Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, a new A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we've written on paper with actual pens. Today Laneia has plucked some lines and paragraphs and entries from her 2013 diary for you, here, now.
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"I really want to know what my actual potential is. I mean I genuinely think I could be good at this."
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"I think the thing to do might be to bring myself back to where my body is, but I don't know how. I keep making lists — things like How To Be Gone Without Really Leaving — but the defeated feeling of my body being here makes it even harder to do things."
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"Just some insufficient words about Slade turni...
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