23 Excerpts From Carolyn’s Diary, 2015–2016

Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, an A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written on paper with actual pens. Today, Carolyn has selected some lines and paragraphs from the last 12 months.

1.
I want kombucha. Also to live in a matriarchy.
2.
I had a tiny breakdown last night, I think — or at least I couldn’t stop feeling like everything was wrong or going wrong or going to be wrong. I didn’t even notice how loud everything has seemed lately — totally alone in this empty house — until I went into the office this morning and it sounded quiet and I could suddenly breathe.
3.
Getting up early has made me feel like I have way more time t...

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Ryan Yates

Ryan Yates was the NSFW Editor (2013–2018) and Literary Editor for Autostraddle.com, with bylines in Nylon, Refinery29, The Toast, Bitch, The Daily Beast, Jezebel, and elsewhere. They live in Los Angeles and also on twitter and instagram.

Ryan has written 1142 articles for us.