Depression is not forever because it always ends, and depression is forever because it always comes back. It won’t work if I only want to stay on the days when my brain breaks through the muck. Turn Out The Lights is a meditation on wanting to stay on the very worst days.
I’ve been dealing with SAD all my adult life, and especially since I moved to the northeast where daylight lasts about as long as my lunch break from November to March. I’ve learned a lot about coping, and about making things easier on myself by noticing and addressing my symptoms before I’m in the midst of a full-blown depressive spiral. SAD isn’t fixable for me, but here’s how I’ve learned to fight back against it.
A lot of the requests from readers for advice and for personal writing are about mental health, so today we thought we’d share with you about our brain situations, what helps, what doesn’t, and what we’re still working on.
Nothing is straightforward about Senua’s journey.
You’re tired of feeling like your friend’s therapist; how do you opt out of that without just avoiding them forever?
Sometimes getting out of bed and onto the couch is the biggest thing you will achieve in day, and that is okay.
“Chester Bennington’s anger was so present and so empathic. It told me it was okay that I had it too— that I wasn’t alone, that my feelings were normal. It replaced my fear, and it helped me survive.”
If I and other people with certain disabilities are going to survive, we need care — and not from ourselves. Because when it gets really bad for me, self-care is literally impossible. In those moments, I need community care.
Realizing you’re bisexual after you’re married to a dude, coming to terms with this awful therapist, and never ever ever U-Hauling again. It’s time for some good old fashioned advice!
So, about that time I was having a mental break.
“I thought changing something on the outside would change the wrecked ruin of me on the inside. I thought somehow the inside would get a memo from my outside and get into shape. It didn’t, but my hair is the first way I was able to gain autonomy over my body.”
“I feel affinity for parts of Asian communities, neuerodivergent communities, queer communities and kink communities. I don’t really feel completely invested in one place. It’s always been like that.”
We all know self-care is important, but what does that actually mean? I talked to four experts in mental and social health care to find out more about the nuts and bolts of what self-care and community care look like for queer communities.
Fitting into Los Angeles wasn’t going to happen for me. Or so I thought, until I stopped trying.
The joke was that we had to have sex before the election, because if Donald Trump won, I never wanted to be touched again. It was a joke. A joke.
“Four-and-a-half minutes was all it took to throw me back into this huge river of feeling, and it was exhilarating and rewarding and made me feel light and warm in a place that had been cold and damp for a long time.”
“Even if I didn’t think I was hurting her feelings, she’s telling me I was. So what is my end game with my current strategy – make her feel badly for bringing up an emotional issue that she’s uncomfortable with? Make her feel like dirt for being honest with her own feelings?”
“With a strong intersectional focus, this is a zine about mental health for all people, in all walks of life. We believe that mental health care and support should be a right for all.”
I like to think I can control my anger, but I usually end up burning my own life down instead.
When the world feels dark, we have to find the light where we can and hold onto it. This is a story about a bright, shining spot of goodness: My Granny.