How Art Modeling Carried Me Through an Abusive Relationship

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There is this boy who I called The Last Boyfriend.

He helped me discontinue my awkward streak of exclusively kissing philosophy majors. The Last Boyfriend studied Theater, rocked a beanie, and looked happiest when eating omelets. His facial hair grew quickly and I never knew his friends. He introduced me to acting while I worked a job that required no speaking at all, art modeling for drawing classes.

The Last Boyfriend and I were in the same Theater-English cross-over course at Oberlin College. The professor assigned each of us a scene to memorize from a stack of pale blue and yellow paperbacks with the announcement, “And we will all give ...

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Lexie Bean

Lexie Bean (they/he) is a queer and trans multimedia artist from the Midwest whose work revolves around themes of bodies, homes, cyclical violence, and LGBTQIA+ identity. They are a Jerome Hill Artist Fellow, member of the RAINN National Leadership Council, and a Lambda Literary Award Finalist for WRITTEN ON THE BODY and their work with fellow trans survivors of domestic violence and sexual abuse. Their debut novel THE SHIP WE BUILT is noted as the first middle grade book at a major American publisher centering a trans boy to be written by one. Their work has been featured in Teen Vogue, The New York Times, The Feminist Wire, Ms. Magazine, Them, Logo’s New Now Next, Bust Magazine, and more. WHAT WILL I BECOME? is Lexie’s first feature length documentary project.

Lexie has written 3 articles for us.