Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, an A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you some of our incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written down, usually with actual pens. Today, Gaby has selected excerpts from her journals chronicling her baby bi days.
Gaby Dunn, circa 2002
Crying Tears of Crimson: A Poem
My tears are cellophane (invisible)
Sunshine guards the hidden dark
Blackness haunts to cloud white
Blinding light conceals routine
I am alone.
The past consumes my mind. I yearn (for it)
The present clouds my soul. I drown (in it)
The future blinds my courage. I shiver (from it.)
The world grasps to threaten chance, I cry crimson tears alone.
Different: A Poem
Different, special, unique,
cutter, bisexual, depressed,
trembling, hidden, alone
I haven’t gone out with anyone since Jason. No one interests me, because whenever I get close to a guy, I notice all these flaws and I feel trapped and I can’t stay anymore...
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