5 Trans-Affirming Surgeries I Only Want After Watching 90s Winona Ryder Movies

There is no one way to be trans. Every trans person should decide for themselves what medical changes to their body — if any! — they want. And these decisions should come from a deep inner desire. I started on hormones, because I wanted to start on hormones. I began electrolysis on my face because my beard made me feel dysphoric. I didn’t do these things for society — I did them for me.

Now that I have health insurance through my work and finally watched Reality Bites, I’ve started to consider certain surgeries that for a long time felt out of reach. I’ve always been adamant that I don’t mind my androgyny and that my womanhood isn’t dependent on looking cis. But that doesn’t mean I can’t still get surgeries if that feels right for me! Or even if it only feels right for me sometimes like the other night after I rewatched Girl, Interrupted.

Here are five trans-affirming surgeries I might want to be closer to the woman I see inside myself — and on my TV when I watch 90s Winona Ryder movies.


1. Facial Feminization Surgery

This is the big one. Do I feel attached to my face? Or do I want to change it so the world sees me as a woman? Maybe with a softened face I could get a cute pixie cut like some women in the 90s including Winona Ryder.

2. Tracheal shave

Or if I didn’t want full FFS I could at least reduce my Adam’s apple. I have a really big Adam’s apple and while it doesn’t bother me as much as it seems to bother other people, I have wondered what it’d be like to have a neck like Charlotte Flax from my favorite Winona Ryder movie Mermaids.

3. Breast augmentation

I’m not sure big boobs would feel right for me, but have you seen Winona Ryder in that black bra in Boys? I’d love to have cleavage like that.

4. Vocal surgery

Even if people out in the world read me as a woman based on my appearance, my voice is always a giveaway. I love my voice! I’ve always said I love my voice. But I also love Winona Ryder’s voice. Little Women is all about a girl finding her voice and maybe in Winona I’ve found mine.

5. Vaginoplasty

I feel most dysphoric about my genitalia. Sometimes when I come I feel like Edward Scissorhands on the waterbed. I’d love to be able to wear a wider variety of clothes and have new kinds of sex whether that’s with slacker Ethan Hawke or yuppie Ben Stiller. This is the trans surgery I’ve wanted since I first transitioned and, you know what, maybe this one doesn’t have anything to do with Winona.

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Drew Burnett Gregory

Drew is a Brooklyn-based writer, filmmaker, and theatremaker. She is a Senior Editor at Autostraddle with a focus in film and television, sex and dating, and politics. Her writing can also be found at Bright Wall/Dark Room, Cosmopolitan UK, Refinery29, Into, them, and Knock LA. She was a 2022 Outfest Screenwriting Lab Notable Writer and a 2023 Lambda Literary Screenwriting Fellow. She is currently working on a million film and TV projects mostly about queer trans women. Find her on Twitter and Instagram.

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  1. Great article! Sorry to comment here about a different article, but I wasn’t sure if you’d see a comment on an old article. In the Encyclopedia of Lesbian Cinema, which I use all the time to find a good film, you mention ‘me siento extrana’ as one of the films you wanted to include but didn’t because you couldn’t find a copy. What were the other films you wanted to include but couldn’t find?

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