Playlist: I Bought a Baby Pink Stationary Bike and I’m Okay With Myself

I realized something inside of me had forever changed the first time I was smoking with the windows down and the music loud in my car and thought to myself “Huh, I could imagine myself doing SoulCycle to this song.” It was a passing moment, I ignored it, I let it slip away, but then it happened again. And again. And again.

Clearly, riding a stationary bike into a mountain of my own feelings and then crying during final stretch twice a week was no longer enough. It was that realization that led me to a late-night Google search for gyms in my area, which then led to me remembering that I don’t do exercise in front of other people in well-lit rooms, which then led to an even later late-night search for exercise bikes. At no point in this process did I think I’d actually buy one. I was just looking! I was just curious, jeez. Then I found one with a baby pink polka-dot wheel, a tiny white frame, a baby pink chain cover, and a negligible price tag.

And I bought the fuck out of it.

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In an effort to live my brand as “SoulCycle Ho” as best as possible, I decided it was what I had to do. When it arrived four days early, I rushed home to assemble it. As soon as it was in one piece, I adorned it with a tiny license plate and a sippy cup. And once I was done taking photos of it like a mother would a newborn baby, I hopped on that motherfucker and attempted to ride it in time with the rhythm to every song that had ever made me wish I was tapping it back in a candlelit room while someone incredibly fit talked to me about walking through fear or finding my own strength or making brave choices.

These are those songs.

Pity Party – Melanie Martinez
Beauty And A Beat – Justin Bieber
Trophies – Young Money
Don’t Wanna Know – Maroon 5
Losing You – Solange
Roses – The Chainsmokers
Me Too – Meghan Trainor
Let Me Love You – DJ Snake ft. Justin Bieber
Work from Home – Fifth Harmony
Unstoppable – Sia
How To Be A Heartbreaker – Marina and the Diamonds
Fade – Kanye West
Goodnight Gotham – Rihanna
Floating to Nowhere – Lando Chill
We Don’t Talk Anymore – Charlie Puth ft. Selena Gomez
High School – Nicki Minaj ft. Lil Wayne
Lonely Star – The Weeknd
Wild Things – Alessia Cara
HateULoveU – Ghita
Titanium – David Guetta ft. Sia
7/11 – Beyoncé
Hands To Myself – Selena Gomez
One Dance – Drake
Love Myself – Hailee Steinfeld
Confident – Demi Lovato
Take Back the Night – Justin Timberlake
Blow – Beyoncé
Freedun – M.I.A.
Sex On The Beach – PARTYNEXTDOOR
IV. Sweatpants – Childish Gambino
California – Grimes

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Carmen is the Digital Editor at Ms. , Managing Editor at Argot, a Contributor at Everyday Feminism, and Co-Host of The Bossy Show. She previously served as Straddleverse Director, Feminism Editor, and Social Media Co-Director at Autostraddle. You can find her on Twitter, Instagram, and Tumblr or in the drive-thru line at the nearest In-N-Out.

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6 Comments

  1. “that I don’t do exercise in front of other people in well-lit rooms”
    Thank you for putting that out there in the ether. I’m coming to grips with that as I continue to pay a monthly gym membership to a gym I don’t go to because I feel like there is a scarlet letter on my chest when I enter the dude-bro section of gym to do free weights. It’s not the dude-bros fault. It’s my personal shame that I’m projecting into them.

    Anyway, I have a couple of body weight routines that I’m excited to do to my favorite tunes. BTW, wireless ear buds make this process a lot easier IMO.

    Bad Girls unite (in the privacy of their own home)!

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