My Long-Distance Relationship is My Favorite Adventure

Geneva showed up at my house in March of 2013 in a rented car with a half-empty bag of trail mix, a big duffel bag full of clothes, and the cutest face on Earth. I didn't know at the time that it was what the next few years of my life would look like: me and her, slightly disheveled, heading somewhere in a car we didn't belong in. I didn't know at the time that being in love with Geneva was like being on an open road.

I flew on an airplane for the first time at 19, during the winter I was convinced I'd broken my life into pieces. I was going to a conference with a group from my school, but I requested to fly separately, hoping the alone time would do me well. I had the luck of being assigned a window seat. I asked the man next to me to help me buckle my seatbelt. I ate snack bags of pretzels and drank cups of free soda for lunch and dinner.

I cried every time the plane landed, wishing the flight was longer. I was struck by how beautiful it was to watch things so huge become t...

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Carmen is the Managing Digital Editor at Ms. , host of Bitch Media's POPAGANDA podcast and co-founder and Contributing Editor at Argot magazine. She previously served as Straddleverse Director, Feminism Editor and Social Media Co-Director at Autostraddle. You can find her on Twitter, Instagram and Tumblr or in the drive-thru line at the nearest In-N-Out.

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