Welcome to A+ Sex Diaries, an A+ feature in which we publish seven days in our sex lives. This week: a thirty-something tender pervert from the Pacific Northwest reflects on their long distance relationship.
Day One
I’m laying like a dog in my bed. Watching them watching me. Honestly, I’ve been waiting all day for it.
My partner, Sam, and I are long-distance and it’s great but depressing. Despite my every objection to having feelings at all, particularly love feelings, mine for them seemed a bit destined and completely irrevocable. We’re now a year into a real relationship, and here I sit: fucking myself on a webcam for their viewing pleasure.
I’d say I’m a particularly sexual person. Outside the hours that I spend at my day j...
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