In The Movie Depicting My Childhood

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Stacy Grover

Stacy Jane Grover is the author of Tar Hollow Trans: Essays from the University Press of Kentucky Press. Her essays have appeared in Salon, LitHub, Bitch Media, Belt Magazine, and elsewhere. She received her MA in Women's, Gender, and Sexuality Studies from the University of Cincinnati. Find her at

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