Post-Election Open Thread: We Love You And We Will Never Stop Fighting For You

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In the coming days a million think pieces will be written about how a fear-mongering, woman-hating, disabled-hating, POC-hating, Muslim-hating con man managed to get elected president of the United States. You already know all the headlines and all the takes, without even reading them. The bottom line is that white Americans showed up to the polls in record numbers yesterday for the sole purpose of stopping the march of progress. We are a country built on misogyny and white supremacy, and the prospect of four years of a woman president after eight years of a black president was too much for an overwhelming majority of white voters to handle. And so they elected Donald Trump to the highest office in the land.

I didn’t sleep last night. I threw up more than once. Stacy hasn’t stopped crying and has suffered multiple panic attacks. I am heartbroken and terrified and sick about all the big things a Trump presidency will mean and all the gut-stomping little things we haven’t even thought of yet. I lay in bed shaking last night at the thought of Melania Trump taking over FLOTUS’ Twitter account.

I don’t know what the future holds, but here’s what I do know: You are loved. You belong here. And we will never, ever, ever stop fighting for you. The country didn’t change last night; the white supremacist patriarchy, the hate for minorities, it didn’t appear from nowhere. It crawled out of the darkness where we’ve been fighting it our whole lives. We’ve always known what was underneath the facade of equality in this country and now we’ll move our battle into the light.

There’s been a question buzzing around the internet for a while now, a question about whether we still need queer media, women’s media, counter culture media. Are gay people not the mainstream now? Has President Obama not moved us into a post-racial world? Well, no and no. And now the whole world knows.

We aren’t going anywhere. We are proud to stand beside you, to be here in these trenches with you, to share our stories and our lives with you. You are our family. If you need to rage today, we will rage with you. If you need to cry, we will cry with you. If you need to think out loud, we will listen. If you need to sit quietly while other people carry the conversation, we will honor your silent presence.

Catherine Cortez Masto of Nevada became the first Latina senator of the United States last night. Ilhan Omar is our first Somali-American legislator. They are fighting for us too.

Hear me: We love you. You are not alone. All hope is not lost. We will face this uncertain and terrifying future together. We will never stop fighting. We will never give up. We will take this despair and this rage and we will turn it into action. The march of progress will continue and you are our family and we will never give up.

Let’s talk about how you’re feeling.


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Heather Hogan

Heather Hogan is an Autostraddle senior editor who lives in New York City with her wife, Stacy, and their cackle of rescued pets. She's a member of the Television Critics Association, the Gay and Lesbian Entertainment Critics Association, and a Rotten Tomatoes Tomatometer critic. You can also find her on Twitter, and Instagram.

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287 Comments

  1. Tonight, I will go and do my usual volunteering at my LGBTQ community center. Usually I just sit there, so that the doors can stay open. Tonight I will do the same. I am hopeful. Tonight, there may be some scared people looking for a safe place. And the doors will be open.

  2. Heather you’re a class act and I love all of you. Today I think about all of you and everyone else, and the world, and tonight I’ll open some wine with friends and we’ll hug for a while.

    And tomorrow I’ll research charities that I can support / give time and money to, to fight bigotry.

    The lesbian in me wants to crawl under the blankets and leave the world. The Hufflepuff in me is on a mission to educate and love and make this world better for everyone who needs it.

  3. My heart is breaking. I have never commented before but need this love and solidarity right now. I am 20 years old and this is the first presidential election I was able to vote in, and I don’t know what to do with my achy body/mind/heart/brain.

  4. Thank you for posting this. I haven’t found comfort in anything written so far before this post. I’m just lying in bed crying wondering how I’m supposed to operate today. It’s funny because I woke up this morning and realized that the more common cause for this kind of extreme emotion, anxiety, pain and panic attack has been heartbreak. Fitting, huh?

    Also I need to vent here: I got into an argument last night with my (also very liberal) dad. He was arguing that he wasn’t significantly more privileged than I am. And it made me so mad. His main point was that I am also white and come from a wealthy family. I know I need to recognize my privilege. I know that I must use my privilege help to support POC and trans people and people with disabilities. BUT I AM ALLOWED TO BE SCARED TOO.

    I can simultaneously recognize that others have more palpable, threatening reasons to be afraid while also being terrified and heartbroken. While wondering how this election may alter the trajectory of my entire life. And as a middle-aged, straight, white, male, he doesn’t have to do that.

    Thank you for listening to me Autostraddle. I love you and I’m here for all of you too.

  5. I don’t even k ow how to process this, in some ways. This has been an abysmal year. I’m scared for myself, and scared for friends for many more reasons since I am at least white and dont seem too gnc, I can shut my mouth about being sapphic if i try, ect.

    Its a minor detail but I can’t help but be more bothered my previous relationship ended, as I had hoped timove to the UK and marry her. Not that stuff is great there either but the idea of getting away from this garbage fire country is appealing.

    I’m not though. I’m staying and fighting. I need to find out how to start pushing harder, how we can make Trunps presidency hell, how much outreach and activism I can truly do. I admit I’m not sure where to start. And I may need a day of grief and fear first.
    But thats where I’m at.

    Fear and dissapointmenr and spite, the desire the fight and desire to sleep, in various measures.

  6. I am so angry. I feel bad bc I just yelled at my coworkers who are being surprisingly blase about this situation and they work in the military! and one of them didn’t vote! (They are both Hiliary supporters).

    And most of my family voted for Trump.

    And Gary Johnson voters GRRRRR!!! And what the hell with the incredibly wrong polls?!!!

    And today is my fucking birthday and I cannot.

    Silver lining: I have 2 beautiful baby girls coming in 2 months… (4 days before Trump is inaugurated! UGGGHHaskdjlkshuwengwijvnw!@#@%#^@^$)!!!!

    • I wouldn’t blame Gary Johnson-voters. I respect people that chooses a third candidate because they wanna vote for someone they truly support instead of settling for the lesser of the two evils that is the Democrat and the Republican.

      • Respect them all you want, Clinton or Trump we’re going to win no matter what. It’s basically a selfish vote to “stick it to the man” when really it’s just a waste. The choice was between one American future or the other. So keep your selfish Gary Johnson dreams all you want, we now live in a Trump reality.

        • Morally, voting for someone you support is never a waste. And practically, it hardly determines the outcome of the election since not all libertarian voters prefers the democrat over the republicans. I’d say it’s about 50/50. A libertarian agrees with republicans on economic liberties and with democrats on social liberties.

          • i’m glad that YOU feel okay morally, but this election was bigger than all of our personal morals. y’all knew that there are so many policies in this country that stopped so many of our most marginalized residents from voting and you had a vote and you wasted it. y’all knew how many people couldn’t get to the polls b/c they had to work, b/c of voter intimidation, b/c of felony status, b/c of so many reasons, and you could, you were able to vote, and you threw it away.

            trump voters believe in trump’s view of the world, are okay with electing a racist misogynist rapist to the presidency and are okay with what direction he wants this country to go in. they are terrible people and they voted for a terrible person.

            but anybody who lived in a swing state and voted third party — YOU KNEW BETTER. you knew better and you did not do the only thing any of us could do to stop trump.

          • If all “third party”-voters had chosen Hillary it may have made a difference, but like I said before, it’s not certain by any means that it would’ve made a difference since third party voters may not’ve had Hillary as their second choice. Especially not libertarians. Before you get mad at third party-voters, why not start with all the ones that didn’t vote at all…

          • How are America ever going to stop with this “we only have two candidates to vote for”-nonsense if people that chooses a third candidate gets ridiculed and being told that they’re wasting their vote… I encourage everyone to vote for someone they actually support rather than settling for the lesser of two evils.

  7. I feel like I picked the wrong week to stop drinking. My partner (both of us are trans) has a panic attack from about 1 am until 5:30. I was able to calm him down and get him off to work, but like now what. What am I supposed to do ensure that we’re both okay? I’ve been struggling lately as it is. I feel the need to lean into community and return the favor, but I just don’t feel ready to do that yet.

    • Just lean then. It’s fine. Living our lives and surviving is the most fundamental form of activism and resistance there is. Protect yourself. Protect each other as best you can. Use any help you can. When the final shape of this outcome is clearer, when the threats of this Presidency are tangible we can prioritise and formulate plans. All you can do for the next few days is deal with the emotional fallout and find your centre again.

    • Lean in and accept support. This is difficult and frightening, and take whatever comfort you can find from us and do not worry at this moment how to pass it on because you are already doing it by continuing to live and breathe. If later you feel that you can contribute in other ways, awesome! If you can’t, also awesome because you are still around and that is enough.

    • I don’t think any of us feel ready yet. I’m trans too, sending ✨? to you both. I’m all for leaning in too, we just need to recover our emotional balance, and still find a way to believe in love. We are in shock, a lot of us, and we have been emotionally punched in the stomach; many people are physically ill. IDK, just love him, be there for him, this will be hard for all of us.

  8. I need this site, this community, more today than I have ever. I still can’t top crying, I feel relieved to know I am not the only person to take it this hard. I live in the middle of Trump country. One of my two jobs is taking care of my grandmother, both grandparents really, so today I am here with my grandfather, who wanted Trump to win, who laughs at my tears and just doesn’t get it. So I am hungover and sleep deprived and fighting the panic I keep feeling, the physical pain I feel constantly in my chest and I am thankful that at least this space exists, because I could not make it through the day, and the coming days and months and years without all of you. So thank you Heather, and all the AS staff, for existing today.

  9. Four years ago, when my girlfriend and I had just started dating, Obama got reelected. She woke me up in the morning, whispered “Obama won” and I went back to a happy, relieved sleep.

    This morning at 5 our time she woke me panicked and in tears “He’s winning. Oh god he’s doing it. He’s winning”. We weren’t able to get back to sleep. This is a fucking nightmare. This morning on the subway there was an american woman who yelled “Fuck” the minute Trump had definitely won and started crying that very second, unable to stop. My american colleague in the room next to me can’t stop crying either. She’s from Wisconsin. Her heart is broken.

    Everyone here is devastated. I fear the backlash, the effect it will have on Europe, starting in Austria, the Netherlands, France. We have to deal with the Brexit, and now this. There is no escaping, the “another continent” excuse doesn’t work.

    Still I am happy to have at least one more year of relative safety.

    I am so sorry for you. I offer to comfort and to listen in the months and years coming. And if you’ll ever need a break, well, we do have guestroom in our Berlin appartment.

  10. Currently have a 6-9 hour time difference (ahead) with the US. I went to bed somewhat nervous but still pretty convinced Hillary was going to be elected, and I felt healthy/completely fine physically etc. At 5am my time I woke up from the worst stomach ache I’ve felt in years and managed to crawl to the bathroom and throw up. Immediately I knew smthng really bad was happening and that this wasn’t just a random food poisoning or smthng. I thought oh god Trump is being elected as we speak. Turned on the news and was so appalled that he was indeed leading. Couple hours after he won. Was super sick all morning. Feels like all the pain of my community reflected in me. Cried the rest of the day. Everyone I know is freaking out. Feels like the apocalypse. I’m very scared for my communities of people of color, queer and any minorities really. Scared for all women. Scared I won’t be able to visit the US and see and support my other friends (after already being rejected from immigrating myself) because of my Arabic background. So many fucking feels. Time for a big shift and spiritual revolution now; we cannot allow ourselves to be defeated. What can we do now?

    • This was me, too. I went to bed fine, optimistic, woke up with both cats snuggling me on the bed (they dislike each other and are never together, they must have known something bad was happening) and the sound of gunshots or fireworks and I turned on CNN to a nightmare. Haven’t been able to sleep, crying so much, and I’ve also been describing it as an apocalypse.

      I’m trying to figure out what to do next and how to heal.

  11. Hi!
    I’m from Germany, so technically I guess I should not be so affected by the outcome of this election, only I am. I feel as hollow as I feel angry and scared. My wife’s been crying all day and she’s the least political person I know.
    We hold elections next year and this “trend” of racism and fear of the “different” is felt world wide. My hetero friends kept telling me that it’s okay here, that we’ve come so far. I always said that we can’t be complacent. Now my answer that the same could be said about the US.
    I guess what I want to say is: We’re here with you. All the way. If there’s anything we can do, just let us know.

    Jay

    • Honestly I feel people from all countries had a very valid reason to feel afraif, because his will certainly affect them, we don’t even know yet all the ways having a man like this in charge of the US will affect the world.

    • I’m from France and I would write exactly the same way as Jay did from Germany about our common feelings with my wife today… here also elections will be held next year and there are already candidates rejoicing about last night’s results. But whatever this means, we will never stop fighting with you and we are just with you throughout all this difficult time!

  12. This is the first comforting post I’ve seen all day. I feel hollow and heartbroken today. I barely slept at all last night and don’t know how I’m going to serve people who I know voted for this pathetic excuse of a human WITH A SMILE tomorrow.
    I feel the need to reach out to whatever community is out there in my area or at least spread word and support to the loved ones I have that I met through the internet. But today will probably largely be spent under my blanket and the rest will probably have to wait for tomorrow. I need to grieve for every expectation I’d quietly nurtured about this race and sort out what I’m willing and able to do for myself and my city.
    I’m still very new to Autostraddle but I could not be more grateful to the love and support it has radiated in recent days.

  13. I’m shocked and also sleep deprived. I’m so scared for everyone and everything and I’m full of disbelief how something like this could have happened. My gf and I spent most of the night upset and trying to figure out if we should have a shotgun wedding before January. I feel so betrayed by my fellow Americans, and I’m on a journey to find where the love in this world is hiding.

  14. I am thankful for this community and love you guys for being here. I’m not out to my family so I don’t really know how to express why I am so upset over this, but you all are here and its helping me get through my day

  15. I went to bed at 1 last night and woke up at 5:30. I laid in bed for awhile picturing the headlines saying Clinton had pulled it off. Then I checked my phone and I’ve been crying ever since. Until about 8 last night I was in denial that our country could actually elect a person like that.
    I’m supposed to go to work teaching 2 year olds soon and I don’t know how I’m going to do it.

  16. It almost feels odd to comment from outside the country, as this is your tragedy and our sympathies might feel misplaced as it’s not happening to us right now. But in the UK post Brexit it helped to know that people realised it wasn’t the whole country, to know that the minority who lost was a huge number of grieving people.

    And we’re with you and we’re sorry. I’m at a conference today and we’re all just a bit numb about what this means for you and the world. But we’re here.

    • Yes, this. Absolutely this.You put it so well!
      Coming from the UK too and feeling the same sadness,fear, disbelief and apprehension today…all I can say is ditto above. I’m new to Autostraddle commenting so formulating a response is hard. I will add that finding those who keep and tend and nurture a safe positive space amid everything is hope.

  17. I love you all. Im driving to my job full of hetero women, all married, all voted for trump because their husbands said so… And im wondering how my life got here. Im wondering where to go from here. It feels like the time to buckle down and make some serious life changes. As teary eyed and stressed as i am, i have this feeling in my gut that this is what WE are here for. We have this amazing community of open minded people and something is telling me were about to be called to action. And i cant wait to fight beside you all ❤

    • It really pains me to read these comments. They’re so full of self-pity, expressions of helplessness, powerlessness, feelings of “terror” for the future. And then, to read your comment–do you really believe that women who voted for Trump did so because their husbands told them to? Do you really think so little of the female sex as to believe that women don’t have minds of their own? No wonder why you’re terrified of the world. If this is how you perceive women, then you must not believe in your own strength. I’m going to assume that you are still very young. You weren’t around when our queer forebears had to hide in the shadows, on the fringe of society–something you don’t need to do, unless you choose to. You weren’t around when our brothers of a previous generation were being decimated by a plague that was TRULY terrifying. Your generation is so fortunate to live in a society that largely accepts you. It is shameful that you are not grateful for what you have, and very disconcerting that so many of you live in a state of such fear and feel so dis-empowered. Where did this learned helplessness come from? Perhaps it’s because you were raised to believe that you could not survive without clutching the apron-strings of a nanny government that promised to protect you in a nice politically-correct, gilded little cage. Well, that, my young friend has rendered you weak and dependent and has prevented you from developing the resilience of previous generations who had to stand on their own two feet and create communities without mommy and daddy government to prop them up. I hope, for the sake of our community, that this condition you all seem to share passes with age. Sincerely, a lesbian who voted for Trump.

        • Its fine ;)
          I didnt say all women who voted for trump, i said the women i worked with. There are only 3 of us. Voting for trump because thats who their husbands were voting for, because they didnt care how the election went either way, was a conversation we actually had. I was venting about having to go to a job surrounded by people i cant relate to at all and dreading how i was going to make it through processing my feelings on Wednesday. Apparently in my area of the country there are still women who do things to please their husbands? I guess we both need to come to terms with the country being less progressive then we once believed?

          To comment on someone elses life and feelings and tell them its shameful that they have these feelings is a pretty shameful thing in itself.

          If i had to guess id say my learned helplessness stems from addict parents who cared more about drugs then their children, and who are losing Round 2 of the AIDS plague you claim im too young to understand, due to IV drug usage. My father died 3 years ago and my mother went full blown in May. Accompanied by the constant reminder that i live in a place where everyone is not equal, id say helplessness is absolutely a feeling ive had before and im sorry if thats insulting?

          But rejoice! My original post was about rising up and fighting alongside my beauitiful tribe of like minded people, not about feeling helpless weak or dependent :)

      • You bet that white women Trump voters know exactly what they are doing. Actions have consequences. I don’t care what happens to white Trump voters. Let their daughters die of heroin ODs and botched illegal abortions. Let them lose a job, and the health insurance, and learn what it is like to know you have cancer and that you can’t afford standard-of-care chemotherapy (true). I studied, worked hard, and saved, I am set no matter what happens to Social Security and Medicare. I have zero sympathy for white Trump voters who encounter the misfortunes of life. Call me a race traitor – make me proud.

  18. Heather, thank you for writing this. Please take all the love and support this Canadian trans man can offer. I have been sitting in my apartment with tears in my eyes because surely this can’t be happening. I woke this morning to my LGBTQ friends and family terrified for their lives and the lives of those they love. I wish I could meet all of you who are commenting on this thread, hold you all close, and cry with you. Love is stronger than hate. Love will win.

  19. I’m not from US, but since this election unfortunately affects the whole world… I’m actually surprised, but I’m not that mad about it? I’m not happy but I wouldn’t be if Hillary won either, so. There was no good choice and well, we will see what happens. I hope it won’t be that bad.

      • I think that there are valid concerns from people internationally about what a Hillary presidency could have meant for them in terms of military action, and I can see how some of the fears that drove American people to vote Trump could have left them feeling fear if the tide was turned. However, no, I do not think Hillary would have invoked the *same* fear in POC and LGBTQ people. I also don’t see where Alex said that Hillary wouldn’t have been better. I only see where she said she wouldn’t be happy and that there was no good choice.

        • Dani, I think that’s part of the issue. Voting out of fear (for Trump or Hillary, doesn’t matter) is never good, I mean voting for “lesser evil” too. And it’s not only what would Hillary’s presidency mean, it’s also about what Hillary already is responsible for. But sadly, I think not that many people in US even care? Most of people who see that voted for Jill Stein or not voted at all. Trump voters (I’m not talking about those typical racists here, that’s another issue) wanted change, to get free from corrupted governement. Trump claimed he is outsider, he is not part of that world and some people believed him. Unfortunately, Hillary represents that world.

      • I don’t think so. But you know, I’m also thinking about LGBTQ people being murdered in Honduras (31 murders per year, while from 1994 to 2008 – two…) after 2009 coup. Hillary supported this. And this is just one thing.

  20. I’m sitting in London and it is heartbreaking. I managed to cry, at last, this morning. I’ve been talking to friends, talking about what we can do. We need each other more than ever, it seems. But older people in our communities remind me it has always been true, that we have been through worse. I’m still formulating my thoughts.

  21. Thank you, Autostraddle Team, for devoting so much time to be there for us last night, today, and in the coming aftermath. When I woke up this morning, the first thing I did was open Autostraddle to be surrounded by a like-minded group of people.

    I am sorry this is happening. Please know that you are all loved here. This is a safe place to cry, vent, and gather together. Regardless of what happens, I know that we will stay strong as a community.

    Every one here matters and is an important part of this world and community. Please never forget.

  22. Oath
    I will stand up. I will not be silenced.
    I will assert the truth.
    I will feel fear, but I will not cower.
    I will feel anger, but I will not allow it to use me to deepen the divide.
    I will use my voice to pronounce the truth. I will use my voice to heal.
    I will stand beside people of colour.
    I will stand beside women.
    I will stand beside indigenous people.
    I will stand beside lesbian, gay and bisexual people.
    I will stand beside transgender people.
    I will stand beside people with disabilities.
    I will stand beside all oppressed people.
    I will stand in the face of hatred and ignorance, and I will respond with clarity, firmness, decency and truth.
    I will stand in the face of violence, and I will respond with peace.
    I will stand in the face of fear and shame, and I will respond with love.

  23. Thank you so much for this post. I needed to see it this morning. I work in the news so I was working last night – most of the women in the newsroom with me (and some of the guys) bonded over the results coming in. I’m terrified to go into work and follow the news for the last two weeks of my job.
    But after that, I want to fight. I want to use my personal move away from an apparently now red state of Wisconsin to give back to those in need.

    You all have my utmost love and support in these trying times. This world needs you now more than ever to be awesome and to do awesome things. Please take care of yourself – turn off the news if you have to, I don’t blame you – and know that you are so so loved and so incredibly worthy, no matter what.

  24. Thanks for starting the thread, Heather. This is a really really hard blow to take, particularly since basically no one in the mainstream or progressive press predicted it.

    I know we will get through this and hopefully it will energize the millions of us who want a better, fairer future than Trump outlined to do what it takes. But for now, I just want hugs, cute kittens, and comfort food!!!

  25. Thank you, Heather. I started crying around 10 PM last night because I knew things didn’t look good, and I couldn’t stand the thought of living in Trump-Pence country. I kept crying until I threw up sometime and then collapsed from exhaustion. Woke up a few hours later and have cried some more.

    I’m scared. Really scared and really angry. I wish I could promise people that I’ll fight for them, and I will, I just can’t yet.

  26. God. I’m not American, I’ve never set foot in the US, but I’m terrified. While we have our own very worrying political problems in Brazil, I know this will get to us and I can’t imagine how. And I shouldn’t be worried about being unwelcome in a country I’ve never been to, but I am – if I ever want to visit or do an exchange program or an internship in the United States, how would they react to a Brazilian woman of Lebanese descent who’s also queer? And I’m trying not to think about how this will affect the whole economy, how this affect our economy crisis. This is a very very shit day. I can’t believe it.

  27. Thank you for this, Heather, and thank you for being here Autostraddle. My A+ membership just renewed this week and I am even more thankful now that this space exists for all of us. This was the first site I came to this morning and even though we are all furious and afraid it helps me to feel that I’m not alone.
    Now to talk myself into getting dressed and showing up for work…

  28. I’m from the Netherlands, so quite a few hours ahead of the US. When I went to bed yesterday I was pretty confident Hillary would win. When I woke up at 5ish to go to the bathroom I was curious and checked the news. I said it was super close and I got scared. When I woke up later this morning and saw 50 unread messages in my whatsapp friends group I knew the world was screwed.

    And at first I was making a jokes, and being lighthearted. I mean: it’s not my country. We all knew the US has a lot of domestic problems.

    Then I started reading the news and a lot of responses on American oriented progressive sites. (It’s my day of, I have a lot of time) I has made me sad and quite upset. If some of his most heartfelt congratulations come from Poetin, Marine le Pen and our own horror-clown Geert Wilders, you know it’s bad. It is a sign that fascism is on the rise and a demagogue for a leader is very possible, maybe even in my country. It is a sign that the world is a scary place. It is a sign of so very much hate in the world.

    I’ve seen lots of sarcastic memes online. “Je suis USA.” “Amsterdam welcomes American refugees.” It’s just not as funny anymore now I’m starting to realise the people who live there a genuinely scared for their lives.

    Good luck to everyone affected by this election. I sent you lots of love, strength, and virtual hugs to make it through this tough time. I hope we will be able to stand together. (I’ll stop now before I’ll start singing protest songs from the 60s)

  29. I’m Canadian, but I’m still gutted by the results. My heart goes out to all of those who are in bad places right now.

    I also just joined A+, because we are going to need this space in the future more than ever. It’s one thing that I can do, to try to help.

  30. I love you all. I don’t live in the US, and yet had nightmares all night, thinking about the possibility that this could happen to you. That this *is happening* to you. Please know that you are loved here, and your community will hold your back even from the other side of the ocean.

  31. My partner woke me up at 6:15 this morning to tell me Trump won. I’ve been sick and vacillating between sobbing and numbness ever since. I am so scared for our community, especially those who are isolated in rural areas. I’m scared for the immigrants in my city and beyond. I’m scared of what all the folks who voted for this man will feel entitled to say and do now that he is president.

    Also – both sides of Congress are now Republican controlled, which makes everything 1000 times worse. The rights and safety of everyone who isn’t a wealthy straight cis white man are going to be gutted and I don’t know what to do. How can we organize against a force like this?

  32. I don’t even know what to say but I wanted to put words here anyway because I’m hurting and you are hurting and too many people in my life don’t understand why and I want you all to know that I love you.

  33. I don’t even know how to describe how I’m feeling other than shocked and numb. Which is pretty much what everyone says after a natural disaster. Except, I know how to respond to a natural disaster. This… it’s like watching a hurricane: you know it’s going to be bad, but you don’t know exactly where or when it’s going to hit nor for how long it will stick around and tear apart your community and hurt your people.

    How are any of us supposed to feel when that many of our own fellow Americans basically said, “to hell with you. You’re not wanted here”?

    *sigh* It’ll get better. We’ll fight, and hold on to each other and be the support everyone here needs, but … yeah. I’m out of coherent thoughts.

    Thanks for being here AS. <3.

  34. As my friends were preparing to make “herstory” yesterday by going out to the bars, I had an uneasy feeling and stayed home. Did I think this was a possible outcome? No. But am I surprised? No. I am shocked, dismayed, saddened. Half of me is all “you have to fall before you can rise” and the other half of me is a small kid in a corner, protecting their head as their body prepares for harsh lashes against it.

    No one wanted to believe that Trump would win, that he even had a chance. Polls predicted landslides against him. Not so secretly though, we still have generations of folks that cling to an idea that our nation isn’t as good now that we no longer fit in the cookie cutter mold of middle class white Christian families. It’s too much for them to bare change – to be enlightened. My state was blue, but it wasn’t enough. I’m not in a swing state. There’s nothing more I could have done. I’m a realist, and don’t like to cling to hope, but I am making an exception this one time. My hope is that a President Trump is something we can’t overcome and become a better nation for in the long term.

    My coworkers are in tears, my partner was in tears, my FB feed was full of grief and shock. We are all trying to process this together, and we will. We will overcome. We will get through this.

  35. I want to call home but I don’t think talking to my parents would help now. I love you; we’re here. I’m going to focus on my teaching this morning and spend the afternoon finding things to do next besides keep learning and sending money.

  36. I’m so scared and so heartsick. I was briefly interviewed by a local paper at a gay bar last night, before things really started coming down, and now I’m wishing like hell I’d used a fake name. It’s maybe silly to be so paranoid but that’s where I’m at.
    Things that have brought me some small amount of comfort:
    1. the fact that Hillary actually won the popular vote
    2. this poem by Langston Hughes: https://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poem/let-america-be-america-again
    3. all the people who are sending out messages of solidarity and moving forward right now, both domestically and internationally
    We’ve never faced anything quite like this, but our communities have been through a lot and we’re still here. We can do this. I have to believe we can do this.

  37. I feel that this will be a wake up call to the American lefties. I think their intelligence and education worked against them, here. It allowed them to become cynical and complacent, unlike the dumbass right wingers whose lack of education enabled them to band together and eagerly, blindly support a fascist whose insane promises cannot possibly be carried out in the real world. They knew Hillary had a tainted reputation and couldn’t bring themselves to vote for her, but figured that her ardent supporters would pick up the slack enough to get her in. And it cost them. They should have just said, “Fuck this – I cannot allow Trump to win.” The mere fact that Trump was in the running should have motivated them to vote against him whether they liked Hillary or not.

    Of course, this is pure speculation from a Canadian who knows dick-all about politics in general…

    • I think this is very dangerous to promote that the right-wingers are uneducated. The only group that the majority of people in voting for Trump was white people, regardless of level of education.

      It’s very easy to just assume that right-winger are unintelligent and uneducated and that if they weren’t so ignorant they wouldn’t have voted this way. No, I know plenty of educated right-wingers who are stoked for Trump to have won. Their racism, misogyny, homophobia, and xenophobia is not accidental, it is purposeful. We need to recognize that is the case because otherwise we have no hope of combatting it.

  38. I woke up at 5 o’clock and rolled back over because it was too early for me to want to know either way. I woke up again at 7, checked, and cried and cried and cried. I only got out of bed by saying “If he doesn’t get sworn in before the end of the semester, he’s not worth failing math for”.
    And I wore my Hillary button and the wristband I got at Pride and filled my pockets with candy to take to the gay organization’s office and I left it with a note that said “Fuck him. He’s not the President yet”.
    And I took off my wristband and my button when I overheard two guys saying “thank jesus for trump” because I was scared and I’m still scared and I’m young and dumb and I’ve never commented here before but. I guess. I might as well.
    I honestly don’t know how I’m going to handle this or if I’m still in shock or ANYTHING but. I guess I’m still alive and he’s not the President yet.

  39. I am still very much in disbelief and shock. I’m glad to have this space, I love y’all so much, thank you. I barely slept and I feel sick. But I’m getting out of bed and I’m going to my library’s book sale that starts this morning, cause it’s usually one of the happiest days of the year for me. Not today but I’m hoping it will help and that getting lots of good cheap books to support my library will remind me of some decent humanity that still exists. I run a self care/mental health group on my campus; I have no idea what to do for our meeting tomorrow. How do I facilitate our group at a time like this? When I’m so messed up myself.

    • Probably the smallest book sale they’ve had, I only found 4 books compared to my usually 20ish. I guess it’s holding onto to silly things like that that got me up today. But I can’t figure out how to get through today.

  40. I watched the election coverage last night, something I don’t normally do, and then I went to bed. I had a nightmare that Trump won and when I woke up I decided to check and see if he had. When I saw that my nightmare had in fact became reality, I cried. My only safe space now is at work or my home otherwise I am surrounded by Republican family members who are all straight cis people (except my favorite brother who is gay and he’s Native American) and I don’t know if I have the courage to stand up for my beliefs outside of work. In addition to being queer and non-binary I am also an in-the-broom-closet Pagan. All I can do at this point is pray that we can make it through the next four years.

  41. God, I made the mistake of neglecting my self-care yesterday – it ended up being a long day at work, and then I needed to vote, and I just forgot to drink any water or eat more than a waffle (at 8 am), a handful of raspberries (at 5:30 pm) and half a bag of flavor blasted cheddar goldfish (at 8 pm).

    I woke up and nothing felt real. Nothing feels real still. And now I’m dehydrated and anxiety ridden and the world keeps swimming in front of my eyes. This sucks, this really sucks, and I’m glad that you guys are around and that we’re all around and I know we’re strong enough to fight this.

    We’re used to fighting, and I’d really hoped that we could hang our swords over the mantle and use our shields as doorstops and forget what it was like to have to struggle, ease into an early retirement and not have to worry about the rights we’ve won being in peril.

    I’m sick with worry and I’m sick with anxiety and I’m just sick, but I will lay down everything I have and everything I am for y’all, and I know y’all will do the same. It wasn’t so long ago that we had to do for ourselves, that the state didn’t give a shit about us, and now that it’s looking like we’re headed down that same dark path.

    Let us all turn to each other. Listen to your community elders and learn from their experiences, get involved in your local politics, look forward to 2018 and try your level best to make Trump’s life in the White House a living hell.

    Let us not give in to despair.

    Let us give them a fucking fight.

  42. The rising panic I felt watching the polls come in from my Canadian border town basement hasn’t quite receded like I’d hoped. I knew this was a possibility, but like many of us I thought that American voters are in general decent and kind and understanding. That’s the scariest part. I hate that my American friends, queer, poc, women, people with disabilities, people who I love, are walking around today with the knowledge that their countrymen, their neighbours and coworkers and families and communities, do not value their lives. We love you. We are with you. We love you. You matter. We love you.

  43. I didn’t get much sleep last night, more as a result of the nerve block from surgery yesterday than because I intentionally wanted to see the results come in. I felt very sad and disgusted and scared then. Now I am angry, not the angry crying or despairing anger, but the “get shit done” anger. I am checking up on my queer and disabled friends and family. I am thinking about what I can do and how to get in touch with local activist groups because I am ready to fight. I wish it wasn’t necessary, but I will fight anyway.

    (If anyone needs to talk, I’ll be in and out all day, mostly dependent on how much sleep I get as a result of the pain meds, so seriously feel free to message me.)

  44. This was my first time voting in an election. I was so thrilled yesterday morning to wear my “I voted” sticker to all my classes. I was so excited that I was going to be a part of Hillary’s historic win.

    I’m devastated. I’ve been in tears all morning and was in tears most of last night. I’m so frightened for what’s to come. I’m frightened for myself, for my loved ones, for people I’ve never even met. I truly feel blindsided.

  45. After calming down from this morning, I still for dejected but now determined. I am angry. All I hear are excuses for Trump. All I hear is how I won’t be affected. Do these people not know the damage they caused. So what if he doesn’t do anything bad, a vote for him was a slap in the face for us. I feel more betrayed by my family who voted for him…. Don’t claim to be an ally or sympathize with women when your vote just showed me your true intentions.

    The good thing is that we all are supporting each other. It feels like Orlando all over again though. All the crying and grieving. Like we just lost something more. I am struggling here. I am tired but I will not stop being supportive. I do not wish anyone to feel the fear and pain that we are feeling as a group. Love wins guys. We have to believe that it will prevail.

    After this, I am more motivated and I am studying harder than ever. My wife and I are going to save money and see if we can apply for a visa. This might be the kick I needed to get done with my degree and actually travel the world with my wife. Life is too short to let it be ruined by hate.

  46. Heather, I think what you said here was really important: “The country didn’t change last night; the white supremacist patriarchy, the hate for minorities, it didn’t appear from nowhere. It crawled out of the darkness where we’ve been fighting it our whole lives. We’ve always known what was underneath the facade of equality in this country and now we’ll move our battle into the light.”

    Many of us have, to varying degrees, been painfully and personally aware of this darkness for a long time, but this could be a wake-up call for individuals who don’t belong to any minority groups and may not even know anybody who doesn’t fit into their white, cishet societal bubble – individuals who have remained unaware of their privilege in whatever form(s) it takes. It is frankly tragic that things had to accelerate to this degree, but our battle has more visibility now than ever, and with that comes the opportunity for us to educate these people – among whom are GOOD but woefully IGNORANT people – and for these people to open their eyes, recognize their privilege, question their choices, and move forward with a more complete understanding of what we are up against.

    I also think it’s important to acknowledge Inkspot’s point: “In the UK post Brexit it helped to know that people realised it wasn’t the whole country, to know that the minority who lost was a huge number of grieving people.”

    Look at how the popular vote was essentially even between the two main candidates. Yes, a lot of people gave their votes to a candidate who embodies just about every awful -ist adjective you can imagine, but a lot of people did not (MORE did not when you consider the third-party candidates). This was not the whole country, as Inkspot said. This was not a landslide. The minority that lost was a huge one, and huge groups have power and strength by virtue of their sheer number alone. I hope those people will look out for us. I hope we will look out for each other using whatever privilege and resources we have available to us.

    Lastly, a number of commenters are wondering what to do and how to help and where to go from here. I think Julia’s response is a solid answer at this time: “When the final shape of this outcome is clearer, when the threats of this Presidency are tangible we can prioritise and formulate plans. All you can do for the next few days is deal with the emotional fallout and find your centre again.”

    Trump has been so fucking vague that we don’t even KNOW exactly what we’re up against. We know it’s bad, but we don’t know precisely what form it will take and how it will develop. For the next couple of months, Obama is still our president. As Julia said, threat assessment and concrete planning will be necessary in the near future. We will need to assemble against any and all threats as a community, but to do that, we need strength. Right now we need to look after ourselves as individuals, to check in with each other, to accept and offer support if we feel able, to process what has just happened. First, we take time to regroup. Next, we fight, we defend, we protect, we look out for each other… we somehow get through this.

  47. I’m relatively new here. I usually don’t comment and just lurk in the shadows, but today I wanted to say a special thanks to Heather Hogan.

    I started reading your posts on AfterEllen a few years ago when I was having trouble loving my true self.

    Your posts back then and your words this morning have brought a great deal of comfort to a closeted queer girl from Georgia. So, thanks.

    And thank you to AS and the rest of you awesome readers for making this a space where I can breathe a bit easier.

  48. I really need someone to convince me that it’s going to be okay anyway. The stress at this point is honestly too much to take. And, I know if I allow myself to keep freaking out, my freaking out is going to exceed all logical limits of freaking out. As scary as this situation is, same sex marriage is still legal and there isn’t a wall. Donald Trump hasn’t been president for a single day yet. I want to think that he’s a showman. I want to think that because he hasn’t actually done anything as president yet, we can’t say for sure what he is actually going to try to do/be able to do. I need to calm down right now, and I need hope.
    If anyone has anything reassuring to say I would appreciate it so much.

  49. I feel bad because so many people including my roommates are upset to the point of tears, but I’m just… numb. Like I can’t feel what’s happening other than just dumb disbelief-that-isn’t-really-suprised-at-all

    :|

    • I hope this doesn’t come across as condescending or w/e, but in my experience it can help to have someone else tell me: there’s no right or wrong way to feel about this. For some of us (including me), our emotions can go through like a self-protective shut-down and we feel detached from everything, at least for a little while. That doesn’t mean we don’t care or that we’re awful people, it just means we’re people. And sometimes it means that part of ourselves is walling itself off so it can process at its own pace while we still have to go about the basic business of living.
      If that resonates at all, I hope you can give yourself some space to feel or not feel without being pressured into reacting a certain way for other people. <3

  50. This is more or less my first time commenting here, but I really wanted to reach out and tell you guys how much this website and this community mean to me. You’re all amazing people, and you’re all loved and important.

    This is only the beginning. We’ll keep on organizing, and fighting, and resisting, like we’ve always done. We won’t let them silence or forget us.

  51. When I was out voting I was so confident Hillary was going to win. I passed out early because all the reports were making me anxious and I woke up at 3 in the morning to overhearing someone say “Oh god, no.” and I knew exactly what that meant. I tried talking about how in disbelief I was a while ago and I started to hyperventilate and cry. But I thought this bit was especially great and true:

    “The country didn’t change last night; the white supremacist patriarchy, the hate for minorities, it didn’t appear from nowhere. It crawled out of the darkness where we’ve been fighting it our whole lives. We’ve always known what was underneath the facade of equality in this country and now we’ll move our battle into the light.”

    Now I just feel motivated to fight even harder. And disgust, I’m still pretty fucking disgusted.

  52. Everything is so overwhelming right now. I don’t even know how to process any of it. I woke up, hoping that last night (when I stayed up past 4am watching desperately for the numbers to turn around) was all a bad dream and I wouldn’t have to face this. But here we are and here I am.
    I don’t even know what to do. I’m terrified. I live in a state and city that overwhelmingly went red. I’ve cried more times than I can count, I’ve been nausous all day, and the little food I’ve managed to eat tastes like cardboard.
    Thank you Autostraddle for being here. I’ve come here for years and although I never commented or anything still felt accepted and comforted by the presence of everyone here.

  53. I’m engaged, in a queer interracial relationship, and we live in Louisiana and Alabama right now. We were going to get married on our anniversary in February and then live in New Orleans. Are we going to end up forced to leave our homes, our people, and all the beautiful parts of our Southern culture behind and flee to California or Canada if we want to make this work and be safe?

    I’m definitely going to lose my health insurance because of my pre-existing condition. The coming years could put my health in severe danger. I may need a surgery. If my medicine gets cut off I won’t be healthy enough to show up for one of my jobs anymore and will enter the horrifying Catch-22 of being unemployed and needing another job to get insured.

    And I’m the white one. In the end, I’ll be fine no matter what I do or how I might fail.

    What will happen to all the hardworking immigrants keeping my incredible city of New Orleans afloat? My friends working toward their citizenship and my friends who struggle to keep Latin-American culture alive in their neighborhoods despite the fear and prejudice they already face? Which of my friends will be deported? Will my friends’ mosque that has persevered through multiple incidents of vandalism and Fundamentalist Evangelical protests make it through the next four years? Will all American mosques be empty in the next four years? When he guts federal taxes, in rural Louisiana my state will flounder as our already failing infrastructure and desperate dependence on the oil industry destroys everything in the very towns that put him in office, from their food costs, housing markets, flood protection programs, the crumbling roads that connect the most remote areas to stores and hospitals, the increased cost of living and rapidly deteriorating environment that will destroy what tourism is left sustaining coastal Louisiana. What will happen to those still waiting for federal aid from the recent flooding? Those fisherman and coastal residents STILL waiting for their money from the BP oil spill? What will happen to FEMA? How many more will die if “another Katrina or Rita” hits us under Trump?
    And in my city, the supposedly liberal mecca of New Orleans, and the recently devastated Baton Rouge, what will happen to the inches of progress that Black Lives Matter has accomplished? What will happen to all of us protesters the next time we run into the white Trump-supporting cops who only a few months ago stalked our peaceful marches with drones and covered us with sniper rifles as we gave speeches about equality in a family park with children looking on? Speaking of those white cops, I work in a shelter for domestic abuse victims and we have been fighting for years to get certain officers to show an interest in protecting WOC, not just in investigation and legal action, but literally, on the streets, outside of the shelter house or the office, we have seen officers walk away from WOC being threatened, grabbed, and forced into vehicles by their known abusers and stalkers, twice with weapons. It was finally exposed two years ago that the NOPD pursues investigations on less than 20% of rape allegations. The opening of New Orleans’ new Planned Parenthood (one of two in the entire state) was delayed and defunded for over a year. What kind of sick power will these people wield over us now?

    My fiancee and I could not be together tonight, but we lay together mostly in silence on the phone for hours, holding each other through desperate tears. I am afraid to go to work, bartending at an upscale restaurant and face my upper-middle class regulars who have done this to me with their votes. I am afraid to take my usual role as the brave one when my fiancee next comes to town and kiss her as she gets off her bus and hold her hand in the straight bars we go to with my friends. I am afraid to tell her how broken and angry I feel. I am ashamed of my anger. I have never felt so “us and them”. I am afraid that I will start stereotyping white Southerners. I am honestly afraid that next time I meet a neighbor with a central Louisiana accent I will blow him off and hate him. I want to quit my job and leave the country to be with my family in Europe. As though I think it’s barely better over there. I might. But today, I can’t. Today at least I must take my liberal, pussy-loving, black-loving, immigrant-sympathizing ass and live my life in the face of the country that has finally betrayed me. Tomorrow I’ll start to figure out whether I still hate all of them as much as they apparently hate us.

    I am sick and weeping and hyperventilating and kind of shitfaced. Thanks to anyone who read all of this.

    • Lucy, Don’t allow yourself to look at others and assume how they perceive the world based on your initial perception of them, and don’t allow fear to steer your perceptions of others. You would be denying the world to miss out on seeing your true beauty and the positive impact you have on the world, you would be putting on your own blinders and missing out on so much of the beauty this world has for you, and you would be denying those around you the chance to show there true colors. Some people may prove to not deserve you in there life, but far more people will surprise you and prove that they do. You may miss your chance to show others you deserve to be apart of their lives, and miss out on opportunities to make incredibly positive impacts on others, often in ways you may never have the opportunities to see first hand. It’s the smallest things in this world that make the greatest impacts, you get to choose how you impact others, the greatest way to impact others is by setting an example and a positive example is the strongest weapon you have in your arsenal.

      • Thank you Andrea. I am aware of this and have told other people the same so many thousands of times, but I needed to hear it from the other side this morning.
        It was a really shit morning. I’m still furious and disgusted but doing better than I was drunk at 9 AM. What I said was pretty harsh and your response was very lovely and empathetic. Thank you. And everyone else here.

  54. I’m weepy this morning. I really believed when I went out last night that I was headed to Hillary’s coronation, and I just need a moment to adjust to this brave new world. I’m avoiding post-election mainstream news media coverage at the moment, so I’m grateful for this thread, for both the sense of community and the bits of information trickling down (like the fact that Hillary won the popular vote).

  55. I posted these few thoughts as a response to another straddlers comment on yesterday’s open thread. It may be worth posting them again as a reminder to us all.

    In the past when we were facing difficult and persecutery times most of us had to do so alone and in hiding. Now we have active communities with significant political power. Even in countries that are actively persuing us and harming us there are active united communities and some legal options. We also have the means to communicate nationally and internationally, as well as the active and vocal support of other groups who are allied with us. We do need to nurture these groups and our community. We do not have to face this alone this time.
    The world is changing, in my opinion, not for the best at the moment and many people, not only us are frightened. While fear is a natural and understandable response we need to be ready to be strong and plan to retaliate within the law, with every legal and moral weapon at our disposal.

    The main thing to me though, at the moment is to remember that this time we have real viable, power, morally, postionally and even, as a world wide movement, financially. Times may well get hard but we’re still here, queer and proud.

    As a community, we have never before in our history had as many resources or as much open support. Let’s use it to stand up in every place around the world for as long as it takes for our world to be safe and progressive again.

    • Thank you for posting this.
      Elizabeth Gilbert (who has a lady partner!) just posted “Who Do I Want to Be in This Situation?” on FB. Her partner is fighting terminal cancer so they faced this question earlier in the year. It’s a reminder to me as a QWOC that now more than ever to lean into my power and continue to support those whose rights are being invaded…Because (and I apologize for future-tripping) it seems like things may get harder before they get easier…Even though I’m scared and fucking exhausted…Even though I don’t feel adequate or ready…I’m going to do it anyway. I can feel my feelings AND take action. For me personally, this is where the rubber meets the road. I’m not doing a whole lot of talking anymore because I’m moving into a “doing” phase.

      I love you Autostraddlers and I am committed to doing right by y’all!

  56. I feel hurt. I feel scared. I’m terrified to leave for work because I take the bus, and in Trump’s America, my skin color, gender, and sexuality make me a target. I haven’t gotten dressed yet because I’m trying to figure out what I can wear that’s work-appropriate but also easy for me to run in, in case I need to get away from someone. I’m angry. I’m angry at all my white friends, especially my white female friends, who refused to argue with their racist, homophobic, mysogonistic, Islamophobic family members, because it would make things awkward or uncomfortable. I’m angry and frustrated and annoyed with all of the “how did this happen?” posts. We told you it was possible. We TOLD you he was a threat and that we felt threatened, and people didn’t fight hard enough. I’m angry that white people are telling me to have hope, or are posting MLK quotes, or telling me it won’t be that bad.

    I don’t feel like an American.

    • I wish you could feel like an American. So many of us know that you are and want, need, you to stay that way. This is a sickening and shameful time and I am just unspeakably sorry that your friends have let you down. I don’t honestly know if I can help you to have hope, but I’m feeling right now like we have our anger at least, and we need to figure out how to use it effectively. That’s what Trump just did with conservative voters. Maybe we can do it too.

  57. I think we’re all feeling the same way right now. I have made it into work, despite crying halfway through my drive this morning (that’s not fun, btw). Last night I only cried once, not long before I went to bed. This morning I can’t stop crying. And I don’t know how I am going to make it through my work day.

    The thing that made me cry last night was something my mom said. While my dad has been away on business she’s been staying at my house and we’ve been having fun girls nights, catching up on TV and fussing over my cat. The culmination was supposed to be a celebratory election night. But that didn’t happen. Anyway, just before my mom went to bed she told me she was so sorry. Not for herself, but for me. She said she’s old, so it doesn’t matter who is president, but she feels so awful for me and my future. Keep in mind my mom is on Obamacare because she works part time and my dad is old enough to be on Medicare. She also has a preexisting condition which would make her ineligible for coverage under the old health care system. So this really might affect her. But the fact that she is more worried for my welfare than her own speaks volumes.

    I joked a lot about moving back to the UK if Trump was elected. I didn’t think it would actually happen.

    (Please excuse any typos, it’s really hard to see through the tears)

  58. I’m here at the public library where I work, alternating between going upstairs to cry with the reference librarians and then coming back downstairs to hide in my basement office and try to get something done. We librarians are shocked but ready to stand with and stand up for the most vulnerable in our community, as we do every day. I hope you all have a library where you feel welcome to come in and read or just sit as long as you like.

  59. The election of Donald Trump is terrifying. I’m worried for all the American ‘Straddlers, and for all my friends in the US, especially those who are female, queer, Jewish, Muslim, and people of colour. I’m worried for the state of American democratic institutions. I’m worried for the state of our planet. My heart fucking BREAKS when I think about Hillary Rodham Clinton and how hard she worked for this and how qualified she is and how much she fucking deserves this and how much she’s been screwed over.

    I’ve been paying very close attention to this election for a year and a half now, and since I’m Canadian, many people have asked me why I care so much, since none of it is going to affect me. And it’s true, my right to vote, my right to marry, my right to get an abortion, these things will not be taken away from me. I am safe.

    But there are issues in this campaign that transcend international borders. The environment, the stock market, the rise of the alt-right, trade, military alliances, the NUCLEAR FUCKING CODES. The mainstream normalization of racism, sexism, ableism, homophobia, transphobia, xenophobia, Islamophobia, and anti-semitism. THE GODDAMN FUCKING PATRIARCHY. These issues are not unique to America. We face them here in Canada, and all around the world.

    Thank you for the comforting words, Heather, and everyone who has commented. I honestly don’t know what else to say.

    • I’ve been expressing my own concern all over the place, but it bears repeating. Donald Trump’s victory is already fanning the fires of bigotry and ignorance here in Canada. Most of the commenters on CBC’s website are creaming themselves. Like you said, these problems aren’t unique to the U.S. And since we’re so culturally similar to the U.S. and in such close proximity to them, I fear that a Trump presidency will encourage a Canadian crazy to rise up through the ranks and become our next PM.

    • “But there are issues in this campaign that transcend international borders. The environment, the stock market, the rise of the alt-right, trade, military alliances, the NUCLEAR FUCKING CODES. The mainstream normalization of racism, sexism, ableism, homophobia, transphobia, xenophobia, Islamophobia, and anti-semitism. THE GODDAMN FUCKING PATRIARCHY. These issues are not unique to America. We face them here in Canada, and all around the world.”

      Yes! Exactly that!

  60. I’m so scared. It’s not supposed to go like this. History is supposed to be a slow upward march towards progress, but now I feel like this has set us back so far. It’s like we’re Sisyphus and we were almost at the top but then the flipping boulder rolled back and crushed us and our families and everything and everyone we hold dear.

  61. I don’t understand. Went to bed confident of her win. Woke up at 6:15 a.m. to my roommate yelling, “Trump won. I’m not joking about this. Get down here. Trump won. I’m being serious!” I cried twice before going to work and acting like an adult while telling 11-year-olds who were yelling “Trump Won” to do their classwork.

    And my father sent me an e-mail at 4:30 am. about how great it was Trump won and “Congratulations,” followed up with a link to an NY Post article all about it. Ugh.

  62. I have a student visa to the UK for next fall. My parents may be moving to new zealand. I may be leaving and never coming back. I hate that I feel like I have to do this to the only home I’ve ever known, but I can’t stay here with that clown of a man as president. As a woman and visibly queer person, I don’t feel like the government will protect my rights anymore. I hope it won’t be as bad as I expect it will be. I am extremely privileged as a wealthy person in that I can leave, but the majority of queer women are not in that situation. I fear for our safety.

  63. My emotions are fried. My partner and I go to grad school together and I am usually not one for any forms of PDA but we held hands all the way into our office while I cried a little. I composed myself, went to fill up my water bottle and overheard two professors lamenting the results and one (a white male) wrung his hands and said “I’m terrified for my friends, for people of color, for members of the LGBT community. And I’m ashamed at the relief I feel that none of these terrible things will happen to me.” And then I lost it all over again. It’s going to be a long day.

  64. Mate… I haven’t felt this angry since Brexit.
    To everyone currently dealing with this in America, I’m so, so sorry.

    I’m from the uk and I guess most of my friends are very distanced from the US election, because I started to vent about how anxious I am , and they tried to assure me that he’s the lesser of two evils, and that Hillary would have started a war with Russia.
    Autostraddle has offered more support and comfort than the people I actually know, so thank you.

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