Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, a new A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written on paper with actual pens. Today Rachel has made some selections from the diary she's kept for the last two years for your consideration.
tonight my mom said “honey, do you daydream about your life after this year? do you think you’ll be able to slow down? i hope so. you’ve been working very hard for a long time.” and it made me want to cry forever
the thing about sending emails you’re scared to send in a place of drunkenness/tiredness/whatever is that then they get responded to and the email from the first girl you ever loved is just sitting there in your inbox like oh hey, what’s up, what now
what if i came here every day, like just showed up. by myself. if i opened my mouth up all the time and just let it hang there what would come out. what languages would i know how to speak. wha...
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