22 Excerpts From Sarah’s Diary, 2004–2006

Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, a new A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written on paper with actual pens. Except today, Sarah is sharing excerpts she typed in her LiveJournal during her senior year of high school and freshman year of college. She was falling hard for her best friend, who was irreversibly straight but still totally fucking with her head.

1.
December 22, 2004

well, first let me introduce myself. i'm seventeen, and bisexual. yeah, that's pretty much me.
2.
January 2, 2005

i was falling off the bed because everytime our legs touched i got really nervous, so i was like "i hate to be rude but i'm like falling of the bed" and she goes "well look at how much space there is between us. you can come closer, you know?" AHHH.
3.
February 1, 2005

i didn't even do my english paper like i planned tonight, and i'm like so unprepared. i feel spastic and drunk wi...

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