Quarantine Survival Playlist: We’re on a Roller Coaster

When I was 16 I had a binder filled with mix CD’s in my car. This was a collection I had built entirely of gifted CDs. I loved exchanging tapes and then CDs with annotated track lists and the whole thing. On a very dark day, someone broke into my car and only stole that binder of CDs. Not the cash in my car or my pretty cool jacket –  just the CDs. I really hope whoever it was enjoyed that CD of only Tegan and Sara made by an ex with a paragraph about each song tucked in behind it.

This is like a driving playlist except it’s for driving around your house – it’s a collection of moods that one might pass through in a day (or an hour) of being alone with our thoughts at home. Do you feel like you’re on a roller coaster and can’t get off? Do you feel like every single day is a ride through everything you’ve ever felt in your entire life? Have you made up entire fake lives you are living outside of your four walls?

It’s just some things I’ve been listening to and it it is also a roller coaster through genre and feelings. Maybe you’ll dance maybe you’ll cry who knows maybe you will find something new!

I wrote you out a playlist like we’re dating also I’m sorry you are also about to learn that I never use lined paper in school and I have very small writing sorry if you can’t read it. And I’m sorry if this is deeply upsetting to several of you.

The Playlist:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0XEA3P4d3NLKIUTTNd5APR?si=YAmEpfDzQYiesyd9MqO4gQ

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Molly

Molly Adams is an LA-based photographer. You can find documenting life from Afghanistan to Standing Rock to the LA queer nightlife. You can also find her on Instagram.

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10 Comments

  1. I thought you were going to include Sleater-Kinney’s Rollercoaster! I have seriously had that song on repeat for weeks. It feels completely relevant and somehow makes me feel better. Thank you for sharing your playlist.

    Also I had the EXACT same thing happen in the 90s! I know other people who also had their CD binders stolen. I feel like this is on par with walking by a payphone in a city and hearing it ringing, where it would be hard to explain kids because it’s so out of modern context. “Soooo, you had to bring round, easily scratched things with music on them into your car if you wanted to listen to your own music?” “So, there were land line phones just on the sidewalk, inside a little booth, or just on a pole, and sometimes they would randomly ring?”

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