13 Excerpts From Stef’s Super Secret 8th Grade Diary

Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, a new A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written on paper with actual pens.

Today Stef has chosen some selections from the only journal she salvaged from her childhood, a chronicle of the summer she was 13 years old. She was mostly into horses, the X-Files, throwing temper tantrums, not having any friends and pretending to know how to play the guitar. Not much has changed.

1.
5/18/97

X-Files was horrible. Mulder killed himself. It was terrible. Just when he and Scully were beginning to draw close!
2.
5/26/97

I feel often that I need to  break from this horrible shell that I've become.
3.
6/7/97

I'm banned from the computer because I got jelly from my dinner (PBJ & half a cup of milk) on one of my dad's papers. Also, I drank the last of the milk. So I'm banned from the computer room for the weekend... [Mom] told me I had no se...

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Stef Schwartz is a founding member and the self-appointed Vapid Fluff Editor at Autostraddle.com. She currently resides in New York City, where she spends her days writing songs nobody will ever hear and her nights telling much more successful musicians what to do. Follow her on twitter and/or instagram.

Stef has written 443 articles for us.