This review will contain major spoilers of Season 3 of Apple TV+’s Dickinson. Gay spoilers, mostly, but all kinds are on the table.
I put off writing this as long as I could. Despite knowing it was the gayest season of the already-very-gay Dickinson, I stalled. Once I got to the halfway point of the season, I dug my heels in. I avoided watching, I procrastinated writing, I muted the hashtag and quickly scrolled past headlines. And it wasn’t because I don’t like this season; quite the opposite. I love this season. This season is everything I love about the show turned up to eleven. But I also knew it was the last, and I wasn’t ready to say goodbye.
But I knew it was time. I saw the comments on our weekly TV roundups, I saw the calls for it on Twitter. I knew it was time to say goodbye to Alena Smith‘s stroke of brilliance, to bid adieu to Ella Hunt’s Sue Gilbert, and to do the hardest thing of all: eulogize Hailee Steinfeld’s Emily Dickinson.
This show is unlike anything that’s ever existed. It might not be the first to do any one of the things it did best, but I think it was the first to combine them all. At least the first that combined them all so well. The period piece with modern vocabulary and music, the meta historical references and hidden pop culture jokes, the refusal to commit to one genre, the re-gaying of a famous figure that time tried to straighten out.
And that last thing was one of the things heightened in this final season. Where once it seemed it maybe Emily and Sue would have to live their lives in quiet longing, by the end of season two it was clear their magnetic pull to each other was too strong. And in season three they go through as much of an emotional dating arc as any queer couple on any show regardless of time period.
Throughout this whole season, Emily promises to write Sue poems forever, and Sue keeps asking Emily to be with her, to be really with her, not through the filter of her poems. Sue keeps asking Emily to choose her, and Emily keeps thinking she is by writing her poems. They wish they could live properly together, to raise Sue’s baby son with two moms, but they know that’s impossible. So instead they’ll steal whatever moments they can. And steal they do.
Emily eventually realizes she’s hiding behind her words and shouts her love from Sue, literally and metaphorically. For example, one day she finds Sue crying and she looks her in the eye, no filters, no flowery rhymes, and tells Sue she loves her, and she wants to shower Sue with that love until she feels it in her bones, and that’s all Sue ever wanted. “You might be his wife,” Emily says to her sister-in law, “but I’m yours.”
It’s not all romps in the orchard and flower petal baths for Emily and Sue this season though, because when Sue finds out Emily is writing poems to someone else, making herself out to sound helpless and meek, she accuses Emily of running away from who she is. Emily tries to explain that she just wanted someone’s unbiased opinions of her writing, someone who can’t see that the words are written in the blood from her own heart.
And Sue acknowledges that she’s not really only mad about the poems. She wants to be together, to really be together. She wants Emily, all of Emily, and she wants Emily to want her back; she wants the kind of love not even Emily Dickinson could put into words.
Emily pulls away again, and says it’s not a good day for all these feelings (a relatable mood) but Sue reminds her there’s no day but today.
Emily is frustrated and tells her sister that she wishes she could just go to the future where maybe things wouldn’t be quite so hard, and because of this show’s aforementioned refusal to stick to a genre because rules are made to be broken, Emily and Lavinia do, indeed, go to the future. They find themselves in 1955, hilariously startled by cars, and oddly entranced by a strange and morbid poet who is a student at the all-female (!) Smith College and who loves the great American poet Emily Dickinson. Oh and this poet? Her name is Sylvia Plath.
Sylvia Plath thinks that Emily and Lavinia are just really committed to their cosplay, and plays along, telling them about the poet’s legacy, and about the rumors that Emily Dickinson was a lesbian. Since the word “lesbian” wouldn’t be used the way we know it to be used for another decade or two, the girls are a bit confused, but when Sylvia explains it, Emily looks like she just heard her name for the first time.
Emily Dickinson tells Sylvia Plath that her energy is intense (yes I loved writing that, thank you for asking) and wishes she could go back to her own time period now. Because she had everything she needed all along; she had her imagination that could take her anywhere, and she had Sue. That’s all she needs.
Plus, saying it out loud to Lavinia wasn’t as scary as she thought it would be. She loves Sue, and she’s not afraid of that fact anymore.
And this epiphany carries over to other aspects of her life, her eyes finally open, once she blinked up from her little scraps of paper and looked around. She idolized her father, despite his old-fashioned views on women, especially as it pertains to the two things she was passionate about: writing and education. She convinced him to agree with her enough times that she thought he was evolving, thought he was growing with her, with the times. But it turns out he was just placating her, which comes into sharp focus for her when he asks her to write his will for him because Austin won’t speak to him anymore, something Emily is honored to do. Until he asks her to write Austin as the sole beneficiary, or his unnamed infant son in case of his death. Emily realizes he never even considered her, never even thought to question the standards, to push the status quo. Emily realizes her father has no imagination, and that she can’t hitch her wagon to him, because he was just a mossy statue memorializing a horse long dead. She needed to hitch her wagon to a horse of a different color.
That night her imagination takes her into the abyss, and she dreams of Sue in a tux, dancing with her, but it falls apart the way nightmares sometimes do. And she knows she can’t sit back any longer and dream. She understands now what Sue meant about loving her with more than words. She’s ready to be present.
And present she is, and Emily and Sue share an intimate night together, and they become the poem, without wasting a drop of ink.
After the stunning montage of Emily and Sue caressing and kissing and loving on each other ends and the credits start to roll, Ivy by Taylor Swift plays, which made me laugh out loud for how correct and queer it is. “I’d live and die for moments that we stole, on begged and borrowed time. So tell me to run, or dare to sit and watch what we’ll become and drink my husband’s wine.” I did not yet have an Emisue playlist, but I do now, and so far it’s just “Split the Lark” and “Ivy.”
Before I get to the very end of the season, I wanted to touch on other moments I really enjoyed that weren’t especially gay but I love them anyway:
- Lavinia. Just, all of her. She’s such a weirdo and just when I thought the show would split my entire soul in two, Lavinia would wander in with her latest scheme and make me belly laugh. A+++ work by Anna Baryshnikov.
- The Dickinson Family Sing-a-Long, not only because they have truly iconic voices in that main case that all got the chance to shine, but also because they let Hailee Steinfeld sing like modern day Hailee Steinfeld. Ella Hunt’s natural singing voice fits in with the time period seamlessly, and Jane Krakowski’s voice is malleable enough that she made it fit in too; and I’m sure Hailee COULD have done it, she’s massively talented. But I love that they didn’t make her. It made it feel more raw and real and authentic, even though it was anachronistic. Maybe because it was anachronistic. It was perfect and I loved it.
- All of Henry’s scenes were amazing; Chinaza Uche is supremely talented. I spent most of the season shouting at him to send his letters to poor Betty, because Amanda Warren was breaking my whole heart and I just wanted them to connect!! How dare this show make me care so much about a heterosexual relationship!!!
- Wiz Khalifa as Death continued to be absolute perfection right down to his last appearance. If you had told me it was happening before I saw it I would have thought you were joking, but he was truly iconic in this role and I hope when Death kindly stops for me someone at least half as amazing is driving the carriage.
- Please can we talk about the asylum! I watched Girl, Interrupted at an impressionable age and proceeded to watch it arguably too many times for my still-developing, already-depressed brain. My extremely closeted brain couldn’t wrap my head around why I was obsessed with Angelina Jolie’s Lisa, but I was, and I would quote this movie all the time, especially the line about the aorta that was expertly recreated with Emily and one of the women she found in the basement of the asylum. I giddily clapped my hands with recognition, and was even more amused when Emily quite literally says that the headmaster of the asylum took the girls and interrupted their lives. Just, :chef’s kiss:, brilliant.
The series ends with Emily planning out what would be her unofficial uniform for the decades she will spend in her room writing like she’s running out of time. Writing and dreaming and loving and writing and feeling and longing and writing and hoping and mourning and writing.
“Even if I can’t change the world, I’m still going to write. Even if no one ever cares. Even if it makes absolutely no difference that there was a person named Emily Dickinson who sat in this little room and wrote things down just because she felt them.”
And this is going to sound so naval gaze-y but I understand exactly how this feels. Sometimes it’s hard, putting hours of time and spools of emotion and, every once in a while, literal tears into a piece of writing and then you put it on the internet where it crosses the path of approximately 0.00009 of people for maybe three minutes of their time if you’re lucky, and then in a blink they’re on to the next thing, the next headline, the next tweet. Sometimes it almost feels pointless.
Would anyone even notice if I just…stopped? But the truth is, I’d notice. Words bubble up in me like lava in a volcano, and if I don’t get them out in one way or another, it feels like I might explode. I think that’s why I was so drawn to the energy of this portrayal of Emily Dickinson; her chaos, her imagination, the way writing was never a question, it was always a certainty. She embodies so many of the things I feel and think and believe, while also being so many things I hope to someday be. She is brave and she is bold and she is funny and messy and strong and she is just so very who she is all the time, unapologetically.
So, like Emily Dickinson, even if I can’t change the world, I’m still going to write. Even if no one ever cares. Even if it makes absolutely no difference that there was a person named Valerie Anne who sat in this little room and wrote things down about TV shows just because she felt them.
And I’m probably going to rewatch Dickinson with regularity for the rest of my life.
A crescent still abides,
Which like the moon, some turbid night,
Is summoned by the tides.
I haven’t been able to bring myself to watch the last episode yet, but this helped inch me closer! I’ll miss this show (and LAVINIA) so much. It really resonated with me as a dyke and a writer, and the dance scene from season one is possibly one of my favourite scenes on tv of all time.
This is such a beautiful piece. Dickinson was a show that I found a lot of comfort in as a queer poet too.
Beautifully written! I’m going to miss this show so much.
I love this review! Reading this is actually giving me a better feeling of resolution than the finale did. I also find that I relate so much to Emily’s need to be in her head and heart and express herself…and I realized that I grew up being embarrassed about it. This show makes me want to embrace it. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
Saying goodbye to Dickinson was the hardest thing i did this year, it had it all, humor, drama, gayness but mostly love. This show is a masterpiece and i know a lot of “misfits” bonded with Emily. The music and the pop culture references where superb and i will be watching over and over again.
And guess what Valerie, i always read your articles and this one was perfect for the show.
god I love this review and I love this show
This might be the first time a spoiler ever got me to watch a show. I’ve seen this advertised, it looks delightful, but in my mind, Period Piece = Sad Lesbians and I just cannot. But an HEA? For Emily Dickinson? I will be binging this. Also, Sylvia Plath and Smith College 1955? I couldn’t love that premise any more.
Thank you for putting into words how much this show meant to so many of us who write and love differently. I felt so seen by that finale
This is beautifully written!
I loved the part where you talk about the Girl, interrupted reference because i now know i really don’t have original experiences. Closeted high school me watched that film 14 times and loved both Angelina’s and Winona’s characters. Why is this a shared experience?
I know this wasn’t the point, but goddamn I would miss it if you stopped writing Valerie Anne. You have enhanced the stories I love with your wit and charm and critiques.
I am a 40 years old “girl”. for all my life i keept my feelings away from me, and to be honest, i still don’t know why. Dickinson was like somebody came into my dark room and finally turned on the light! I still rewatch it all the time, i feel so good now, I ll be thankful to Emily Dickinson forevermore, and for sure I ll be forever thankful to Alena Smith, Hailee Steinfeld and Ella Hunt, because through them all this magic came to me. Dear Valerie , you wrote the best article i have ever read! GRAZIE!