For My Own Pleasure: Hiring a Sex Worker as a Queer Woman

"Oh God. I'm so sorry. I feel like a massive dork."


"It's been so long. Like, over a year. I feel like I've forgotten how all of this works. Also I'm just a very awkward person in general."

"You'll be fine."

She kisses me. I hold on to her arms lightly, not wanting to hurt her, not wanting to weird her out, make her uncomfortable. She's here for me: I'd hired her for exactly that, and she agreed to it, and she's here. Blonde cropped hair, geeky tattoos befitting her name, tall and solid with a soft touch.

She kisses me and I try to not feel guilty about the next hour being solely for my pleasure.

This isn't the first time that I've been a sex work client. I've visited strip clubs before — sometimes with partners...

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Creatrix Tiara's philosophy is to sign up for anything that look interesting, which gets her into some fun adventures. She's passionate about liminality, inclusivity, and intersectionality, especially in arts, media, tech, games, fandom, education, and activism.

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