23 Excerpts from Rachel’s Diary, 2013-2015

Welcome to Excerpts From My Super-Secret Diary, a new A+ feature for Silver & Gold members in which we publish for you the incomplete and/or highly personal thoughts we’ve written on paper with actual pens. Today Rachel has made some selections from the diary she's kept for the last two years for your consideration.

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tonight my mom said “honey, do you daydream about your life after this year? do you think you’ll be able to slow down? i hope so. you’ve been working very hard for a long time.wp_postsand it made me want to cry forever
2.
the thing about sending emails you’re scared to send in a place of drunkenness/tiredness/whatever is that then they get responded to and the email from the first girl you ever loved is just sit...

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Rachel

Originally from Boston, MA, Rachel now lives in the Midwest. Topics dear to her heart include bisexuality, The X-Files and tacos. Her favorite Ciara video is probably "Ride," but if you're only going to watch one, she recommends "Like A Boy." You can follow her on twitter and instagram.

Rachel has written 1142 articles for us.