando to most of them, but it honestly was so positive and everyone I interacted with seemed very open towards my presence.”

Falcone, however, has been playing more regularly, with more than a dozen streamed games under her (and Walnut Dankgrass’) belt:

“When I first started, I had forgotten what it’s like to put yourself out there as anything other than your average straight white male in any gaming space. Of course, those who have issues love to let you know how unsatisfactory you are. Some people don’t like how many queer characters or NPCs are in our campaign, or when either of the women on the show talk too much. Anyone feminine in our society is still expected to be quiet, subservient, and apologetic. Of course I’m not going to make myself or my character more palatable for anyone else’ sake. That’s just not going to happen. I do have to say, those negative voices consistently get drowned out by the outpouring of love and support from other viewers. The response has been absolutely amazing and I am so thankful to be doing something that resonates with others.”

Falcone’s overall positive experience is also the result of a pretty hearty trust in her Dungeon Master:

“[Walnut] has a canonical love interest. Their story is not the butt of any jokes, it’s not to fetishize queerness for the male gaze, it belongs to them. I trust Jerry [Holkins] completely when we bring that story to the table to help me flesh it out and be true to my character. I don’t know how I would do this if the campaign wasn’t so casually queer-friendly already, and I am truly lucky to be given the space and voice to realize that every week.”

One of the reasons I write about table top RPGs so often on Autostraddle is specifically because table top RPGs can look and feel however the Dungeon Master and the players would like; a game can be casually queer friendly at the behest of its players, and not at the whim of some far off creator. A queer, feminist DM usually means a queer, feminist game because we don’t magically become different people when we pick and choose what sorts of story lines interest us. (I almost wrote that we don’t magically become different people when we sit down at the table, but actually we kinda do, so.) In her appearances on Critical Role and the weekly Critical Role talk show, Talks Machina (Tuesdays, 7:00 pm PST), Stevenson mentioned her previous D&D game a couple times. I specifically asked her to spill about it because it sounded so interesting:

“My awesome girlfriend Molly was the DM, it was my first campaign ever, and she came up with this Breakfast Club idea where we all met through detention. I played Jericho Rose, a tiefling warlock who sold her soul to the devil to piss off her parents—we also had a half-orc jock, a Drow druid who saw herself as a Disney princess, an emo elf ranger, a dwarven wizard nerd, and a Tracy Flick-style lawful good halfling rogue to keep us all in line (and very specifically piss off my character). Playing as a teenage character is really fun, especially when it’s your first campaign, because you can just lean into the impulsive stupid decisions that teens and also new D&D players make without thinking the consequences through. In fact that was my character’s entire thing: Molly made me actually have to deal with the consequences of both being a tiefling in the world and having sold my soul to a demon patron as a teen, which meant I was at odds with the rest of my crew a lot of the time, and all those teen emotions just came pouring out. I think we were all playing some aspect of our actual teen selves so it got…intense.”

I did my homework and asked both Falcone and Stevenson if they knew of any other queer women playing D&D on the internet anywhere. I play and watch a lot of Dungeons and Dragons, but perhaps I was simply missing something? But alas, neither could think of another queer woman playing publicly on the internet. Stevenson then replied, “I know plenty of queer women who love D&D though, so maybe we just need to get them their own shows.” You heard it here first: Noelle Stevenson wants y’all queers to get out there and stream your D&D games. Who are we to argue?

Which brings me back around to why it’s truly important to see players like Stevenson and Falcone play characters like Tova and Walnut. I’m, of course, very into constantly fighting toxic masculinity and toxic geekery, and I asked Falcone why it’s important hoping she would blurt out a similar answer. Of course, her answer is a better one:

“It is important for me as a queer femme to feel seen and valid, and it can be hard even in queer spaces. There are so many different ways to be queer, to be a woman, to be feminine, to just, be. I wish I had been exposed to more queer representation in my youth, and I am constantly seeking it out now. Yes, I want to see people like me so I feel valid, and so others like me feel valid, but beyond that I just want to see other types of people. Unique voices, experiences, and backgrounds bring so much and have been excluded for too long. Tabletop roleplaying is all about imagination and unbridled fun. Everyone should have a seat at the table. Everyone.”

If you’d like to check out Penny Arcade’s C-Team, you can get caught up on their YouTube channel and then hit up their Twitch channel to watch live. If you’d like to get started with Critical Role, you can start from the beginning or jump in here, and then hit Twitch for the live games each Thursday. If you’d like to start playing Dungeons and Dragons, you can check out the Autostraddle guide to getting started with your own queer, feminist game.

Editor’s note: the title of this post has been changed to better reflect the work that women are doing in the table top gaming sphere at this present (awesome) moment in gaming.

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A.E. Osworth

A.E. Osworth is part-time Faculty at The New School, where they teach undergraduates the art of digital storytelling. Their novel, We Are Watching Eliza Bright, about a game developer dealing with harassment (and narrated collectively by a fictional subreddit), is forthcoming from Grand Central Publishing (April 2021) and is available for pre-order now. They have an eight-year freelancing career and you can find their work on Autostraddle (where they used to be the Geekery Editor), Guernica, Quartz, Electric Lit, Paper Darts, Mashable, and drDoctor, among others.

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  1. If you need more queer women playing RPGs in your life, Ali Acampora is fantastic on the podcast Friends at the Table!

  2. Love this. I’m playing my first d&d campaign and everyone involved is queer. Which just feels right. My fantasy world doesn’t have straight people in it, tbh. I’ve also found d&d to be one of the only healthy outlets for the incredible amounts of rage and other strong emotions the world is making this sensitive lady feel these days. I’m hooked.

    • Playing right now is so, so important. We gotta keep playing through this, and bonus to D&D because we get to pretend not to be here for a few hours. Escapism at its finest.

  3. Thanks for this great article! I have beeb playing D&D again after a long break. I was always a casual player because I found the tropes and attitudes that occurred among the players and DMs were often highly misogynistic, lacking any queer or non binary representation, racist, and in all highly problematic. Not what I want in my real world escape from those exact things. So I have dabbled but recently has been the first time I played.

    Right now, I am playing a male cleric who quietly figuring out he is gay in the background of our game. I didn’t give him a sexual identity when I made him as I usually figure that out in game but role-playing his confusion has certainly mirrored my own journey into queerness. It’s been interesting to navigate that in a group of all cis hetero dudes who all play cis hetero characters.

  4. Is Autostraddle reading my mind?! Because I just started watching Critical Role this week. I’ve actually been really impressed so far with the representation of the Geek and Sundry RPG players.

    To add to your radar: Shield of Tomorrow is a Star Trek RPG that has a non-binary player, Sam de Leve, who I’ve fallen a little in love with. They’re playing a joined Trill commander, and I love it so much. Also, there’s an amazing Dread (horror rpg) campaign going on that’s featured on Project Alpha with two players playing queer characters.

    Matt Mercer just seems like a good dude. Just watch his Fireside Q&A on youtube in which he talks about his uncle about an hour and 20 minutes in:

    I teared up. It’s pretty awesome to see a dude both apologize for botching a queer storyline while at the same time sharing his own experiences.

    • I love EVERYTHING Sam de Leve does but I’m about to confess: I have never seen Star Trek **runs and hides** Am I gonna get lost tryna watch it if I don’t know the source material that well?

      Also I love that Dread game and it was on my radar for exactly that reason. I was even working on a piece, but it took a turn into some really problematic territory w/r/t disability and Native Americans both. I know they’re playing with horror tropes and I think it’s totally fine for me to absolutely LOVE that game (I do), but I’m not sure it’s right for here.

      I’ve seen the fireside chat and here’s my unsolicited hot take: I don’t think he effed up that queer storyline! Have you gotten to that ep yet? It’s one of my faves, and I’d be so so interested in what you think. I had no idea anyone had ~feelings~ about it until I saw the fallout from the fallout.

      • Squirrelsrevolt, welcome to the wild ride of CR. I love it SO MUCH.

        My take on Tarry is that Sam maybe a little bit effed up, but also Sam is so heavily into being the comedian that he didn’t really think about for how a lot of people that was such an emotionally fraught area and playing it for comedy left kind of a weird taste. I don’t think Matt messed it up at all, but at the same time I love that he wasn’t super defensive about it and didn’t throw the blame on Sam and just had a heartbreaking fireside chat (in a silk robe).

        Has anyone been watching Vast? I only got a few episodes in before work got insane, but I might go back because that geek and sundry article told me there would be gay storylines if I stick with it.

  5. I was properly introduced to D&D (4e) and tabletop RPGs as a teenager through Acquisitions Incorporated and I was HOOKED. I love fantasy and science fiction, and the world of D&D is so vast, it’s like Star Trek or Doctor Who, there’s SO MUCH content! I love Critical Role and Nimona, Noelle is really wonderful. Amy Falcone, I developed a healthy crush on her when she was on Strip Search, and I love watching her and Kris Straub weekly on the C Team. I never leave any comments and I’m not on Twitter, but most of what I see is positive, and I bet most people are like me and don’t say anything, but really enjoy it. Assholes with big mouths always try to make sure they are heard, though. If you are reading this, I really like you Amy! Send Kate, Ryan, Kris and Jerry some love too! Oh, and also to the girl behind the screen who manages things (Elyssa or Alyssa, not sure how to spell her name).
    I hear Girl, Guts, Glory is fun, it’s all ladies playing D&D, but I haven’t watched it yet, so I can’t recommend it wholeheartedly.
    Here’s to nerdy content on Autostraddle!

    • Wizards of the Coast participated in this year’s Seattle Pride Parade for the first time, I think? It was great and most comments were very supportive! And I know there are dice manufacturers that attend events like Queer Expo and stuff. We’ve come a long way since Gygax.

  6. I run table top games about twice a week. My games tend to be Urban Fantasy/Supernatural Romance, and very high on queer themes with female majority casts. I have a pretty good mix of straight and queer and male and female players.

    In between fighting evil we have the queer female subculture of 1920s Paris in one game, and furtive meetings between girls in Victorian hallways in another. So it works out.

  7. It’s been so long since I played D&D I saw the title of this article and thought it was about Game of Thrones.

    • So don’t revoke my nerd card, but I can’t watch or read GoT because it’s too violent and it gives me nightmares (I’m a grownass adult woman). I accidentally named a temple in my game “River Run” and my whole table laughed and I was like…what?

  8. RPG casts has a section specifically dedicated to women in RPG podcasts and I bet that many are queer.

    My personal favourite is You Don’t Meet In An Inn which plays obscure RPGs with a diverse rotating group of players. IIRC 7 of the 8 women on the show are queer!

  9. While we are on this great topic, I feel obligated to mention that Blue Rose 2nd edition just hit shelves and it is a lovely tabletop roleplaying game that is explicitly feminist and queer! It’s inspired by feminist romantic fantasy (think of books written by Tamora Pierce, Mercedes Lackey, or Diane Duane), and the new edition features a lot of rich options for playing transgender and non-binary characters, penned by trans developers like Crystal Frasier. There’s nothing wrong with D&D of course, but Blue Rose feels like it naturally enhances queer and feminist themes at the table and I’d recommend giving it a try!

  10. This is beautiful!!
    Also, in terms of more queer lady representation in RPGs online, I recommend the “She’s a Super Geek” podcast ( While not explicitly queer, all their games are run by female GMs, and tend to have queer characters, or characters who otherwise don’t bother with stereotypes. They playtest lots of interesting systems, too! There’s an episode where they play “Call of Cat-thulhu”, in which sentient house cats save the Victorian world from macabre monsters . . . so, yeah.

    • <3 She's a Super Geek! I ended up purchasing the basic rules for "Call of Cat-thulhu" after that episode, and the few times I've run it have been a grand time.

  11. I’ve never related to another person’s character the way I relate to Walnut Dankgrass. Amy’s decision to create a character counter to what’s going on in the current US political landscape resonates well in the game. The C-Team stream in general is great for balancing gender dynamics and humor–they make jokes at all the characters’ expenses and female characters’ female-ness isn’t the but of the jokes.

    Also, Walnut and Brahma’s story line is way better than most romance novels I’ve read.

  12. Amy is an amazing person, im so happy that she can feel comfortable being genuine with her character

  13. I got introduced to D&D through a podcast called the Adventure Zone, which has surprisingly decent queer representation despite it being 4 cis het white guys. I still love that podcast! Now I have 3 games going! I also have trouble making characters that are not queer because it feels strange. In the game that I DM pretty much all my NPCs are queer lol

  14. Thank you for changing the title, D&D was never a “tomb of toxic masculine horrors” and its always been an open sandbox format since its inception. players have always been free to roleplay as they have wanted and could change any rules at a whim…we sure did. If they wanted queer characters they could have em. The only limit has always been a player’s imagination.

  15. Some people have already mentioned this, but Friends at the Table is fantastic. In addition to an extremely diverse cast of played characters and NPCs (in terms of race, gender, and sexuality), they also have the fabulous Ali Acampora (queer lady) and Andi Clare (nonbinary person) as players. (The cast rotates depending on the season, so they’re not both in every episode, but they’re both regular cast members.)
    Also it’s truly incredible storytelling. There’s even a pretty epic space-opera-like lady/lady romance in the Counter/Weight season. I can’t recommend it enough if you like listening to DnD games.

    In terms of my own life, I’m in two ongoing tabletop campaigns right now- one Dungeon World campaign, which is basically a simplified version of DnD that’s more focused on storytelling than stats, and one Monsterhearts, which is literally a teen supernatural drama show come to life – you play as supernatural teenagers. (Also cannot recommend Monsterhearts enough if you’re interested in tabletop games – it’s so much fun!) And both of my groups are all lady players! When it comes down to it, lots of people are interested in telling stories in genres they enjoy that they can insert characters they more closely identify with into. Everyone should play tabletop games! Write the queer genre stories you long to see in the world (with your friends!).

  16. If you like C Team, definitely check out HyperRPG’s other content! They’ve built their platform around inclusivity and positivity, and there’s no shortage of ladies (lgbt+, of colour, etc.) on their shows. Death From Above (Battletech), Pencils & Parsecs (Star Wars Edge of the Empire)… though it was Shadowrun: Corporate SINs, now ended, which got me into the channel, GM’d by the wonderful Lauren Bond/RandomTuesday – who also runs Celestial Rangers, a magical girl rpg show put together by some folks from the channel!

    For inclusive D&D content, other than C Team I really enjoy Dice Funk, Mayhem & Misfits, and Dice Camera Action.

  17. I had to create an account just to tell you that there is another prominent queer woman who plays D&D on Twitch. Kim Richards plays a Tiefling monk on High Rollers, which streams out of the U.K. most Sundays. She’s actually played with Kit Buss and in the C Team’s room with Elyssa; one of their behind the scene people, so I don’t know if Amy just didn’t know her orientation or what.

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