“She kisses me. I hold on to her arms lightly, not wanting to hurt her, not wanting to weird her out, make her uncomfortable. She’s here for me: I’d hired her for exactly that, and she agreed to it, and she’s here.”
In this sex diary: a single femme sets herself a masturbation challenge. New sex toys, late-night porn, learning to feel free and more.
Welcome to A+ Sex Diaries, an A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish seven days in our sex lives. This week: A single, soft butch writer openly dating multiple people. Lesbian, 32, the American west.
Grass lit up by flecks of sun
THE SLOW BURN
“I was guilty and heartbroken and I wasn’t ready to let go of her: my first kiss, my first time, my first girlfriend, my first love, my first everything and before that, my best friend.”
Underwear! We all wear it. Or you know, most of us do. For more than that, you’ll have to read this roundtable.
We had some thoughts.
“i want to have a lesbian vibe! maybe i should just cut off all my hair and start wearing man clothes! haha. ok, probably not. maybe a rainbow or two. but that’s so cliche. maybe an “I AM A LESBIAN” teeshirt?”
“You are so so soft and just achingly warm and good and I’m just dying with the urge to pin and grind and tease and make you even wetter for me, taste you in your bed.”
The editors are talking about the things that drive us bananas on television! Lucky for you, two of us are television experts and the other three of us have a bunch of feelings anyway. Also one of us has never seen The Hunger Games?? Come on in!
Design Director Sarah joins the Senior Eds around Riese’s coffee table in this Very Special Episode of A+ Inbox LIVE!
“Something about our conversations just makes me want to take off my underwear. And by ‘something’ I mean ‘everything.'”
Five senior editors and one Erin. Topics include: The Escape Room, Hooters, Ellen, daiquiris, and who has red capri pants? I mean, there are more, but just off the top of my head.
With every nude I take and share, I see my sexiness, my erotic power, with my own eyes. Sexy self-portraiture has allowed me to envision and realize myself as a sexual being.
“Am I only attracted to Abby Wambach?”
This episode welcomes back Erin and is all about GHOSTING. And ghosts. Ghost cats. But mostly GHOSTING.
W’re all drinking and being our utmost selves while we discuss these dark weird days of our lives, Trump’s fucking face, grilled cheeses, A-Camp, smells, social media, and several other things! Hey, and Erin is back for another round!
“You’re at a party; you’re on vacation; it’s your lunch break. You feel good, or maybe just bored, or maybe a little reckless, and you scan the room, the beach, the restaurant. You stop scanning. And she winks, or he grins, or they realize you caught them staring and blush awkwardly at their own feet for a thousand years, and when they finally look back up, that’s it.”
On this week’s show, we’re talking dating profiles, beer drinking as a hobby, the best ways to fight gentrification, making friends in a new city, and how you shouldn’t follow people around in bookstores.
Moving in with your girlfriend after just one year (even when you have an ominous feeling about it maybe), dating someone significantly shorter than you, and the politics behind not commenting on our political posts but definitely commenting on our cookie posts. It’s a podcast!
A-Camp Wisconsin, firebugs, depression that is rooted to a place, and the correct feelings to have after your partner cheats on you with a dude. It’s A+ Inbox LIVE and it’s ready for you!!