Results for: dead to me
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Working Out at a Strength Gym Has Been Great, but These Exercises Make Me Want To Scream
Even though I believe in complete body liberation and fat freedom, I don’t like to talk about my “I’ve been fat my whole life” baggage.
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Burgers, Bodies, and Off-Menu Bisexual Swagger
This is about a high school job.
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Meet Me at Flanigan’s
When I think of what the diner experience is in South Florida, I think of Flanigan’s.
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The Seduction of Aliens
When I saw a UFO, I was 18 and it was the night before prom.
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I Spent the Summer Screaming in My Car, What About You?
When the sound of a scream leaves my throat, it is a choice. I am never accidentally screaming. I scream in the car and it is on purpose.
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We Call It Time Travel
To love someone new is to agree to travel somewhere that doesn’t exist yet together.
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Overheating: Leaving My Home State of Florida
I have not given up on Florida, even if for now it is best we spend time apart.
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Fault Lines
She was in the middle of a long divorce, and I had pulverized myself to fit into the life of a secret girlfriend.
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I Used Instagram Mantras As Therapy — And It Worked
They served as daily messages your best friend should tell you when you’re hurting — and in desperate need of a silver lining.
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The Numbers in My Phone
I tried for a long time not to have a smart phone.
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“Middlesex” Has a Complicated Legacy — 20 Years Ago, It Changed My Life
When I read Middlesex, I felt that tinge of recognition I think a lot of queer and trans people look for when they realize something is different about themselves.
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Three Stages of Never Ever Doing Holiday Meals the “Right” Way
Holiday meals have always been mired in conflict for me.
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Revisiting the Scary Movie Sleepover
Horror movies are for the depressed and anxious gays.
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The Soft Butch That Couldn’t (Or: I Got COVID-19 in March 2020 and Never Got Better)
Is a soft butch a soft butch if she can barely hold even herself together? Is a soft butch a soft butch without her swagger?
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Elm Street Was a Nightmare Before Freddy Made It One
Elm Street was just another part of a society — our society, where people are taught to care very little for each other.
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The Double Lives of Queer Church Musicians
Many of my colleagues and I have left church music leadership entirely.
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Letters to My Dead, Gay [REDACTED]
I don’t know you. I never did. But I presume that in all of our family, perhaps, I am the only one who could even begin to understand you.
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That Time I Binged “Freaks and Geeks” While My Stalker Ex Held Me Captive
Kim and Lindsay’s friendship is the real love story of this series. I want them to end up as friends like everyone wants the leads to end up together in a romantic comedy. I shake with it.
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The Right to Breathe
I think of the moment I was born, how I must not have cared at all how loud I screamed. I needed to breathe. I needed everyone to know I was here.
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Tarot, Sex, & Hoodoo: A Black Girl’s Guide to the Underworld
An exploration of summer, desire, and the senses through the lens of tarot and trans womanhood.