Closested Christian black girl, being recruited by Cornell and Dartmouth, trying to find her place, surviving my parents homophobia. What does all this mean? Every time I go onto Autostraddle or Effing Dykes I have to clear my history. I shift between hating my dishonesty and loathing my parents for putting me in this situation. I love my church but hate the things they preach. And am a firm believe in the phrase “it gets better”