Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, a new A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written on paper with actual pens.
Today Stef has chosen some selections from the only journal she salvaged from her childhood, a chronicle of the summer she was 13 years old. She was mostly into horses, the X-Files, throwing temper tantrums, not having any friends and pretending to know how to play the guitar. Not much has changed.
1.
5/18/97
X-Files was horrible. Mulder killed himself. It was terrible. Just when he and Scully were beginning to draw close!
2.
5/26/97
I feel often that I need to break from this horrible shell that I've become.
3.
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