Your Official Carol Blackout 2K17 Liveblog

It is September 20th on the year of our lord and Carol is officially available on Netflix. You now have the option to stream this Patricia Highsmith inspired masterpiece for hours, days, months, or years on end, depending on how early Netflix decides to engage in its cruel practice of removing cherished media from their collection for what seems like no reason at all besides wanting to remind people at once of their dominance and the impermanence of all things in life.

A recent run of the numbers revealed that Carol content makes up for more than 5% of my writing here at Autostraddle, so it made sense that I would approach this day in the same normal way I’ve been doing since Carol‘s theatrical release – by watching it over and over for hours and sharing my experience on the internet where it will exist forever. CAROL ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT BABY!!!

What can you expect from this liveblog? Well, I bet you can expect some commentary. I have some Carol trivia I bet I’ll drop in here and there, both personal to me and about the movie/book itself. (For example, did you know Carol Aird is based off of a real woman Patricia Highsmith met while working retail?) Screenshots? So much more, I bet!

Stay tuned, I know I will.


My kittens, the credits are rolling, and this is where I stop. The last time I saw Carol Aird pull at her nightgown – a gesture that will usually inspire in me a Supermarket Sweep kind of savagery – I was unmoved. This cannot do. It will not do. I love you all, but the time has come for me to preserve the purest part of me. Goodnight and good luck.


I’ll say it: was the Carrie Brownstein scene necessary?


“I should have said, ‘Therese, wait.'” In addition to everyone publicly flirting, I’m going to advocate this as well.


ARE WE CRACKING THIS GAY THUMB THING WIDE OPEN???? That is also my thumb on Sarah Paulson.


Hi there, how have I missed this wink in every viewing of this movie?


For the sake of my friend who texted and said she was feeling residual anxiety because I’m going on hour 10 of this, I’m going to take a pit stop. For my friend. FROM POSTING. Carol will 100% be on in the room. Rest assured. I wouldn’t lie to you.


“Ah-ha! Found a continuity error.” – The worst kind of movie watcher and me right now. When Jack calls for Therese from the bar, it’s right after Carol has said “I love you” with the intensity of eleventy suns. But from Jack’s perspective in that moment, Carol is smirking. Wow, Todd Haynes really blew that one.


Can I get this as a tattoo but just over my entire body.


“Where do you see yourself in five years?” Also, and I know because I’ve seen it in action, Connie Britton has three more personal hair people than Cate Blanchett.


I’m going to try to incorporate “swank” at the end of sentences as a way to be like “noice” and see if it catches on.


I get more and more furious every time I hear that human kazoo say to Therese about her failed relationship with Carol (an entirely different person), “Is this because I tried to kiss you that day?” What? Did I enter into a relationship with a woman who I still want to be with but it’s just circumstantially not going to work out right now because of you? Where am I? Where are you, my brother in mankind?


Lmaoooo remember when Heather said, “Dearest, tits and fanny.”?


Carol really skips foreplay doesn’t she.



IMPORTANT UPDATE. Unless Rooney Mara has a hand double, Rooney Mara and I have the same thumb, which is a thumb that has been called gay (???) by an ex. So.


Well we’re up to two people who have insinuated via text that I have possibly started to adopt Carol as a persona. Am I putting out an I’m For Sure Not Snacking On Potpourri, I’m Simply Carol Now vibe?


Invite me ’round.


What, if anything, do you think Kyle Chandler and Cate Blanchett talked about in their downtime? Somehow I can’t imagine them interacting, because I think it’s that thing where two aggressively attractive and intriguing people meet and sort of repel each other. You’re going in your head right now, “Um, no I know _____ and ______?” and it’s like, no, no, one of them isn’t interesting.


Where I am mentally right now.


What do we all think of the pause Therese breathes life into right before she floats, “…and wets herself” when talking to Carol for the first time? I think, re: that text from earlier, this was intentional.


Stef checking in.


This is Carol looking at me and only me in a knowing way like, “Don’t do it, girl” and I’m already pressing play again.


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While Harge and Carol work out the whole Rindy situation, let’s all look at this picture that I tried to use in an article once but couldn’t because we didn’t have permission but then I put it on my Instagram and hey there’s nothing wrong posting something from your personal account.


Everyone after the eclipse.


Ahaha what if I just left the post there.


This movie takes on a whole new feel when you realize that where this story ends in real life is at the doll counter. Patricia sent a postcard to Kathleen’s home immediately after their meeting, but never heard back. Kathleen died a few years later. There was never perfume applied to pressure points and no one took anyone to bed – it was just a story of what ifs.


No matter how good a singer you are, if you are by yourself and you are maybe in your bed, if you sing “City sidewalks, busy sidewalks, dressed in holiday style,” in a month that is not December, when you hear yourself it’ll cause you to Command – on your life and you’ll be in for an emotional treat!


The internet has been trying to save me from myself for the past 30 minutes.


A very accurate text I received: “The way Therese straddles the line between SUCH boldness and being a complete bottom at the same time has me obsessed.”




If I don’t have this shirt and necklace pairing this winter I 100% will lose it.


That close up of Carol hitting her gloves on the counter? More from The Talented Miss Highsmith: “Blond, statuesque, with an angled, Saxon profile and ‘intelligent gray eyes,’ Mrs. Senn, slapping a pair of gloves suggestively into the palm of one hand, walked slowly and absently up to the doll counter where a mesmerized Pat stood waiting for her.”


Something else Frankenberg’s believes in? Like six spaces after a period.


Cal’s making Jack another double. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Life: know how to live it!


Does Therese dead-eyed whisper “No, I don’t think so” or “Oh, I don’t think so” when Carol asks her to move in with her? If it’s “oh” then I’m proposing a horror movie trailer cut of Carol complete with that line, the scene where Therese grabs the gun out of Carol’s suitcase, Rindy counting, and the old woman asking if Carol wants more mashed potatoes.


Sorry I got really distracted by the prospect of someone asking me if I wanted to watch Carol and me answering, “No, I don’t.” I want to hold this. When I go out and am wearing a pin of Cate Blanchett as Carol, I want to be just as elated the next time someone goes “Mother!” like someone did last week.


To President McKinley.


I’ve had a terrible thought. What if this ruins Carol for me?


Lol. If “m’lady” could have a stance it would be this stance. Also I never registered Therese’s response to Richard asking her what she got at the record store, which I now know is, “Something for someone.”


“She wished the tunnel might cave in and kill them both, that their bodies might be dragged out together.”


A little personal Carol trivia: the way Therese says, “I have to go…” in the Times building made such an impression on me and my ex in how sort of dazed and goofy it was that any time my dog exited a room/area we gave him Therese in the Times building voice.


A Halloween Idea:


So there was a period of time where random gifts were showing up at the place where I’m staying, which was weird because no one really has the address, and then one day this came. At this point I was convinced someone was for sure clocking my location and sending me very specific-to-me gifts as… warnings? Anyway, I loved these so much I didn’t care. Truly! I was like, I’m going to go out in style. Turns out I gave my friend, whom I know does not want to murder me, the address.


Do you think this was intentional:


It’s my personal opinion that Cate Blanchett was goofing with Rooney Mara in the opening scene where we see them talking but from Jack’s perspective. Like instead of staying in character she was really just moving her mouth or saying “silly” things. Just seems like something Cate would pull am I right.


Netflix tries to usher me out of the building into a newer, less inspiring building. Not today, friend.


The music. You know what music I’m talking about. Here’s something that is wild to me: I know someone who lives with someone who listens to the Carol soundtrack every day but has never seen the film. TRUTH: SOMETIMES IT’S STRANGER THAN FICTION.


Live footage of me at a party last weekend:


Another horror movie trailer moment when you only hear it and don’t see it is when Carol sits with Harge’s family at dinner and Harge’s frail old mother who sounds like she’s down the hallway speaking through a tin can string phone goes, “Some more mashed potatoes, Carol?”


Whoever the fitness trainer was for Cate Blanchett’s back muscles deserves their own Oscar, much like Carol deserved its own Oscar. Also I know “yearning” was a part of both of Carol’s and Therese’s characters, but their is a particular kind of yearning radiating from Rooney Mara in these scenes, no? Anyone else? Something in her face reminds me of this tweet:


Whoa! There’s new dialogue in the “can you handle a redhead” scene about finding hair in Rindy’s hairbrush. Can see why this didn’t make the cut tbh. [Update: There is not new dialogue.]


YOU MADE ME BUY BOAT TICKETS. Ahaha, I think we can all agree this is the funniest line in this movie. Love you, New Jim.


Lmao remember this:



If you only hear and don’t see the scene where we first meet Carol’s daughter Rindy and she’s slowly counting, it sounds like the beginning of a horror movie trailer. Also, did you know Rindy was played by twin girls???


Okay, real life-inspired retail moment. Let me give you this line from The Talented Miss Highsmith about this fated meeting that has had me reeling since I read it: “She wanted to close her hands (tightly, she thought later) around the throat of a ‘blondish and elegant’ married woman from New Jersey who had just bewitched her from across a crowded room.” And now let me show you real life Carol:


I’d love to know the notes Todd Haynes gave to the actor who gets Therese’s attention by shouting across a crowded restaurant. “Like you’re using a megaphone but the megaphone is your voice.”


Typing Carol into the search area of Netflix and having it drop down with a list of related movies:

Typing Carol into the search area of Netflix and having it drop down with a play button:

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  1. I have a million things to do today. I am leaving for Maine in the middle of the night (from North Carolina). Yet, here I am watching Carol. I own the DVD so it’s not like I ouldn’t watch it before today.

    I was included in a group text this morning. I told them this was a lesbian holiday and they needed to leave me alone.

    • also since Carol is not available on Netflix where I live I shall live vicariously through this post. I work two nights a month as a projectionist at this indie (or bougie, depending on perspective) cinema and whenever I showed Carol when it was playing I would just pause whatever I was doing (mopping, usually) and just listen to the soundtrack for several minutes and then, filled with a strange calm, continue mopping. I love this film

      • Great things to do to the soundtrack of Carol (2015):

        1. Have glove lunches, open mouth kiss in a Waterloo motel, smize at your bae from across the room.

        Also 1. Mop.

  2. Carol is not available on Netflix Belgium, nor do I own it on DVD, but I still know the meaning of every letter, space and punctuation mark in this liveblog because THIS FILM LIVES IN MY BODY, THIS FILM LIVES IN MY SOUL.

  3. “Whoever the fitness trainer was for Cate Blanchett’s back muscles deserves their own Oscar, much like Carol deserved its own Oscar.”

    I think this every time.

    Bless this entire post, I’ve never felt so seen.

  4. Dearest,
    There are no accidents, and we would’ve watched one way or another. Everything comes full circle; be grateful it was sooner rather than later. You’ll think it basic of me to say so but this live blog is a brilliant idea

  5. This is wonderful. A whole discussion without one “it bored me” comment! Yes! For the record, I don’t get that at all. This had me riveted and crying from the first opening scene and Carter’s gorgeous music. This is exactly how I am going to be when I put it on tonight. And, to think, there is actually some new dialogue in the movie! YES!

  6. “The way Therese straddles the line between SUCH boldness and being a complete bottom at the same time has me obsessed.”

    Perfectly said! It’s finally overcast where I live, which I love. The weather paired with this recap is too dreamy.

  7. I am at work and keep coming back to your Carol Liveblog (so far 4 times) and I am loving it! Keep up the good work and fighting the good fight :)

  8. “I’m For Sure Not Snacking On Potpourri, I’m Simply Carol Now”


    Can you please report on tasks only Carol could pull off?

  9. I see that between 12:15 and 12:20 p.m. the intensity of your fixation was strong enough to reverse the direction of time so that you could spend even more minutes watching Carol.

  10. This live blog is like the glove lunch of blogs; unexpected, full of Carol doing Carol things and gay gay gay.

  11. I have watched The L Word four times through on Netflix and watched nearly every terrible lesbian movie they have and still, STILL Netflix did not think Carol was something that would be relevant to my interests.

    Do you even know me at all, Netflix? Have you been paying attention to a single word that I’ve said?

    Netflix is such a Richard.

  12. Listening to the soundtrack while driving to work really adds a lot of glamour and gravitas to an otherwise boring-ass day.

  13. Coraline… Carousel … I mean…, what even are these other movies that come up when I type “Caro–” into the search bar. Come on Netflix

  14. Lol lol the Carrie Brownstein scene is such a letdown. I spent the whole movie looking for her and then it’s like 7 secs @ the end and she’s gone

    • Also, it seemed like everyone else has the more 1950s manner of speech, and then Carrie comes in, all vocal fry, like “duuuude, whaz uuuuuup?”
      (Okay, she doesn’t say that, but somehow she doesn’t sound like she got the same training time with the dialect coach as everyone else.)

  15. i watched today! even though i have it on DVD! and amazon! a gazillion times! including just last week! doing my part to make sure netflix knows we need this movie forever and ever.

    i even noticed something i’d never noticed before (god i love this movie)

    this liveblog is amazing, thank you Erin!!

      • in the first time through the Ritz scene (so, the opening one, not the ending one), I noticed that Carol’s hand trembles, just the tiniest bit, when she squeezes Therese’s shoulder before leaving. i rewound just to rewatch that a couple of times, just to be sure. i’m always watching Rooney’s expression, but this time i noticed that tremble. of course these two have such tiny shades of expression and movement that are communicating to us even if we aren’t aware of it. they’re so brilliant.

  16. Well I guess it’s time to stock up on tissues and embrace all the Lesbian Feelings again. Carol has my heart forever.

  17. this was such a great experience and now its time to find carol again thank goodness im spending the day like……..studying and now i have something to look forward to bless you erin

  18. I didn’t watch this movie yesterday or on the 17th but I will soon.
    And I’m going to mention this every time a post about this movie is made on this website: I rec’d my first ever kiss after watching Carol so it’s basically the best movie of all time.

  19. Well, that figures. Netflix gets Carol just after my subscription expires, and it will probably be gone by the time I can get afford to subscribe again. :/

    • I think she’s just in there to show there were other village artsy lesbians Terez could have chosen but she wanted Carol making it a well known modern gay lets you read thebinteraction faster while still letting her dress slightly femme maybe?

  20. 8:20 PM: I don’t think it’s a continuity error. It’s intentional. The first time through is what really happened, while everything from Therese’s car ride staring out the window to returning to that scene is a flashback imagined by Therese. So the second time through, Therese is remembering it with a recognition that Carol loves her, even though she didn’t actually say it.

    The book was from Therese’s flawed perspective, and I think this ties through more subtly in the film.

  21. When I first saw the picture caption about the gay thumb without any context I thought it was some old school lesbian signalling. But okay why is no one talking about how that flirty girl at the party is wearing her wristwatch on her right arm instead of her left??? According to my friend’s lesbian mom born in the 40s that was old signalling for lesbianism. When I saw that I wanted to cry in awe of the attention to detail.

  22. Erin i finally got around to watching this in order to read this and i feel the following things:

    -changed forever
    -dumb for not having done this sooner
    -eternally grateful to you for doing this and inspiring me to finally watch it

  23. You know that 2 second scene where Therese decidedly avoids looking at the two lesbians in the record shop? Did anyone else get slammed into with the full weight of every moment they avoided eye contact or physical proximity with another kid in high school who was teased for being gay. Or was i the only one left gasping on the floor at having that specific experience flung out at me from a movie for the first time in my life.

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