23 Excerpts from Rachel’s Diary, 2013-2015

Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, a new A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written on paper with actual pens. Today Rachel has made some selections from the diary she's kept for the last two years for your consideration.

1.
tonight my mom said “honey, do you daydream about your life after this year? do you think you’ll be able to slow down? i hope so. you’ve been working very hard for a long time.” and it made me want to cry forever
2.
the thing about sending emails you’re scared to send in a place of drunkenness/tiredness/whatever is that then they get responded to and the email from the first girl you ever loved is just sitting there in your inbox like oh hey, what’s up, what now
3.
what if i came here every day, like just showed up. by myself. if i opened my mouth up all the time and just let it hang there what would come out. what languages would i know how...

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Rachel is Autostraddle's Managing Editor and the editor who presides over news & politics coverage. Originally from Boston, MA, Rachel now lives in the Midwest. Topics dear to her heart include bisexuality, The X-Files and tacos. Her favorite Ciara video is probably "Ride," but if you're only going to watch one, she recommends "Like A Boy." You can follow her on twitter and instagram.

Rachel has written 1079 articles for us.