A Prairie Homo Companion: A Prairie Homo Sky at Night

A Prairie Homo Companion is a regular column that celebrates the Canadian prairies, canola fields and big skies, and the paradoxes of being a fine-ass lady prairie homo.

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On the plane home from LA after A-Camp, I sat beside a cheerful, grey-haired businessman with whom I covered many interesting topics such as how he loved the Republican party but I didn’t and how I was “a lovely young woman” despite my dislike of his party. As we began our descent over my city, I discovered he had an opinion to share on Edmonton. Flying into Edmonton at night isn’t like flying into LA or London after dark. Sure, you’re greeted by city lights, but they aren’t super bright compared to those of other cities. Nor do they go on forever. From the sky past sunset, Edmonton is only a moderately bright city bubble surrounded by a comfortable darkness…or at least I find it comfortable, cozy even. Next to me the businessman openly hoped he wouldn’t be bored this time around in Edmonton (I had given him a list of places to check out) and complained that it got so cold and the sun set so early. I guess to him the darkness signalled an end to fun, to bright-light, night-life excitement.

“I have to come here on business every now and again,” he said. And every time I fly all the way up here, I feel like I’ve reached the end of the world.” He leaned back with a chuckle, and I stared out the window angrily chewing my gum.

via windowontheprairie.com I'm just going to fill this post with artsy pictures of the prairies at night

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I’m just going to fill this post with artsy pictures of the prairies at night

The end of the world? Why? Just because when you fly into Edmonton at night it’s still pretty dark, unlike LA, which looks like an electric light circus, it doesn’t mean Edmonton’s the end of the world. It means Edmonton has what is becoming increasingly rare in cities across the globe – a nighttime that gets relatively dark instead of the sickly greyish pink colour that happens when night catches the light-pollution flu. A dark sky is something to be proud of! I’m happy that growing up I could see the stars from my backyard.

As a prairie homo, I have a lot of feelings about the night sky. Because the land is flat, it doesn’t get in the way of the sky. Living in a prairie province, you realize just how much sky there is. And here’s where I get scared of going on and on about how much I love big prairie skies, waxing poetic about staring up at the stars and thinking about all my queer girl writer dreams, that time I saw a shooting star and life felt magical, and all sorts of deep things about darkness and night. But I can’t help it, you see, cause night and I go far back and have shared many memorable gay experiences together. I came out for the first time at night, sitting with my friend on her couch, talking about how we should sleep but before we did I just had one little thing to mention. I had been planning on telling her I kinda-sorta-maybe liked girls during the day, but night just seemed safer; and well, I didn’t want to put it off for another day. I kissed a girl for the first time at night. I had sex for the first time at night. I’ve had a lot of firsts at night, and so have you and that girl over there, and oh hey, you too!

Darkness makes me feel protected and brave, but it’s more than that – dark – actual dark, not greyish pink – relaxes Me and You and Hey You Over There, like nothing else can; and when I’m relaxed I feel most like myself. There’s something to be said for the hustle, the bustle, the ambition of daylight; but night forces us to slow down and listen, make a move, write a story.

via universetoday.com Northern Lights over Saskatoon, Saskatchewan

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Northern Lights over Saskatoon, Saskatchewan

“That earthly places – rain forests, wetlands, prairies – are disappearing is commonly bemoaned, but the sky is disappearing too. Ecologically speaking, the ozone layer is thinning, and so we are losing our atmospheric protection from the cosmos; but aesthetically speaking, thicker and thicker layers of humanly produced stuff intervene between us and the cosmos…In a national park last summer, I heard an astronomer who was pointing out constellations assert that the sky is the most important place to save, because it is available to everyone-“

Rebecca Solnit, from “Excavating the Sky” in Storming the Gates of Paradise: Landscapes for Politics

The sky is available to everyone, but I would argue that it’s more available to some than others. The prairie sky, that gets dark and has northern lights, is more alive and available than the sky of the LA Republican on the plane. That’s what I should have told him, but he probably would’ve thought I was crazy. Or maybe not. He seemed to think I was a lovely young woman no matter what I said, so maybe, after discussing the availability of the sky I should have continued and explained that flying into a dark city is not a marker of an end but of a beginning.

via skinnybackpacker.com

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prairie lake reflects prairie night sky

“The sky isn’t just a reflection of mood, but a creator of one, as anyone exalted by a storm’s ferocity or made joyous by sunshine after rain knows.”

I like my sky like I like my friends and lovers and family members and pets – full of variety. I feel like the more we turn off the lights and let the sky do its own thing, display its various stars, constellations, and undulating, unpredictable northern lights, the easier it is for us to begin to do our own thing as well – at least, that’s been my personal experience. I wouldn’t be the prairie homo I am today if I didn’t live under the beautiful prairie homo sky that’s allowed to get dark at night.

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Malaika likes books, drinking tea, long conversations, dinner parties, making funny faces, bike rides, and dogs. Originally from Edmonton, she now lives in Montreal where she edits, runs, and writes about the Alberta Tar Sands for The Media Co-op. You can follow her on twitter @Malaika_Aleba.

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  1. I’m inspired by your night time adventures. ^^ I missed living in a livelier city but I realize that there’s comfort in living in a quieter place, a different set of memories can be created.

  2. Oh my goodness. I’m back home on the farm, and the sky just. . . I have so many feelings about the night sky here in the middle of nowhere. When you step outside and the only light you see are the stars and the security light by the garage. I used to fear the dark and had thoughts of rapists and coyote’s in our garage. Now there is peace in that sky. Seeing billions more stars than I do in the small city of Columbia. Even in CoMo whenever I get out of my car I sigh and take a look at the stars and feel at peace. . .

  3. This is how I felt about the sky during my time in the Peace Corps. When I was walking home from somewhere at night, sometimes I’d just stop in the middle of the field and stare straight up and be completely mesmerized by what was up there. Working at summer camp in the midwest, I used to think it was pretty cool when I could find my way without a flashlight because the moon was so bright. Then I moved to a tiny island in the South Pacific, where I could find my way at new moon because the stars themselves lit the way.

  4. I love this. Seeing the stars is one of the only things that makes me feel small and calm. I have never seen them like I did one winter in VT. I was falling so deep in love that year and the stars were all around us. That didn’t work out but ever since, I’ve wanted to see stars like that again. Even at camp there aren’t as many as in rural VT.

    On a side note, I want to see the Northern Lights before I die.

    • “There Will Be Rest” ~ Sara Teasdale

      There will be rest, and sure stars shining
      Over the roof-tops crowned with snow,
      A reign of rest, serene forgetting,
      The music of stillness holy and low.

      I will make this world of my devising
      Out of a dream in my lonely mind.
      I shall find the crystal of peace, – above me
      Stars I shall find.

      My favorite poem. :)

  5. As a kid in suburbia, looking at the night sky with my dad’s telescope was the best. thanks for a healthy dose of nostalgia, you write beautifully.

  6. The photo of the lake reflecting the prairie sky brought back a flood of memories. I was in a remote campsite on the border of Saskatchewan and Alberta. My son, my dogs and I had the place to ourselves. At sunset, we swam in a lake so colourful that it was almost gaudy – pink, purple, yellow, and orange streaked the lake, and we made the colours dance as we broke up the still water with our splashes. It was magical and spiritual and I felt connected to something much larger. Thank you Malaika.

  7. This post made me want to post poems..so fittingly heres a little bit from Night On The Prairies from Whitman…

    I walk by myself- I stand and look at the stars, which I think now I never realized before. Now I absorb immortality and peace. I admire death and test propositions. I was thinking he day most splendid till I saw what the not-day exhibited. I was thinking the globe enough till there sprang out of so noiseless around me myriads of other globes. I henceforth no more ignore them than ignore my own life. Oh I see now life cannot exhibit all to me, as the day cannot. I see that I am to wait for what will be exhibited by death.

  8. I live in a small-enough city that you can just drive out to the mountains and go star-gazing. I love the night sky, and you capture your love of it so beautifully.

  9. Thank you for putting all of my feelings into beautiful and eloquent words. I couldn’t have said it better!

  10. I have to give you credit, for all of your beautiful pieces about life in Edmonton, for their help in making my life decisions. I spent my undergraduate years there, slowly creeping out of the closet, which I wasn’t able to do completely until I moved down East. I’ve been debating and finally just made the decision to go back, and you’re descriptions, both of the beauty of the place (this prairie girl has always loved the sky) and the possibility that I can live my life more freely there than I did ten years ago, made the choice a little easier.

    • Thank you for your lovely comment. It made my day. I’m so happy/touched. I wish you all the best on your prairie homecoming! :)

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