Intense Lesbian Fanfiction, Part One: Blaze Is Here

Chapter 3

Jodie was shaking in the driver’s seat as she grabbed her phone from her purse and fanatically dialed a number. She put the phone to her ear and panted as it rang.



“Yes?” said Allison Bechdel.

“Goddammit is this Jodie? Did you not do it? God, Ellen was right, you are such a pussy.”


“It was on her blog, so probably about 4 million.”

“Dammit. Shit. Allison what do I do? You need to help me!”

“No, fuck you, I told you I don’t want to be a part of this. Or anything. That’s why I live in Vermont.”

“Allison, please. If Ellen finds out, she’ll kill me!”

“She won’t kill you, she’ll probably just write that you’re a pussy on her blog again.”


“Calm down. The prophecy said it’s really not supposed to get bad until this kid gets a trendy haircut. Then shit will get real. What’s her name by the way?”


“Oh, damn.”

“I know.”

“That’s intense.”

“This whole thing is intense, Allison.”

“I know. That’s why I’m in Vermont.”

“I have more bad news, though. She was with one of the devil’s higher ups.”

“Oh no. Which one?”

“Um, Louis. Why?”

“Oh, I know him. When I did a reading at Carnegie Mellon, he was there. He was in the business school. He’s pretty chatty. He was telling me about his internship in Hell the summer before. But shit, Jodie, if he was there that only means one thing; this situation is potentially apocalyptic.”

“Oh my God, I might be responsible for the apocalypse.”

“Do you think they’ll take back your Oscars for that?”

“Oh God, no one is going to buy the 50th anniversary edition of Taxi Driver when it comes out in 2026. They’re going to be so mad at me!”

“No one is going to buy it because they’ll all be dead from the APOCALYPSE JODIE! Jesus, Jodie. Vermont can’t hide me from the apocalypse. You have to kill her. Before it’s too late”

“I know, I know. If we don’t tell Ellen, we should warn the others that she’s still out there, right?”

“Yeah, I suppose.”

“Okay, I’ll call The Twins, Melissa Eth-”

“Hey hey hey, there is no ‘I call, you call’. You’re on your own, Jodie.”

“What? Come on! What’re you doing that so important? Drawing?”

“Yes, that’s exactly what I’m doing that’s so important. Drawing. It’s my livelihood.”

“You really think those little comics are more-”

“I’m hanging up…”

Fanfic_Chapter 3_Jodie calls Alison

Illustration by Rory Midhani

“No! Don’t! Fine, I’ll call. But one last question.”


“Should I call the entire cast of The L Word?”

“Yes, of course.”

“Okay. What about the cast of The Real L Word?”

There was a pause on Allison’s line.

“Eeeehhhh, maybe not.”

“Yeah, no. Okay. Goodbye Allison.”

“Bye Jodie. Oh Jodie. One more thing.”


“Quit being such a pussy.”

Jodie heard the other phone click and frowned — not because of that sly diss, but because deep in her heart, she knew she was a pussy.

Next: Chapter 4

Pages: 1 2 3 4See entire article on one page

This! This article you just read wouldn't be possible without support from readers like you. In fact, we wouldn't be here AT ALL without reader support. We keep Autostraddle majority free-to-read, but it isn't free to create! We need YOU to sign up for A+ to help keep this indie queer media site funded. A+ membership starts at just $4/month or $30/year. If you can, will you join?

Join A+

Emma Hunsinger

F. Sanger is a comedienne in NY. She now has more in common with E.L. James than she is willing to admit.

Emma has written 4 articles for us.


  1. Uh…ok…

    “Portia was sleeping quietly at her feet”

    “Portia, at her feet, looked up with scared eyes.

    “Shhhh, shhhhh,” Ellen said and pet Portia’s cute short haircut. “It’s okay girl, go back to sleep.”

    Portia dutifully put her head back down.”

    Portia as a pet? This gives me a sick feeling in my stomach. I know it’s fiction but how is it ok to turn her into that?

    • I do think this piece has some problems with femme-presenting women, but I just want to give my perspective on the pet thing since I interpreted it a different way. I have no idea how much the author(s) or readers & commenters know about BDSM, but in the BDSM community there is a thing called pet play (aka pony play, kitten play, puppy play, etc.) and it basically means both partners consensually agree that one partner (the submissive) will act/be treated as a pet of some sort (i.e. they may sleep at their dominant’s feet, their dom may pet them, etc.). This is all on the sub’s terms and not meant as a sign of disrespect at all. So anyway, maybe because I’ve got one foot in the BDSM world, that was how I pictured the Ellen/Portia thing, which made it seem cute. I understand, however, that the author probably didn’t intend that/most of you didn’t read it that way.

      • And I would be perfectly okay with this being D/s thing (far be it from me to yuck anyone’s yum and all), but if that’s the case, it needs to clearly stated and labeled that way. Especially given the misogyny that femme presenting people experience in queer communities. That is what, in my mind, makes the difference between degradation and domination in mainstream porn and erotica and porn and erotica that is explicit and aware of the dynamics they’re presenting.

      • what amanda said is how i felt when i read it. fanfic is often sexual fantasy, and it plays with a lot of different styles of sex and play and usually dom/sub stuff. (the author references EL james in her bio.) to me personally, this whole piece felt hyperbolic and overblown and goofy but also consensual? sex in fiction is rarely politically correct or ethical. sex itself isn’t, either. obviously this story isn’t for everybody, and that’s okay, but maybe that doesn’t also mean there’s anything wrong with it. maybe it does need a warning at the top, like leigh said, i don’t know. but some femmes (myself included) do enjoy sexual fantasies like that and these reactions, not the story, is what makes my stomach hurt.

        • I really like bdsm and kink (in fiction and in life) and I don’t know how the author intended it, but for me there was no sense at all that the Portia as a pet was consensual play.

          I felt like there was some kind of point being made about the nature of celebrity and maybe I’m wrong but it was really uncomfortable for me to read and I found it dehumanising to Portia.

          I never intended to imply that there was anything wrong with pet play or femmes who enjoy pet play. However, I can totally see how my comment came across that way and I’m sorry for that.

        • Not to “yuck anyone’s yum” here, but if it’s a matter of D/s relationships, it REALLY needs to be explicitly communicated. You wouldn’t enter a D/s relationship without communicating it with your partner, right? The author has that obligation to their readers just as well.

        • Firefly, I didn’t interpret your comment as anti-BDSM at all (although others might have). I was just offering another perspective because something felt off to me about this piece, but I didn’t realize that I had interpreted the Portia/Ellen thing in such a specific way/breezed past that scene until reading the comments. Thanks for being so gracious though. I appreciate hearing other people’s thoughts about the dynamic and the piece as a whole.

  2. I commend Autostraddle for courageously publishing this exposé of the celesbian kyriarchy.

    The piece balances hard-hitting journalism with nuanced portrayals of those involved, so that while we may never forget the dangers posed by the shadowy sapphic cabal that runs our lives, we might, at last, begin to understand them.

    I look forward to further instalments, which I hope are written with the same level of integrity.

  3. This is hands down the most disgusting thing I’ve read on AS. The dehumanization of Portia, the constant pussy slander, “actual boy” (like seriously, wtf is that supposed to mean??)

    Also, whisky and whiskey are two separate things.

  4. I’m not sure if the amateur writing-style was purposeful, orrrrr… But, umm, yeah, I don’t think I’ll be waiting for Part Two. I couldn’t get past Chapter Three or something =\

    ^ Echoing comments above in feeling uncomfortable with Portia being treated as a dog, and having the word “PUSSY” used in a demeaning way.

      • Yeah, I think overall, that was the biggest turn-off with this piece – the shoddy quality of writing. I mean, I have literally shed tears reading some exquisite fanfiction, and you’d think a website with such a talented staff of writers would have something better as their ‘ground-breaking’ fiction series.

        This makes me curious as to how this writer in particular was selected. I don’t recall seeing a call for fiction writers to submit.

  5. “When I did a reading at Carnegie Mellon, he was there. He was in the business school. He’s pretty chatty. He was telling me about his internship in Hell the summer before.”

    CMU alum here, crying from laughter. This sounds like all the business school students I knew.

  6. autostraddle, i’m a long term reader and usually i’m of the opinion that you can do no wrong… but what’s going on with the whole portia as a dog thing here? is it supposed to be some kind of comment about how femmes are inherently subservient?

    i don’t want to be oversensitive but this whole post made me feel sick. there’s absurd and then there’s gross. honestly what were you guys thinking?

  7. I really like the idea of original fiction on AS. This one isn’t really my jam, in part because of the femme=hyperweak issue pointed out by DJ and others above, and the whole celebrity fanfic thing feels uncomfortable to me. I’m always very excited to see more of Rory’s illustrations, though! They seem to be uncredited here.

  8. I’ve read tons of fanfiction for reasons… *
    When I first saw this story, I was like, “Yes! Lesbian fanfiction endorsed by Autostraddle.”
    I have searched high and very low for lesbian fanfiction.
    Once I realized I hadn’t found the holy grail of lesbian fanfiction, but a satire, I embraced this story. I’m looking forward to the next part.

    *I will never read E.L. James

Contribute to the conversation...

Yay! You've decided to leave a comment. That's fantastic. Please keep in mind that comments are moderated by the guidelines laid out in our comment policy. Let's have a personal and meaningful conversation and thanks for stopping by!