Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, an A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you some of our incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written down, usually with actual pens. Today, Gabe has selected excerpts from his journals chronicling his baby bi days.
Gabe Dunn, circa 2002
Crying Tears of Crimson: A Poem
My tears are cellophane (invisible)
Sunshine guards the hidden dark
Blackness haunts to cloud white
Blinding light conceals routine
I am alone.
The past consumes my mind. I yearn (for it)
The present clouds my soul. I drown (in it)
The future blinds my courage. I shiver (from it.)
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