How I Survived My First Thanksgiving as an Out Vegan Lesbian

Aren’t you so excited to go home for Thanksgiving? As a Canadian, I had the pleasure of celebrating this holiday a few weeks ago and therefore feel qualified to provide you with an insightful, well thought-out post about having Thanksgiving with a right-wing extended family when a. you’ve been a vegan for under two months and b. haven’t seen any of them since they found out you’re a lesbian. It was going to have in-focus pictures, and possibly helpful links to recipes, and be relatively free of grammatical errors.

And then I thought, “or I could live blog it on my personal blog and consequently publish this account on Autostraddle so you can all learn from my mistakes/triumphs/vegan-food preparation techniques.”

This promised to be hilarious for at least two reasons that I could  think of: 1. Most people I am related to don’t know what live blogging is, and 2. There is no better way to diffuse an awkward situation than the knowledge that everything you say and do is about to be recorded on the Internet. I mean, probably! We’ll find out. There is no way this could possibly go wrong.

My First Thanksgiving as an Out Vegan Lesbian (There is No Way This Could Possibly Go Wrong)

2:41 p.m.: Went downstairs with intention of getting coffee. Instead, found a giant raw turkey sitting in the sink in the process of getting its entrails removed. Decided I can live with the caffeine headache.

3:25 p.m.: Went downstairs again, this time to make part of my main contribution to the meal under the “things I can actually eat” category, which in this case is butternut squash. I have never actually made butternut squash, so I’m hoping I can do exactly the same thing I did once to acorn squash and that it will taste OK, or at least not poison anyone.

Here’s the recipe I used:

a butternut squash
olive oil
3 tbsp. maple syrup (or to taste)

1. Preheat oven to 400 degrees F and line a cookie sheet with aluminum foil.
2. Using a sharp and gigantic knife, cut the squash lengthwise into quarters. To avoid also cutting your fingers lengthwise, lay it flat on the cutting board. If it rolls around a lot, shave off part of the outside to make a flat surface and then cut.
3. Scoop out the seeds and stringy bits from each quarter. You can rinse and bake/eat the seeds separately, but you can also throw them out.
4. Place the pieces of squash on the cookie sheet with the rind down. Using a pastry brush or a spoon/your fingers, coat the surface of each piece with olive oil and maple syrup (if you don’t have maple syrup, brush each piece with olive oil and sprinkle with brown sugar).
5. Cover squash lightly with aluminum foil and bake for approximately 45 minutes or until tender (use a fork to test).
6. Let stand at least five minutes and brush with additional maple syrup. Serve.

3:27 p.m.: Just attempted to cut squash with a bread knife. Squash currently on floor. Grudgingly asked for help from my father, whose attention is divided between washing dishes, watching TV, and singing something that sounds like it might be but definitely isn’t Italian opera.

3:58 p.m.: Part of the extended family (one aunt, one uncle, one 95-year-old grandfather) arrive.

4:02 p.m.: Squash preparation is on-going. Basic small talk about school ensues. Explanation of modified milk ingredients and why I can’t eat them, versus the squash and the stuff on it (brown sugar and olive oil), which I can.

4:10 p.m.: Squash finally makes it into the oven. We discover we are out of olive oil and that the apple pie someone brought has expired. My father is sent on a mission to acquire more olive oil, pitas, and a possible alternate dessert item from the grocery store.

4:18 p.m.: One aunt, one uncle, my grandfather and my brother start playing Euchre at the kitchen table. My laptop is now positioned by the fridge instead of upstairs in the office, which makes updates a lot more convenient but which is creating a lot of whipped-cream-in-the-vicinity-based anxiety.

4:19 p.m.: Cutting vegetables for what will be my main dish. This recipe was loosely adapted from a recipe for gluten-free pizza from Gluten Free Goddess. Here’s what I did:

yellow pepper
orange pepper
asparagus (if you don’t like asparagus, sub with snow peas or celery)
white mushrooms
campari tomatoes (bigger than grape tomatoes but smaller than plum tomatoes. If you can’t find/ afford them, sub with any smallish, ripe tomatoes)
1/4 red onion
2 tbsp olive oil
1 tsp minced garlic (or to taste)
1 tsp each of some or all of the following: thyme, oregano, basil
pinch of sea salt

1. Preheat oven to 400 degrees F. Cover cookie sheet with a layer of parchment paper.
2. Wash vegetables, cut into large pieces, and combine in large bowl. Leave the asparagus mostly whole but remove the bottom part of the stems. Quarter the tomatoes, scraping out and discarding the goopy bits. Finely slice the onion. All amounts are approximate: if there are more people, use more vegetables.
3. Drizzle olive oil and add herbs, garlic, and salt. Toss well to coat.
4. Place vegetables evenly on cookie sheet.
5. Bake for 15 to 20 minutes or until crisp but tender. If you can’t tell if they’re done, it’s better to take them out early.

4:25 p.m.: Have enlisted my mother to wash vegetables. My childhood self feels that the tables have turned! My current self is appalled at how much dirt is on the mushrooms. Also the card game seems to involve a lot more yelling than I remember the last time I played.

4:32 p.m.: Dad returns from the grocery store with a litre of olive oil, the pita, and raisin buns. You win some you lose some.

4:44 p.m.: Fun with sharpening knives. One cousin and her new boyfriend arrive followed by the two remaining cousins.

4:54 p.m.: The squash comes out of the oven. Is hopefully supposed to look like that.

5:08 p.m.: Vegetables ready to go in the oven. Conversations about life after school with cousins. “Your hair is so blond now!” This is because it is. And for ten minutes yesterday, it was also yellow.

5:09 p.m.: Get caught taking a picture of my vegetable dish with iSight. So far no one has asked what I’m typing. Oh, wait. One of my cousins is sort of trying to look at my screen. But still not asking.

5:20 p.m.: We discuss being a Scrabble family. We definitely are a Scrabble family.

5:45 p.m.: Someone brings up wedding dresses. My brother says he’s planning to get his (presumably, he means his wife’s) from Value Village and tell people it’s grandma’s. Because probably it belonged to someone’s grandma. I plan for a moment to drop a comment about wearing a tux but one doesn’t happen and I don’t force it.

5:48 p.m.: We talk self-defense. My mother says in a class she took when she was 25, they said in the case of a male attacker, just go for the crotch. I am not sure this is correct. She attempts to demonstrate on my dad, who is not into it. We discover that if you are short, this is probably not a good defensive strategy anyway. We Google breaking noses instead. I tell people about my trips to a farmer’s market and the resulting hilarity (read: shoulder pain) that sometimes ensues. I talk a lot about eggplant. Someone asks, but I can eat fruit right? Right.

5:51 p.m.: One of my cousins works in a dealership and gets to meet hockey players. Someone says she should marry one for season’s tickets.

5:52 p.m.: Finding a way to serve the squash is about to be a challenge since no one can figure out where all the spoons have gone. This is not as big a deal as the volume in the kitchen would indicate.

5:55 p.m.: The conversation is now on copyright law. Something interesting is happening with the turkey on the stove, I have no idea what but it seems gross. The entrails are making a reappearance. Probably this means dinner is happening soon, I am just going to look at my vegetables. I explain the typing thing, finally, even though no one has asked I just feel compelled to.

5:59 p.m.: Now we are talking about gambling. And casinos. And cards. The turkey is being eviscerated and is bleeding celery and bread stuffing. Someone just referenced the size it would be as the size of a small child. By someone I mean me. Whatevs. Really I’m only vegan cause of the allergy/convenience thing, I swear.

6:00 p.m.: And now: pets. My cousin is sitting in her boyfriend’s lap. No comment.

6:07 p.m.: The vegetables are out of the oven. They look a little dubious. People keep not getting that this is my turkey, and it is getting burnt. The actual turkey, meanwhile, has now taken over about a third of the counter and part of the floor.

6:12 p.m.: Dinner. Suspect typing at actual dinner will not go over well.

7:19 p.m.: Dinner is over. Topics of conversation during dinner include: what people are doing with their lives, the tiny town my grandfather, mother and aunt are from and its a. small population and b. disturbing lack of diversity of any kind, what you can do with a degree, what happens when you get a degree but get an email the next day telling you it’s void because someone spelled something wrong on it and how you get a new one, and how awesome my vegetable dish was (very).

7:21 p.m.: Dessert. Dessert is pumpkin pie. My mother looked at the ingredients on Crisco and realized that it has soy in it, which I can’t eat, and made her crust with lard instead, because lard has no soy or milk ingredients. The problem with this is that lard has animal ingredients, which she only realized after it was made. I give her points for remembering the soy thing in any case. Instead I am eating apples with peanut butter on a really fancy plate. This is exciting because I have not eaten peanut butter in days (three).

7:23 p.m.: Am now typing at the table with one hand and trying to also participate in the conversation. It is a testament to the dynamics of my family that no one thinks this is weird.

8:02 p.m.: Talk with one of my cousins (the one with the boyfriend) about how cool her life is etc. She is working to be a teacher, has awesome hair, liked my vegetable dish (!), etc. She is also a former women’s studies major. I make fun of people in my feminism and media class with her, she makes fun of the fact she did some of the classes in her degrees backwards and once spent two hours listening to first year kids utterly fail to understand the syllabus. Good times. I completely avoid telling her the reason I took my only women’s studies department class ever (girls) (the feminism/media class is communications), which is why the conversation is a success.

8:28 p.m.: Everyone leaves. My uncle shakes hands with my brother and father but hugs my mother and I. Because my brother is a guy, he says. I make him shake my hand too/anyway, on general principle.

Miscellaneous Totals

Number of possible awkward references to gender/sexuality, mine: 4.
Number of times someone made fun of the fact that my younger brother might possibly conceivably ever have a girlfriend: 2.
Number of times someone made fun of the fact that I might possibly conceivably ever have a girlfriend: 0.
Number of times someone made fun of the fact that my 95-year-old grandfather actually does have a girlfriend: 4. But not to his face.
Glasses of wine: 2.
Number of clarifications needed over things I can/can’t eat: 10. Ish.
Number of potentially disastrous moments trying to remove things from the oven: 2.
Number of times someone commented on my (short, fluorescent) hair: 2.
Number of times my cousin used the phrase “x is so bum” as an apparent compliment: 6.
Number of times someone asked me what I was typing, what I was doing with the computer, or what that on my screen was: 0. I don’t get it either.
Number of times I sort of kind of wanted to eat turkey: 0. Well… 0. Seeing it raw in the sink during dissection helped a lot with this.
Number of times I sort of kind of wanted to eat animal byproducts/ non-vegan food, specifically in the form of pumpkin pie: 5.
Number of times that I did eat non-vegan food: 0.

Republished with glowing permission from Carolyn Yates dot com.

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  1. This was hilarious! Thanks for the Thanksgiving (pre for me, post for you) entertainment.
    BTW, can you get Tofurky in Canada? It is the best! Even our non-veg daughter loves it.
    Also, Ellen has a link on her site where you can adopt a turkey! I know! Mine’s name is Kima!

    • Tofurkey (if it’s actually turkey as the name suggests) is full of soy. Carolyn is allergic to soy. It’s nice to hear about vegans who are also soy-free, though because whenever I eat with vegetarian/vegan folk it seems a little soy-centric. From one allergy-ridden person to another.

      • I’ve noticed the soy thing too! I’ve gotten really excited in the past over things like vegan cheesecake in restaurants only to find out that oh, wait…

        Mostly I’m just glad I’m not allergic to nuts. Or gluten. Or legumes of the from-a-can-due-to-impatience variety.

  2. Haha this was totally going to be my thanksgiving, except my also-vegan sister and I are hosting it, so we get vegan gravy and mashed potatoes and green bean casserole and also a chickpea roast instead of turkey. Also vegan pumpkin pie!

    • Yesterday I read a book with a recipe for Sweet Potato Quesadillas. Today I made that recipe and lamented the fact that I have lived this many years without knowing such a thing could exist. Delicious.

  3. Vegan lesbian autostraddler in Montreal? We should probs be friends.

    My girlfriend’s mother came from Calgary to join us in Montreal for a vegan thanksgiving this year. There were lots of new experiences there. Unexpectedly she really liked my tofurkey.

    Thanks for the wicked post.

  4. some how could help myself from thinking this is the real life version of lisa simpsons vegan thanks giving when u wrote ‘“Your hair is so blond now!” This is because it is. And for ten minutes yesterday, it was also yellow.’
    food sounds yummy.

  5. I didn’t have the best home life growing up. Now that I’ve surrounded myself with friends that I consider family, Thanksgiving is a really big thing to me. And, and, and… This is hard. I have something to tell you. I’m not vegan. At all. I’m about as far away from being vegan as you can get. I’m sorry, you guys. I know, I know. I’m about to be yelled at. And that’s fine. But you guys, meat is soooo good! Okay, I have something else to tell you… I’m not just having turkey for Thanksgiving. I’m also making ham and beef. So many animals are going to die so that I can gorge myself unnecessarily with my friend family. And it’s really sad that those animals are going to die. I know that. I also know that they’re going to be really fucking delicious when they’re dead.

  6. ZEFRANK! i love love love the show and was severely hoping that that’s what your link was going to go to.

  7. This thanksgiving will not be my first as a vegan, but it will be my first as an out lesbian. It’ll be interesting. :P I don’t know ANY vegan lesbians…it’s horrible! so I loved reading this. :)

  8. Great blog about Thanksgiving. I have my first coming up next week. I’m different sort of vegan because I have tremendous dairy allergy, never have eaten an egg in my life, and just hate meat. I slowly phased out dairy and the meat has only been the last 4 months. My family has gotten accustomed to seeing me have a plate full of veggies over the years but I at least have tasted the meat. This year – none. I feel sick to my stomach if I even think of eating it. My plan is if people start asking me questions or I get sick looking at the meat…I will just go into the kitchen and start cleaning up. No one ever complains about that. Or I might fake menstral cramps.

  9. This isn’t really on topic, but Canadians play Euchre?!
    In Michigan Euchre is the card game of default to play with friends and during your biology class freshmen year of high school. But out here in New York, people just raise their eyebrows at me when I mention Euchre.
    Since Montreal is closer to New York than Michigan (it is right?) can I come to Canada and play Euchre with your family? You can live-blog about it.

    • I’m from Ohio and euchre was definitely the freshman-year biology class card game of choice as well (mostly with the jocks, I guess). BUT that was very strange to me, because before then I had only known it as that game my grandma liked to play online with other old people–often from Michigan, actually.

    • Also from Ohio and i remember everybody playing euchre in high school during study hall and it was mostly jocks now that i think of it. we had to do it in secret cause they thought we were gambling. i didnt know that was how you spell euchre at first i pronounced it oo-chray lol duh

    • i was a total cunt in high school/college in Michigan and refused to learn how to play euchre because i was too punk for euchre. but i can attest that everyone else la-la-la-loved it. idk

    • i’m from (near) rochester, ny and i grew up playing euchre. are you in the city? maybe it’s an upstate thing…

      • Me neither. And I’m Canadian. Wtf is Euchre? Is it like an ochre eununch. Because that is what that word is making me envision. And I don’t like it one bit.

      • I’m not the only one who doesn’t know what the hell is going on with this Euchre thing. Good. I feel better now.

        • From Ohio. Learned how to play euchre when I was in 6th grade while watching pro wrestling with my mormon bff. Then we made a euchre club in our middle school and somehow got people to show up to that thing twice a week.

  10. Can I just say that as a vegetarian I find it irritating in real life when I say, “I’m a vegetarian”, and then someone begins a monologue on the virtues of animal flesh? Is this a pet peeve of anyone else? Why do I care about offending when clearly objectifying animals is meant to offend in this context? /feelings

    • I eat meat and I find it irritating, too. I’m all for standing up and stating opinions and reasoning when warranted, but I just don’t see the point in the hyper-defence that some carnivorous folks tend to employ right out of the gate. Can’t we just accept someone’s choices and roll with it?

      I’m sure it’s probably just a reaction to a handful of encounters with militant vegetarians, however that doesn’t make it endearing, funny, or especially respectful.

      • “Can’t we just accept someone’s choices and roll with it? I’m sure it’s probably just a reaction to a handful of encounters with militant vegetarians, however that doesn’t make it endearing, funny, or especially respectful”.

        *Comment love*

        • agreeeeed.

          think of it this way girl-lovin’ people… you say “i like girls” and the person immediately launches into how much they looooove the penis.

          its just like, what? why?

  11. After playing Euchre at many a family gathering, I have concluded that if you’re not yelling, you’re not doing it right.
    We care very much about our card games

  12. I actually like tofurkey (well, the Loma Linda/Worthington meatless turkey loaf). My extended family is all religious and vegetarian (all adventists eat loma linda fake meat, it may as well be a requirement for converting), so we always had meat and vegetarian options. My biggest issue was being forced to eat sweet potatoes when I was a kid, those damn things are pure evil.

  13. “Someone brings up wedding dresses. My brother says he’s planning to get his (presumably, he means his wife’s) from Value Village and tell people it’s grandma’s. Because probably it belonged to someone’s grandma.”

    hahaha. Not very sentimental, but I like his style.

  14. this is awesome and i totally needed vegan/veg holiday recipes! if i were going home it’d be my 1st vegetarian thanksgiving with the family, but since it’s so expensive i’m staying in california and eating a tofurkey with my hands

  15. Sounds like a pretty successful holiday, also your recipes sound good. Thanks for the link to the Scrabble family video!

  16. I hosted my own vegan thanksgiving this year and even my meat-loving quebecois mother-in-law loved my food. and my chef boss told her whole family about my homemade tofurkey and is now being forced to cook some for them for christmas. yay!

  17. I feel like you are writing with disdain about the turkey, as if you’ve never seen one before. I’m not insinuating that you’re being a snotty vegan, though, don’t worry. I enjoyed your post. I just think your attitude towards the turkey appears to be a little put on. But, I could be totally wrong, maybe you’ve never celebrated Thanksgiving with a turkey before.

    • I feel like watching a turkey get roasted and the insides all there and shit would be gross if you’re a vegan for ethical reasons.

    • this was her first vegan thanksgiving, so maybe she was more aware of the process of getting meat on the table this year.

      it can be gross for lots of reasons. even when i was a meat eater i thought it was gross. but that’s just me.

  18. This story was awesome. Nonetheless…I’m a hungry dinosaur. MEAT, MEAT, MEAT, MEAT!!!!! ^_^

    Though my girlfriend is kosher, so I may take one of these ingredients and make something for her. Should be fun…and interesting.

  19. Wow. I just started to think that the fact that I’m bi could possibly be an issue.

    And I already hate the relatives that we have to stay with during Thanksgiving. (Thankfully, my parents hate them, too.)

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  21. THIS! I think I smiled through reading most of this. This will also be my first completely vegan thanksgiving. I can’t imagine how my relatives could possibly think of any more questions to ask me about being vegan but I’m sure they’ll come up with something as usual.
    And now I want butternut squash

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