A+ Roundtable: Internalized Homophobia and Other Endearing Forms of Low-Key Self-Hatred

Internalized homophobia, biphobia, transphobia, lesbophobia, misogyny, and all the rest of it is a motherfucker! We get feedback from readers asking for us to "talk about" this somehow very frequently, and it's been one of the most difficult things for us to accomplish. In part this is because sometimes when readers ask that, it seems like they're imagining that by virtue of being staff at a professionally gay magazine, we must have figured out how to overcome this phenomenon and we've totally exorcised all our internalized stuff, and can teach others to do the same. Unfortunately, this is not the case, as you will find out in this roundtable, but hopefully our experiences can be helpful or affirming in some way!

Laneia, Executive Editor

This is so hard to talk about! I've recently realized that my internalized homophobia plays out mostly during sex. I didn't know I was gay when I was younger, but I did know that seeing women topless in movies made me feel weird and that I loved ...

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