Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, an A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written on paper with actual pens. Today, Carolyn has selected some lines and paragraphs from the last 12 months.
I want kombucha. Also to live in a matriarchy.
I had a tiny breakdown last night, I think — or at least I couldn’t stop feeling like everything was wrong or going wrong or going to be wrong. I didn’t even notice how loud everything has seemed lately — totally alone in this empty house — until I went into the office this morning and it sounded quiet and I could suddenly breathe.
Getting up early has made me feel like I have way more time than staying up late ever did. I can journal! I can work out! I can learn tarot! I can cut and juice and freeze several watermelons for some reason! … Maybe I do not identify as a morning person and maybe I still don’t want to talk to people early in ...
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