Becoming Babygirl: How Erotica and Kink Saved My Life

As a mother and a career-driven individual who holds power in various aspects of my own life, I immediately related to Babygirl’s Romy.

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‘Inception’ Gave Me a Way To Dream

According to my memory, I saw Inception a total of six times in theaters.

A black and white image of Kaitlyn Dever in Booksmart against a yellow and purple tinted backdrop

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How ‘Booksmart’ Helped Me Come Out as Nonbinary

Although she was swimming, I knew she was soaring. To see her comfortable in her skin and happy with who she was at that moment was so important to me.

Jodie Foster As Ellie Arroway In "Contact" Based On The Best -Seller By Carl Sagan. (Photo By Getty Images)

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They Should Have Sent A Poet

“I was around the same age as young Ellie when ‘Contact’ came out. The way she so clearly carries her childhood self with her made adulthood legible; it made time seem like less of an unknowable straight line and something more like a circle. Watching it as an adult I have that same feeling.”

Jesse Walsh screaming while looking at his clawed hand in Nightmare on Elm Street 2: Freddy's Revenge

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Where Are All the Scream Kings?

When I was in fourth grade, I got in trouble for discussing how fast my body would decompose if I was stabbed.

Nina Sayers in Black Swan looks into a mirror and has many reflections looking back

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How Many Times Did I See Black Swan in Theaters While Closeted? An Investigation

This task has sent me down a strange spiral of doubling and fractured memory underscored by a homoerotic hum MUCH LIKE THE MOVIE ITSELF.

Ken from Barbie making a heart with his hands, a silver locket, and a set of headphones against a checkered pink background

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After We Watched Barbie

Transitioning to a man in a predominately white world makes me resentful. Genders are floating worlds, and I am doing gender somewhere I do not belong.

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Slow Takes: We Come to This Place for Magic

A movie theatre was the first reason I left my apartment after the 2016 election.

Two young girls laugh and lay close to each other in Mosquita y Mari

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Homoerotic Friendships, Mosquita Y Mari, and the Things We Never Said

My friendship with her actually ended twice.

Mary Elizabeth Winstead in 10 Cloverfield Lane wears a tank and is surrounded by skeleton hands holding out flowers

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How it Ends

I begin to realize my relationship is over when my boyfriend starts cleaning his gun in our apartment.

Dana Scully stands in front of an open car trunk

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The Seduction of Aliens

When I saw a UFO, I was 18 and it was the night before prom.

Nancy in Nightmare on Elm Street sleeps while something presses through the ceiling.

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Elm Street Was a Nightmare Before Freddy Made It One

Elm Street was just another part of a society — our society, where people are taught to care very little for each other.

Three girls hide under a blanket while watching a scary movie in bed. A fanged monster woman's face hovers over them and creepy green hands with black nails reach from the corners

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Revisiting the Scary Movie Sleepover

Horror movies are for the depressed and anxious gays.

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Deli Twotone AF+ Crossword Has a Few Tricks Up Its Sleeve "The AS crossword and a cool drink, perfect for this weather."

Ana Mariana On Lena Dunham’s ‘Too Much’ Queer Actors Perform Straight Chaos "I really think you should give it a try. The couple work out pretty well together and there are some…"

Kashan Why Is Boston’s New Women’s Soccer Team Ad Campaign So Transphobic and Bad "Yes, I agree. A good press release should share something new, interesting, or helpful for people. Write it clearly with…"