S L I C K: Wanna Cyber

Under the hand-held shaky cam, a lightning crash blew street litter and white arms and serious chiffon up the former teen idol’s silhouette to fill the frame with her enormous sweeping asshole. She tensed and fell slack under the blast and just as the cavalry roared in to save this helpless twitching doppelgänger from herself, I hit another paywall. I was blowing through photoshop porn reel fails (cue the opening credits of “Pixie Twins Lost in Europe Pt. 2”) with that hallmark distorted scale — where the foreground hides and flattens famous city skylines. With a soft spot for genuine amateurish production, it doesn’t take sophisticated world-building for me to take the bait and thrash around to a two-minute loop of a suggestive open mouth kiss, but the motion blur of bondage on a child sized replica of the Eiffel tower soured me on the tour guide.
I was on week two of an admittedly half-serious sex challenge after a delicious back and forth with a hypnotist on Lex fizzled abruptly....

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Maryam (she/her/hers) is a poet and organizer based in Brooklyn. She works in civic tech and is part of the queer Anonymous Aardvarks artist Collective. She's been published in Wheelhouse, Patient Zero, and other publications.

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