Screaming/Not Screaming

Wake up on your back feeling like you're mid-scream. You're screaming louder than you've ever screamed, but you're not. You're silent. You can make a whimpering sound, you think, so you try it. It comes out sounding like the last dying moan from a pile of sourdough that hasn't been baked yet. You're aware that someone is lying next to you in bed, but who? Do they have a head or is it a large turnip root still covered in dirt? You can't be sure. What are eyeballs? If you saw a set of eyeballs right now, would they see you too? You're still screaming/not-screaming but now it also feels like a cackle mixed with underwater mermaid practice. Who is lying next to you?? Ask her. "Megan? Megan is that you?" She doesn't reply so you're sure it's a c...

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