When this series was first suggested to the Autostraddle Staff, my first reaction was “ME! PICK ME! PLEEEEASE!”, because I am nothing if not the over eager, front of the classroom, hands always in the air, Hermione Granger that I have been since I was five years old.
My second reaction was, “Ugh, what’s a ‘brand’?” You see, I hadn’t thought this plan through.
I did some deep self-searching and I realized that, more than anything, I want 2018 to be filled with the same serenity that I feel when I’m underwater. I first started swim classes at a local YMCA when I was too young to have a say in the matter, and that was the greatest gift my parents ever gave me. Water soothes me. When there’s nothing except my own heartbeat pulsing back through wet blue surrounding me, I can finally breathe. My anxieties melt away into the salt or the chlorine. I feel my strongest and most powerful as I push myself through to another lap, another body length, farther and father away from whatever troubles I left on the shore (or, you know, pool deck).
That calm, that focus, that feeling of being a force of nature? THAT’s what I am taking with me into this new year. Looking at 2018, I have quite a few battles left to fight, and I am going to take them down with the grace and strength of a mermaid. Mermaids are femme icons for a reason— they simultaneously flow one with the water, while also manipulating it to their needs. Their siren songs and sensual looks lure troublesome sailors, only for the mermaid to devour them in a single gulp and make herself stronger. To put it plainly, a mermaid is a boss bitch. I could use some of that energy in my life right now.
As an Afro-Latina, a daughter of el Caribe, the Caribbean, my mind’s also fixed on water in another way— storms and lost homes, the strength it takes to rebuild.
While I spent the last year navigating and healing from the personal storms of my depression, very real storms ransacked and ravaged my Puerto Rico. The severe battering that the Caribbean took this past fall is like few years on record, but I know we are not down for the count. It’s been 126 days since Hurricane Maria hit Puerto Rico, and at least 450,000 people are still without any electricity. The news cameras have moved on, but I have not. My heart breaks for Puerto Rico. I grew up in Detroit and my heart breaks for the people of Flint, MI— who have been without clean drinking water for over three years and still have no end in sight. Structures of environmental racism have weaponized water, a basic necessity, in far too many black and brown communities.
So, yes, I will see myself as a mermaid. I will sing my siren song, and I will do my part to eat those toxic structures whole. I will swim in the waters that are hurting my people and use those same forces to heal our pain instead.
I’m also going to reclaim play. I will splash with abandon and laugh as droplets tickle my temples. I will remember that joy is its own strength, particularly for those communities whose joy is stolen from them all too often. I will be Beyoncé, a femme queen stomping in the waters, hair flying, calling for my ancestors, singing at the top of my lungs, “I break chains all by myself, won’t let my freedom rot in hell, Imma keep running, cuz a winner don’t quit on themselves”.
Playlist: My 2018 Brand is The Boss Bitch Mermaid Who Bites Back
Part of Your World- From “The Little Mermaid” Soundtrack, Jodi Benson
Feeling Myself, Nicki Minaj feat. Beyoncé
Q.U.E.E.N., Janelle Monae feat. Erykah Badu
Guantananmera, Wyclef Jean feat. Celia Cruz
Pretty Girl Rock, Keri Hilson
On & On, Erykah Badu
La Negra Tiene Tumbao, Celia Cruz
Waiting for Tonight, Jennifer Lopez
Finesse (Remix), Bruno Mars feat. Cardi B
Almost Like Praying, Lin-Manuel Miranda feat. Artists for Puerto Rico
Wild Thoughts, DJ Khled feat. Rihanna
The Rain (Supa Dupa Fly), Missy Elliott
Havana, Camila Cabello
Took Us a Break, Lil Kim
Super Bass, Nicki Minaj
Umbrella, Rihanna feat. Jay-z
Yoga, Janelle Monae
After The Storm, Kali Uchis feat. Tyler the Creator and Bootsy Collins
Mi Primera Rumba, La India
Back to Black, Amy Winehouse
Queen of the Night, Whitney Houston
Ways to Help Puerto Rico and Flint:
Yes!! Love everything you said! This playlist is ??
Thank you, Yvonne!! I had a really good time making it (and writing it, of course).
I love love love water! I’m a former swimmer but I was always more Ursula than mermaid however Excellent choice of music here. So many great songs.
I think as I got older, I’ve tried to embrace my inner Ursula. She’s a good one to be.
And with good taste in music too!
If you like the science in your scifi to be…well plausible, horror, are fine with reading gore, and love some boss-ass mermaids (more like merdermaids), I so highly, highly, highly recommend Rolling in the Deep and its sequel Into the Drowning Deep by Mira Grant. This is also a case where the sequel is better than the first imo, and also the protags of Into the Drowning Deep are a bi woman (WHO EXPLICITLY SAYS THAT SHE’S BI) and a lesbian/queer woman (who doesn’t explicitly ID as lesbian but is implied that she is solely into women, or if she is bi/pan/queer, has a very, very strong preference for women) and it is great (and also, horrifying because anything that talks about that much disembowelment is horrifying and I really can’t stress the CW for gore enough).
Foggy in my brain is La Sirene or La Baleine, a loa depicted as a mermaid. Stories of her capriciousness, but like the sea and it’s riches are hers so taking and not giving thanks are things that earn a character in folktale their ruin. I recall her best as topless with a snake in her hands, wearing rings, bangles and bead necklaces floating like her afro-hair is floating. It was a folk art image I saw god only knows where or when.
Anyway I figure you’d get a kick out of divine mermaid that ruins exploiters.
Ooh also I don’t presume to know your music tastes from one playlist but I just wanted to tell you about Ibeyi in case you haven’t heard of them. They’re a modern Afro-Cuban music duo that grew up in Paris they sing in Spanish, English, French and of course Yoruba.