On What It Means To Say You Were Born This Gay

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The “origin” of homosexuality is a topic someone somewhere always seems to be debating. Is it hormones? A “gay gene?” Environment in the womb? Early exposure to the X Files? With the exception of some outliers and scary conservatives who either believe or imply that we can be ‘fixed,’ it seems fairly well accepted that however we came to be this way, it wasn’t our choice. Well, Lindsay Miller is tired of talking about it. She’s tired of the campaign to amass evidence that we really were born this way in an effort to oppose haters and bigots. She doesn’t think she was.

“I would like to state for the record that I was not born this way. I have dated both men and women in the past, and when I’ve been with men, I never had to lie back and think of Megan Fox. I still notice attractive men on the street and on television. If I were terrified of the stigma associated with homosexuality, it would have been easy enough to date men exclusively and stay in the closet my whole life.

Obviously, no one sits down and makes a rational decision about who to fall in love with, but I get frustrated with the veiled condescension of straight people who believe that queers “can’t help it,” and thus should be treated with tolerance and pity. To say “I was born this way” is to apologize for the person I am and for whom I love. It’s like saying I would be different if I could. I wouldn’t.”

Well! The assertion that queers who believe they were born with same-sex attraction are being apologetic by doing so is perhaps a little broad. But overall, Miller’s points are as follows: being gay is actually great in a lot of ways, and it’s better to focus on them than hold up the homophobia and injustices we deal with to prove that being gay must be innate, because no one would want to deal with this.

It’s an interesting point — it’s hard to argue with the declaration that “Whether or not I deserve the same rights as straight people has nothing to do with whether I chose to be the way I am today.” And it’s true — there are amazing, wonderful things about being gay. We have an incredible community that’s often more supportive and caring than our biological families; we have a brave and bloody activist history to be fiercely proud of; our short fingernails make bowling easier. But none of that is what Miller is talking about — and I find the point she does make a little harder to agree with.

If there’s one thing to be said about lesbian relationships, it’s this: You always start from equal footing… Neither of us was raised with male privilege. Neither of us was raised to believe, on some subconscious level, that the way we perceive the world is the default setting, and everyone else is deviant. 

If you’re talking about doing housework and childcare — which, for the most part, it seems like Miller is — then that might be true? Maybe? (Although anyone who has ever even lived with roommates of the same sex might argue that it doesn’t magically make the division of housework equitable.) But her underlying premise — that lesbian relationships “always start from equal footing” — seems pretty precarious. It’s great for Miller and her partner that “neither of [them] was raised to believe, on some subconscious level, that the way [they] perceive the world is the default setting, and everyone else is deviant.” Because that would mean that they are devoid of any kind of privilege whatsoever! At the risk of generalizing in the opposite direction: very few people, if any, “start from equal footing.” It’s true that two people can be of the same sex or gender, but that’s not at all the same thing. It’s great for Miller that she’s experienced her relationship as being free from the difficulty that major social difference and the difference in privilege that comes with it can bring. For people who are dating someone of a different race, size, sexual orientation, ethnicity, religion, class, education level, or income, that’s not necessarily something they can claim. It’s true that if they’re in a same-sex relationship they can share clothes and tampons and are less likely to earn 25% more at a similar job but not acknowledge the wage gap. But that’s a little bit of a different claim — Miller’s idea that we somehow get out of dealing with privilege and its baggage at all by being gay (or “choosing” to be so) seems a little overly ambitious.

And while Miller has a point, in that the “of course I didn’t choose to be gay, why would I want to face this much homophobia?” argument can have the unfortunate consequence of making being gay feel like a mark of Cain, her casual dismissal of it seems like another refusal to acknowledge privilege. It’s, again, wonderful for Miller that being gay hasn’t actually been holding her back. But for many people, the reality is bad enough that there isn’t really an option to de-emphasize this side of the story. If you’ve ever been made homeless and disowned by your parents, lost a job that you needed to survive, been threatened with or lived through violence and danger, survived suicide attempts or have friends who didn’t, or have almost killed yourself trying to change a part of you that you believe your faith requires you to but ultimately failing — well, if you’ve lived through any of those things, then “If I could choose, would I choose this?” becomes a pretty central question. It would be nice if we didn’t have to ask it. But until those things stop happening, can we afford not to?

It’s not that being gay isn’t great in a lot of ways. It’s getting better every day, as we win more legal rights and more social acceptance and visibility. And it’s possible, maybe even desirable, that the heated debate over how we came to be this way can be dialed down a little, that we can stop talking about the reason we’re gay as a way to defend our existence. It’s also possible, though, that the way to do this isn’t to play a game of one-upping with “normal,” straight relationships — to emphasize that we’d choose this “lifestyle” over theirs any day. To me, it seems like it’s not that we start off on equal footing and ‘they’ don’t; it’s that no one starts off equal at all. Sometimes we feel like we don’t even have our footing. We have that in common, gay and straight.  But we work hard, and we come together anyways, from very different places, because that’s what love is, regardless of the genders of the people involved. And isn’t that actually why we choose the people and the lives that we do?

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Rachel

Originally from Boston, MA, Rachel now lives in the Midwest. Topics dear to her heart include bisexuality, The X-Files and tacos. Her favorite Ciara video is probably "Ride," but if you're only going to watch one, she recommends "Like A Boy." You can follow her on twitter and instagram.

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196 Comments

  1. I know some of us feel we were born gay and some don’t, but as per the way I feel on a lot of issues, I wish we could stop trying to invalidate each other and acknowledge that there are people who fall into both camps. For me, finally stating “I’ve always been this way” was immediately freeing. Born this gay and proud of it, dammit. But that’s only speaking for myself. I support other queers who don’t think they were born gay because that’s fine too. Whether we were or not, there’s nothing wrong with being gay in the first place.
    Explaining this concept doesn’t take that long either- “I was born this way, _____ was not, but we both ended up gay and that’s where we are now. Rainbow cake for everyone!”

  2. Not only was I born bisexual (and knew as soon as I could formulate thoughts) but up until I was about twelve I assumed everybody was. The world was a pretty great place under that assumption, let me tell you. I had my first boy-crush, and first girl-crush in the same year and never differentiated the two. However, as someone who could choose to date men only, Miller is a very interesting woman to me. However people arrive at queerness is totally fine with me – I just hope that means that 12 year old me will get her delightful rainbow world eventually.

  3. The idea of “any way you arrive at your gayness should be cool” is encouraging to me, but the rest of her theory is kind of privileged malarky. But I will say it was a revelatory day for me when I was told (indirectly, I think, at everyoneisgay.com) that it didn’t matter why you were gay, even if it’s a choice, you should be allowed to live the life you want to live. For a lot of us in that grey area between gay and straight, the label you infinitely settle on is the choice you make, I think (or at least it was for me). Like, I could say I’m bisexual, but I’d be denying the the fact that I only really see a female partner in my future. Are there still male outliers I’m attracted to? Definitely. But ultimately the struggle of NOT always feeling like I was born this way (because I spent a long time thinking I was straight) kind of makes me feel invalidated in my identity, so it helps to remind myself that even if it was 50% choice, that doesn’t make it any less legitimate. The problem with Miller’s theory is that there’s a difference between taking pride in your identity and doing so to the point where you delude yourself into thinking everyone is allowed to feel the same pride as you.

    • I totally agree with you. I think for people who are more toward the gay end of the sexuality spectrum it makes more sense to say ‘I was born this way’ and have that be the end of it. And maybe I was born with the propensity to be attracted to more than one sex and/or gender, but it’s definitely my choice to live in the queer community and actively seek a same-sex partner. So where does that leave me? I chose it but I didn’t at the same time.

  4. when i say i was born this way, i’m not apologizing, or saying i would change it if i could. i am saying that if i were not gay, i _would not be myself_. that would be some other person who is less awesome than i am. that is what i mean when i say i was born this way.

  5. i was for sure born gay. ive known since i was about 6 i liked girls. so how is that explained any other way. its not like i thought at age 6 hey i might be gay my whole life just for the sake of it! i didnt even know what gay was til i was like 12 lol.

  6. As a lesbian all I am interested is equal rights where laws protect me and my love one, if we choose to have kids that we both have equal rights. I think sometimes our community in trying to gain that equality we subject ourselves to too much over analyzing and too much separation, also with labels, I hate the word “queer” it makes me feel dirty. I know I was born gay and I also have been able to accept myself but I don’t feel I need to make an announcement, but I can understand why others do. As a minority you have to fight for everything and in today’s society that even means trying to explain to straight people that being gay is not a choice it is just who you are, it is just like a person being white, or black or a person being born female or male, the only thing we decide is how to come if to come out and when to. Ms Miller is a bi-sexual not lesbian so she does not speak for me, which I find is another issue because of the constant debates between lesbians and bisexuals it has confused the heterosexual society into believing that it is a choice and not how we are born, which is why for me I find that hollywood and even our own community has failed us in portraying lesbians and I think we ourselves are also responsible for the misconception.

  7. I think the point that she’s missing here, and I haven’t read her entire article so maybe she includes it there, is that regardless of if every gay person was given $1,000 on their 25th birthdays or if we were loved the world over, that cannot prove or disprove the truth of being born gay. If she’s arguing that gay people only use that argument as a crutch, but still believes that it is possible that people are born gay, that’s fine. But that doesn’t seem to be what she’s saying. Instead, it seems like she’s implying that gay people choose to be gay, only clinging to the “born this way” label to make them more easily accepted by straight people. It’s fine to say that she feels like she choose to be gay, but “born this way” gays don’t choose this label just to be pitied.

    • No, I don’t think that is what she is saying.

      She ends off with, “The “born this way” argument is frequently used in defense of gay rights, but whether or not I deserve the same rights as straight people has nothing to do with whether I chose to be the way I am. I deserve equal rights because I’m an equal. I’m a human being sharing my life with the person I love. The life I have now is not something I ended up with because I had no other options.”

      I think she is saying that that whether or not she was “born this way” is irrelevant, she deserves equal rights regardless.

        • Because this is at a major publication, the author probably didn’t make her own headline. That job would have fallen to one of their copy editors. This is generally because back in print journalism time, the headline length becomes dependent on the number of inches and columns allotted, so any headline that a writer prepared ahead of time would most likely be decimated in the editing process. For some reason this custom has carried over to major internet publications as well.

          A good example of this is Carol Hanisch’s famous essay “The Personal is Political”- she has said she didn’t actually title it that way, the publication did, which is ironic since so many people attribute that quote to her yet it never appears in the text of her essay.

          Anyways, blah blah blah THE MORE YOU KNOW!

          • Yes, what Ash says is true. Honestly I’ve never written for anyone who had me write my own headline, that’s always the editor’s choice — online or print.

            As for why it’s still done, I think the headline sells the piece so even w/o the column inches, the editors know both SEO and overall what kind of title will entice readers moreso than any individual writer does. Our writers sometimes write headlines, but almost every headline you read is written by me, marni, rachel or laneia.

          • Never mind that she insults people who aren’t attracted to the opposite sex.

            I read this and what I get out of it is people who didn’t choose to be gay are pathetic. She certainly chooses her words very carefully calling out “the gay rights movement” and straight people rather than gay people themselves, and I don’t think that’s by accident.

            “when I’ve been with men, I never had to lie back and think of Megan Fox.”

            Well good for her. Someone give her a medal for not having to cope with having sex with someone she didn’t want to.

            A lot of gay people can’t have sexually functional relationships with the opposite sex. Some may not have even been born that way. Either way, it can be a greater source of agony for a gay person trying to figure out their sexuality than being attracted to the same sex.

            It’s not that we don’t have any choice, but that the choice is between a sexually dysfunctional relationship and a functional one. Acknowledging that isn’t apologizing for it.

  8. B-I-S-E-X-U-A-L

    Gaaaawwwwd, it’s like everyone is soooo afraid of that word, like if they say it out loud they will be forced to kiss one boy for every girl, and the only marriage options open to them will be special three-person unions that not even Canada recognizes.

    Okay, here is the form you need to fill out to join BISEXUAL CLUB:

    1. Do you ever get turned on by boy-shaped beings?
    2. Do you ever get turned on by girl-shaped beings?

    Did you answer “yes” to both? Welcome to the club! The first rule of Bisexual Club, apparently, is DO NOT TALK ABOUT BISEXUAL CLUB.

    ):

    P.S. Here is Miller’s original article in full: http://www.theatlantic.com/life/archive/2011/09/queer-by-choice-not-by-chance-against-being-born-this-way/244898/

    P.P.S. Please join my club. There will be cupcakes and juice in plastic cups.

    • I try not to assign identities to people that they don’t use themselves, but seriously as I read

      “I would like to state for the record that I was not born this way. I have dated both men and women in the past, and when I’ve been with men, I never had to lie back and think of Megan Fox. I still notice attractive men on the street and on television”

      I was thinking, ‘gee this person sure sounds bi.’

      • I think she’s more saying that she used to be attracted to men, and now she’s not. (Except in passing on the street etc)

        i.e. she wasn’t born gay, but now she is – which doesn’t necessitate that she chose to be that way, attractions can change over time

        • http://www.theatlantic.com/life/archive/2011/09/queer-by-choice-not-by-chance-against-being-born-this-way/244898/

          This is what I take away from her article: “I am dating a woman, but not because I am exclusively attracted to women. I am dating a woman because I prefer women over men.”

          I mean, at the beginning she goes out of her way to tell us how she could, right this very minute, be in a relationship with a man and it would be “easy enough”. That doesn’t sound very gay to me. And then she starts citing research about the supremacy of same-sex hanky-panky, as part of her “I chose this” argument.

          I have no reason to doubt her experiences, which is why I don’t get why the word “bisexual” doesn’t appear once in her article.

          • If she’s chosen to date only women, I can see some kind of legitimacy in claiming the lesbian label, honestly.

          • That does make perfect sense from a practical standpoint.

            Here’s another way to think about it: Imagine a person who experiences sexual attraction to other people yet identifies as “asexual” because of a vow of chastity.

          • I would say that imaginary person can self-identify however they want. Everyone gets to choose their own labels, or lack thereof. That’s the whole point–whether an asexual person feels they were born that way or that they made a choice, if they choose to identify as asexual then I would want to respect that identification and acknowledge them as such. I would also expect them to have full human rights because they are, you know, human. Likewise, whether a lesbian feels they were born that way or that they made a choice, if they choose to identify as gay then I’m gonna go ahead and respect that. Same deal with expecting full human rights. Why would that be an issue?

          • (For some reason it won’t let me reply to “V” above.)

            I guess our point of disagreement is this: I believe words mean things.

          • (Oh I get it, we’ve hit the reply maximum!)

            Please note that my shtick here is mosty an OCD-level obsession with nomenclature. If we were all part of a libertarian forum you might see me rambling about the true meaning of anarchism and it would result in a thread that was fifty pages long and everyone would realize at the end of the day we were all still libertarians even though nobody could say what libertarianism even meant.

    • I do think that the queer world should be a little bit more inclusive to people who identify as bisexual. I am *very* slightly bisexual, but I would never label myself as that, because a) I don’t feel like that label is an accurate description of my sexuality, and b) I feel that some lesbians don’t take bisexual girls as seriously as they would a lesbian. I have known some girls even to say that they would outright not date a bisexual girl.

      It’s like some people try to invalidate bisexuality. A lot of people just don’t believe in it full stop. Can we have a ‘you do you’ moment here? I just feel a little bit sorry for bisexual girls who, in my opinion, aren’t treated with the full respect they deserve.

      Oh, and it should totally be allowed that people can have multiple person unions. I’ve always wondered whether something like that would ever work :)

      Also, I will join any club where there are cupcakes :D

      • Yeeeeeah, I know what you mean about the dating thing. Ever since I came out as bi I’ve not been able to date any monosexuals. Which makes me sad. The only people who’ll give me the time of day (at least around these here parts) is bi guys and bi gals. I used to think being bisexual meant I had a huge dating pool, but that only really applies if I pretend I’m straight or gay as required. Which is like… marketing on a level I’m so not comfortable with.

        I do have some straight-identifying friends who’ve admitted to very slight interest in the same sex, but I didn’t try to drag them into BISEXUAL CLUB. (I am nicer when I’m not on the internet.) I did have one straight-identifying friend who experienced euphoric same-sex sexaliciousness (including with yours truly) but continues to identify as straight because of…marriage? Something like, “I can only see myself being with…” I can’t even remember. (I blame societal and familial expectations, but try integrating that into sweat-slick pillow talk.) I wasn’t able to recruit that one into BISEXUAL CLUB even with cupcakes and sexmajik. Le sigh~

        P.S. BISEXUAL CLUB is written always in all-caps.

      • Yeah, I really think this shunning of bisexuals from the gay community has a lot to do with heterosexual privilege. If someone is bi, they have the capacity to have opposite-sex partners, which we know places them at an advantage in society and makes things a bit, er, easier in that way. I think a lot of gay people are hesitant to date someone who’s bisexual because they are, even subconsciously, afraid that their partner would end up ditching them for the comforts of heteronormativity. Which, you know, is pretty tempting, in my opinion, when you’ve got so many people around you believing it’s the way things should be anyways. I’m sure plenty of us have had sour experiences with women who give us the time of day only to move on to men and deny their GAY FEELINGS. Ya know? This way of thinking is definitely harmful and dismissive of people’s experiences with their sexuality though…

        Second to this is, of course, the fact that people still don’t want to accept bisexuality as valid. To them, you’re either gay or you’re straight, and “bisexuality” is just you being indecisive (so much eye-rolling). They absolutely refuse to believe that you can be open to both genders/sexes. It’s one of the things that really bugs me about how we’re expected to identify, because people would like you to declare one thing exclusively and fall into only one of two camps. So if you’re gay, then you’re ~*~GAY~*~ and there’s no possibility of dating the opposite-sex, ever, and vice versa with the rest.

  9. I have a pretty big problem with the “born this way” mantra. Arguably, pedophiles were “born that way” too. Oh, and addicts. More broadly, I think the most science can tell us is that we are all born with a vast multitude of predispositions. But just because we are “born that way” doesn’t make it “good”. Using “born this way” to make a value statement about oneself is, imho, incredibly flawed.

    So on the one hand, I can jive with Lindsay Miller when she says she’s sick of hearing it. And I agree with her when she says it suggests that we have something to “prove” – when I tell people I like pizza, do I only feel validated if I follow that with, “And I was born liking it!” No, because there’s -nothing wrong with liking pizza-. But I would go a step further and suggest that whether I was born liking pizza or not is pretty much completely irrelevant.

    (But yes, a lot of what she’s saying is very throwback to ideas about sexuality that have long passed – the ‘equal footing’ argument is silly, for the reasons pointed out already, and the ‘I could choose men if I want to’ only works if you’re bisexual ;))

    • Pedophilia and addiction are pathological.

      Gay right activists haven’t only been arguing that being gay is innate for the past several decades, but that it isn’t pathological. That was the whole point of getting it removed from the DSM in the 1970s.

      • Isn’t that circular though? Homosexuality isn’t pathological because it’s not wrong, it’s not not wrong because it’s not pathological.

        • Well, that’s the whole point about pathology, isn’t it? Pathology means something is wrong…if something isn’t wrong, it isn’t pathological.

        • No, something is deemed pathological if it has an adverse effect on a person or group of people–a disease or disorder.

          Maybe you’re conflating “wrong” with “immoral” or maybe you just feel wrong. (And I think you need to reflect on the internalized oppression that implies.)

          Pedophilia is pathological because it harms a group of people–children. Addiction is pathological because it harms the individual.

          What is immoral is entirely subjective and not scientific. Something can be pathological but not immoral, like OCD or bipolar disorder. Mandy just happened to pick two examples that are generally considered immoral.

          Homosexuality does not, in itself, adversely affect a person. But rather it’s the stigma and oppression that adversely affects gay people.

          • The point of the comment you originally implied to was that there exist things which are or may be inherent which are nevertheless wrong – ethically. Some people may be born alcoholics but that doesn’t make it OK for them to drink to excess, because it is harmful. You responded by saying that things which are inherent but harmful are different from things which are inherent but not harmful because they are pathological. This is a circular argument. Obviously the difference between something inherent and harmful and something inherent and harmless is that the first is harmful and the second is harmless.

            I think we may be working at cross purposes. I’m not saying that there is anything wrong/harmful/pathological with same-sex attraction (obviously!) (there isn’t!) I’m saying that the fact that same-sex attraction is inherent in some people is not an argument for the fact that it isn’t wrong, harmful, or pathological.

            (I hate using “not wrong” when I really mean “right”. I don’t like the effect of using double negatives here instead of positives when I really think that same-sex attraction is to be celebrated the same way we celebrate opposite-sex attraction. But I don’t think we can or should rely on biological determinism to support that.)

          • It’s a circular argument because you’re making it circular.

            “You responded by saying that things which are inherent but harmful are different from things which are inherent but not harmful because they are pathological.”

            That’s not what I said. And perhaps it’s because I’m being unclear. Pathology is the study of disease. What is a disease? Something inherently harmful as opposed to say being born with brown eyes. Why is cancer considered a disease? Obviously because it’s harmful.

            My point, and I’ll make this a short as possible. The argument that homosexuality is an immutable trait (in some people) WAS NEVER THE WHOLE ARGUMENT. To suggest that it is the whole argument and argue against that is a straw man argument. It. Was. Never. The. Whole. Argument.

            The ACTUAL argument is that homosexuality is 1) an immutable trait and 2) not a disease. It’s a two part, two pronged argument.

          • The ACTUAL argument is that homosexuality is 1) an immutable trait and 2) not a disease. It’s a two part, two pronged argument.

            Yes, and my argument is that insisting on part 1 as a foundation for your argument undermines your whole argument.

            And let’s be clear: I’m not speaking politically or religiously. I’m not talking about the rhetoric needed to decriminalise homosexuality in Tonga or to legislate for equality. I understand why the born this way narrative is important in that debate.

            But. If tomorrow someone came up to you and said, hey! Here’s a Heterosexuality Pill! Refusing to take it (if you did) would be choosing your sexuality. And even if you did that, *marriage equality would still be important*, and *decriminalising homosexuality in Tonga would still be important*. Doesn’t it piss you off when people go through anti-gay camps and come out the other end “straight”? And then that’s used as an argument against who you are and it comes down to a big argument of he said, she said? It pisses me right the hell off, because at the end of the day *I don’t care what he said or she said* or whether it’s a choice for some people. Because that’s not the point and it shouldn’t be the argument.

          • Maybe it shouldn’t be, but it’s what’s worked. If arguing that for some people it is not a choice results in greater freedom for people for whom it is a choice, I don’t see what the problem is. I’m not making a principled argument. This isn’t an ideal world. If it were we wouldn’t have to argue for equality in the first place.

            What pisses me off is people going through the anti-gay camps coming out the other end fucked up. One successfully ex-gay person doesn’t justify the many who are harmed by reparative therapy.

            What pisses me off is the use of eugenics to try and eradicate homosexuality from society. What pisses me off is that the initial public response to the AIDS crisis was “If you don’t want to get AIDS, don’t have gay sex.”

            The existence of people for whom it isn’t a choice is enough that no one should be forced to choose between heterosexuality and torture/prison/death. I don’t believe the existence of people for whom it is a choice undermines this argument.

    • It’s not that we want to be accepted because we were “born this way,” it’s that some people are convinced choose to be gay, and resent us for it. For instance, these little shits on Facebook http://imgur.com/hdbn8

      Or John Cummins, the leader of British Columbia’s Conservative Party, who told a radio interviewer that gay people shouldn’t be covered by the BC Human Rights Act because being gay is “a conscious choice.”

      It’s not that being born gay somehow “justifies” our gayness, it’s that the myth that we *aren’t* born gay is willfully spread to justify hatred and violence.

      • Well, fuck the haters. Why can’t we disprove their claim that just because some people choose queerness, it’s not legitimate?

  10. “If I were terrified of the stigma associated with homosexuality, it would have been easy enough to date men exclusively and stay in the closet my whole life.”

    Check. Your. Privilege.

    The stigma isn’t as bad as it used to be because of those who had no choice. And there are still many who are terrified of the stigma.

    • You’re absolutely right about people being terrified of the stigma. A friend of mine came out of the closet, told her parents she was dating a girl, and then 2 months later told them she broke up with her because of all the crap she was getting. They’ve been together for over a year and my friend’s mom still calls her once a week asking if she’s found a boyfriend yet. She’s still ashamed to go out with a girl in public, because she doesn’t want to appear gay.

      My main problem with her article is that it’s not like she asked anyone else if they felt like they were born gay. Maybe she’s lucky enough to have a choice. I’m not.

  11. “It’s, again, wonderful for Miller that being gay hasn’t actually been holding her back. But for many people, the reality is bad enough that there isn’t really an option to de-emphasize this side of the story. If you’ve ever been made homeless and disowned by your parents, lost a job that you needed to survive, been threatened with or lived through violence and danger, survived suicide attempts or have friends who didn’t, or have almost killed yourself trying to change a part of you that you believe your faith requires you to but ultimately failing — well, if you’ve lived through any of those things, then “If I could choose, would I choose this?” becomes a pretty central question.”

    Thank you so much, Rachel, for cutting through the privileged bullshit so succinctly. I can’t begin to describe why articles like this woman’s stress me out so much–I feel like I’m being tacitly judged having gone through a period in my life when I very much wanted to be anything-but-gay thanks to my conservative Christian childhood. Having gone through that trial by fire, I don’t for a minute regret being able to say confidently that I am this way and I can’t change it. I deserve equal rights regardless, but this is something I know about myself that I learned through years of blood and tears–it hurts to see someone dismiss it so blithely.

  12. I really don’t think she’s trying to devalue anyone else’s experience. I think what she’s trying to do is reopen the general discourse surrounding “The American Gay Experience” which so often becomes just one story.

    I really, really agreed with this article, because so often the mainstream media and the general public get the message that all gay people feel the same way about their gayness – ie that they:
    1. were born gay from day one
    2. want to get married and have kids and a dog and a white picket fence
    3. want to join the army
    4. are just like straight people except for one tiny difference

    These are the politically correct things to believe about gay people. But while many people do identify with some or all of these things, many people do not, and I think those people get lost in the discourse. We’ve sacrificed a lot of the queer edgy diversity of the earlier movements in order to make ourselves more palatable to middle America. This may earn us the right to marry and join the military, but it also isolates and alienates whole swaths of the population – those people who would rather break down the institutions of marriage and the military, those people who would rather form new kinds of families, and those people who believe that actually we’re NOT just the same as straight people – we’re different in a lot of awesome, beautiful ways.

    This resonated with me on so many levels. I encourage people to read the whole article before forming opinions.

    • I agree with this–I feel like the whole “born this way” discourse just perpetuates the gay/straight, male/female binaries, and the whole point of the queer movement not so long ago was to break down these binaries and let everybody just love who they love and not make such a big effing deal about it.

      when i say that i don’t think anyone is 100% gay or straight, and that sexuality is not fixed but fluid, and can change over your lifetime, i’m not trying to invalidate all of the struggles that my fellow queers have gone through because of who they think is hot. i’m just talking about my beliefs on the nature of sexuality. and since, as we’ve all been saying, no one has “proved” anything about the nature of sexuality, then all of you telling lindsay that she probably was born that way are doing the exact same thing as the homophobes who are telling us that we can be cured. who cares WHY we like who we like. let’s just agree that we will all fight for the right to do so without being beaten up, fired from our jobs, etc.

    • YES. I agree with both of you. Gay people being “born this way” often ignores our social environment, and reinforces certain structures (reminds me of the discourse about multiculturalism). I think this is what bothers me the most about it. All it does is concede that homosexuality is a real thing, but doesn’t really question how our political, national and social upbringings are a part of it. I hate to see it usually only amount to homonormative ideas too. Until people can accept sexuality as a deeply complex and often fluid thing, until they don’t want to peg people as biologically hetero or homo, I don’t think we’ll ever find full acceptance and openness to different sexualities/lifetstyles.

      We’ve got a long ways to go…

  13. I like Miller’s overall point- we have nothing to apologize for and nothing to blame for who we love, cuz our love is fucken rad. It is true, also, that some folks in the Queer community have experienced a sense of choice, and ultimately made what what they felt were educated decisions. I read a study on lesbian Femmes several years ago that describes my own coming out experience, as well as several of my friends. I was so excited to find that I wasn’t alone in my feelings and history!

    I don’t think this is meant to discount those who have always known. Instead, I think these points are being put forth as a way to illustrate the different paths that lead us to identify ourselves and live as we do, which are ALL valid.

    Lots of fascinating pieces have been written on the larger conflicts between biological existentialists and cultural constructionists, including the implications these perspectives have for how we all view sexuality, sex n gender, race, etc. I found one such article from Off Our Backs- “Biology, My Ass”. I recommend it, with the caution that it may piss some readers off. Also, I’ve lost the link to that study on Femme lesbians since I quit the college education stuff, but if anyone would like it perhaps I can dredge it back up!

  14. On my best day I can nail my identity down to pansexual, but even that causes me a headache so I tend to just go with queer. To that end, the whole “I was born this way”/biological basis for sexuality camp has always made me a bit uncomfortable, as to me it doesn’t seem inclusive to my more fluid sexuality. Somehow “I was born this way” and “Well lately I’ve been feeling like a 4.5 on the Kinsey scale, but I range from 2 to 5” have never really meshed for me, which makes a lot of political arguments uncomfortable :/

  15. I know that bisexuals like to claim that we’re all part of this “big happy family” where even bi’s can be gay. But it’s times like this where we’re reminded that bisexuality and homosexuality are not the same fucking thing.

    And it really pisses me off when bisexuals pretend that it IS the same fucking thing and they throw words around like “choice” and “wasn’t born this way” and pretend that it’s just FINE to apply this to the “American Gay Experience.”

    No, sorry. Maybe to you that’s the American Bisexual Experience. I’m not saying it is. But I am saying that it’s most definitely NOT the American Gay Experience. That much I know.

    Thanks.

    • Though there are bisexual people that identify with the “born this way” thing, as evidenced by dappled’s earlier comment. And perhaps there are gay people that do not identify with “born this way.”

      I think it is a bit of a bisexual, gay difference.
      Considering bisexual people could very well choose to exclusively date people of the opposite sex (and still be dating people they find attractive).

      Even more so, I could see “born this way” not working for anyone that has experienced their sexuality as fluid as opposed to fixed.

      • “Considering bisexual people could very well choose to exclusively date people of the opposite sex (and still be dating people they find attractive).”

        Everyone keeps saying this, and every time I kind of think, “What the heck?”

        Being bi doesn’t mean you’re not going to fall in love with a girl and want to be with her, just because you have the option of falling in love with a guy. Are we saying that bisexuals also have complete control over who they have chemistry with/feelings for?

        I dunno, I just feel like this argument reduces romantic relationships to grocery shopping. Like, “Well, I like Kraft AND Velveeta, but the Velveeta is on sale today, so I’ll buy that one.”

        • I dunno, I have known some bisexuals who prefer one gender for romance and the other just for sex (and wouldn’t even consider them for a relationship). I’d definitely say that’s a conscious choice.

        • No, I am not saying you can control who you have feelings for. But you do choose who you date.

          I don’t know, personally, it is something I think I could do, it is just something I wouldn’t want to do.

          The point I was getting at was more along the lines of what Tui said, “if what determines that women having sex with women is OK is the fact that some people are only attracted to women, doesn’t that kind of imply that bisexual people are obligated to practise heterosexuality since, you know, we *can*?”

    • You know, excluding someone from the gay community hurts just as much for bi people as it does to be excluded from the straight community. I don’t see how excluding people and dividing the community helps anyone, and it especially sucks to see it on here :/

    • I kind of want to turn this around on you. Maybe this is my bisexual privilege speaking, but if what determines that women having sex with women is OK is the fact that some people are only attracted to women, doesn’t that kind of imply that bisexual people are obligated to practise heterosexuality since, you know, we *can*? And that if I want to marry a woman it’s not as important that I have the right to do so because I wasn’t born wanting to marry her, I can just go and marry a man.

      I don’t agree with her implying, as if it were universal, that sexuality is a choice. But I don’t think that what makes women having sex with, being in love with, dating, living with, having children with, marrying, or breaking up with other women OK, good, right or natural, is the fact that lesbians exist.

      • This is loaded with so much privilege it makes me sick, jk jk I love you like a homogay loves unicorns!
        aka..
        I agree.

          • No problem, I had an intimate connection to your comment so I just felt I had to say something to let you know. I enjoyed it, I hope it was good for you as it was for me, it was consensual and do it again.

    • This. Agreed, Orko. I can’t believe the word bisexual isn’t even used once. This Lindsay Miller person needs to get a little more self aware, or maybe just get out more and learn what bisexuality is.

      • At first, that was my reaction, but then I thought, who am I to decide what this other human being NEEDS to do/think?

        Maybe this person chooses to go label-free?

  16. Another argument for the “born this way”/innate stream of thinking is that in the US, for sexual orientation to have a chance of being included as a suspect (protected) class under the equal protection clause, the trait has to be immutable.

    • Which is interesting, considering one of the protections we hold most dear is freedom from religious persecution.

      • I really just think “freedom to have sexy times with whoever you want as long as it’s legal, sane, safe, and consensual” should just be written into the Constitution. With glitter pen, if possible.

  17. I would just like to point out that although many of her comments may seem to indicate bi/pan sexuality (including: “If I were terrified of the stigma associated with homosexuality, it would have been easy enough to date men exclusively and stay in the closet my whole life.”), many bi / pan / queer girls (myself among them) would not find this statement to be true in their own lives at all, especially those who do feel like regardless of whether they were BORN this way, there’s not much they can to do change it, even if they wanted to.

    Personally, I found the closet to be very emotionally, mentally, and psychologically restricting and damaging, and can’t dream of going back in, regardless of how much I like girls or boys or otherwise-identified sexy people, respectively.

    Gagh, tired commenter is tired; apologies for any incoherency.

  18. ..it’s that no one starts off equal at all. Sometimes we feel like we don’t even have our footing. We have that in common, gay and straight. But we work hard, and we come together anyways, from very different places, because that’s what love is, regardless of the genders of the people involved. And isn’t that actually why we choose the people and the lives that we do?”

    This is what I feel 100%, oh yes.

  19. Since my “Born This Way” blog is linked right at the top, I kinda feel the need to chime in here.

    IMHO, declaring we are born gay is in no way an apology about it. Or means we want pity, or we want to change our sexuality. Nope, it is simply factual information about us. And it’s actually a factual statement on HUMAN sexuality.

    HOWEVER, there’s still plenty of people who think/believe that we had some kind of “choice” in our sexuality. So the more we can disprove this, simply by STATING that fact, the better off we will be.

    And, when the day finally comes when human rights are NOT based on who we sleep with, then maybe we won’t need to keep saying it. So…..

    Congratulations, Lindsay – you’re a bisexual!

    And guess what: You were probably born that way – unless you somehow chose to try something different at some point?

    • Telling people how they should identify is quite condescending. There are plenty of people, as you say, that identify as lesbian, bi, gay, queer that DO feel they have had a certain amount of choice- maybe better called agency- in how they identify. There’s a difference between sexual orientation and sexual preference.

  20. “It’s true that if they’re in a same-sex relationship they can share clothes and tampons and are less likely to earn 25% more at a similar job but not acknowledge the wage gap.”

    Just because it’s going around tumblr and I’m therefore hyperaware of it: The wage gap (in the US, I think) between white women and black men is bigger than the wage gap between men in general and women in general. So like. yeah.

  21. Meh. I’ve never been a fan of the “born this way” discourse that tries so hard to prove some sort of biological cause to one’s sexuality. It simply dismisses a lot of people’s experiences. I, for one, don’t think it applies much to how I came to understand my sexuality. At all. Feels too much like trying to reduce an insanely complex issue to one simplified principle.

    Personally, I have a much more complicated relationship with sexuality. I think everyone has the biological capacity to be attracted to anyone. However, I think our experiences, from the moment we’re born, have the powerful ability to shape who we are, who we like and what we want in life, some of these manifesting themselves in the early years of our lives. In this way, I don’t think sexuality is a choice that we have control over (although for some people it really is). But I also don’t think it’s something that wasn’t molded just like nearly every other aspect of us. Unfortunately, so many possibilities and our relationships with other people are stunted by a social system that controls how things are presented to us, and tries to tell us exactly how we should live. I really think if this weren’t the case, sexuality wouldn’t even be a thing and we could just love/bone whoever we wanted with no worries of sex or gender.

    But, as it is, “men” and “women” (as people have loved to frame it) are very different in the world we live in right now. I don’t believe there exists any body that isn’t marked or without cultural signs, no matter how you identify, which seems to influence our sexualities and relationships to gender/sex. The way we understand the genders is so divided that even the very basic pieces of our relationships with others are forever altered. So I can understand what she means when she says that two women start off at an equal footing because, in some ways, this is true (although, as it’s been said, we never truly start off at an equal footing in the most purest sense). This is actually one of the things that draws me in towards other women. For me, I know it’s very much a product of my social environment. I go in expecting less of that strange, gendered power dynamic and male privilege. I find it’s easier; it feels more “natural.” It’s exactly what keeps me from finding men sexually attractive and desirable. Also, I hate men. So. (Kidding! Mostly).

    Regardless of how many people identify as homosexual/bisexual/pansexual/etc. or how they came to this understanding, I wish there wasn’t such a pull to find a source. I’d rather like to accept it as another part of life. Let people love and be physical with who they want, and give up the forced classifications.

  22. I think what she means by “equal footing” in same-sex relationships is that you can wear and apron and cook a steak for your partner and not feel like June Clever. You can just do nice shit for your partner and not think about patriarchy when you do it. At least that’s what I like about being with girls (among other things, including the girl parts).

    Her whole point is that hopefully the way we think about queer is evolving from the excuse of “we can’t help it” to “If I could help it, I WOULDN’T” to not being a thing that needs explaining at all.

  23. The problem really is that you can say anything, but you probably were “born this way”. You don’t see straight people claiming they weren’t born straight do you? Yes, there’s probably other factors. For example a bisexual female (cis or trans*) might be more attracted to women overall because of a bad experience with a male. That could perhaps be defined as choice, but it seems odd to me that anyone would sit up one day and just decide on something that innate.

    Yes you can decide on a label, (I tend to go for queer myself, for reasons too long to go into here) but you don’t really decide your sexual preferences, that just sort of happens. At least in my opinion.

    • >>but it seems odd to me that anyone would sit up one day and just decide on something that innate.>>

      But that’s the thing – perhaps that isn’t how other people experience it.

  24. I remember citing all those researches done on how homosexuality is related to gene and all, after which my homophobic(I don’t ever speak to her about gay things, she knows that I’m gay, but it’s sort of brushed under the gigantic rainbow rug, she thinks it’s an illness of sorts) mother chastised how my married closeted gay uncle was caught cheating with numerous men, and had sexually harassed a man.

    Which is ironic now that I think about it, seeing how I, his related niece, have had the occasion during which it was necessary to lie back and think about Megan Fox. But yeah, I do need all those ‘born this gay’ ammo. I do realize that it could be a double edged sword but it’s definitely doing more good than harm. I was born this way means that this is who I am. It isn’t a reason, nor should it be apologetic, it’s a simple statement. I am born straight. I am born queer. I am born with a weird eye. I am born ‘me’.

  25. Clearly there are a lot of feelings about this. Me? I believe that I am the sum of my physiology and my experiences. I won’t apologise for that.

    I love who I love, I have sex with whoever the fuck I want. It’s got nothing to do with my friends, my parents, my coworkers or anyone else. I choose to be open with my life because I want to share it with them. It doesn’t mean that it’s any of their damn business (or society as a whole), and I definitely don’t deserve any fewer rights because of who I choose to kiss goodnight.

  26. As I have said before, people are far more willing to accept someone who are helpless in a situation than someone who chooses it. That is a simple fact. Maybe you think gay people should be accepted whether they choose it or not — that’s fine, but it’s not reality. If someone is born with a problem that makes them unable to walk fast, you’ll be a lot more OK with waiting for them than if they just walk super slow for the hell of it. It’s such a simple thing to understand that it blows my mind some people don’t get it. If the goal is acceptance, the “born this way” mantra is a very powerful tool. (And furthermore, I was born this way. Every gay person I know was born this way. And I have a problem with people who are in all likelihood bisexual saying they chose to be gay, knowing how confusing and harmful it is to the gay rights movement.)

    • I think we should aim for more than just acceptance. I really believe we have something to offer, something to bring to the table – that we are adding something to society rather than just assimilating into it. Our queerness gives us a new, valuable perspective, and I’m interested in dismantling the traditional perspectives surrounding sex, gender, and sexual orientation.

      I don’t believe I was born gay, simply because as an baby I was primarily attracted to cookies and stuffed animals. All the many things I would go on to do and be were possibilities, but not necessarily fixed. For the record, I don’t believe infants are really born heterosexual, either. This is not the same as saying I chose to be gay – just that it’s a complicated and mysterious thing. (However, please know that I’m not trying to devalue or undermine anyone else’s perspective, and that I whole-heartedly support everyone’s right to identify however they wish).

      People are complicated, and they’ve been embracing/outlawing/tolerating homosexuality for a really long time, with wide-ranging results. It’s only very recently that we see “gay” as an identity rather than a behavior. Furthermore, the existence of genderqueer people really throws a wrench into the gay/straight binary. I identify pretty strongly as a lesbian, but I think androgynous genderqueer people are SO FINE. and i don’t need to call them ladies in order to find them hot. And I don’t think I was born with a genetic attraction to people with alternative haircuts, converse shoes, and carhaarts. Although, honestly, those would be some pretty awesome genes.

      • I disagree. What more should we want than acceptance? To be celebrated and praised? For what, being gay? Acceptance is something that occurs when you take someone for who he or she is. Acceptance is simple respect as a human being. Any celebration is earned individually, in my opinion. If gay people are going to be revered as some huge benefit to society, that is something gay people will need to earn one by one. We aren’t even accepted yet. You can’t run before you walk. I see acceptance as a perfectly valid, worthy and especially achievable goal. I think you missed my point entirely.

  27. As for a gay gene, I’ve read some really interesting stuff. They haven’t located the so-called gay gene yet. But the basic question emerges: Why would there be a gay gene at all? Wouldn’t evolution get rid of it? Especially since gay people have far fewer kids and definitely not as couples? Well, some scientists speculate the genes responsible for sexual orientation are similar to the genes for sickle-cell anemia: If you have a sickle-cell gene from mom and a sickle-cell gene from dad, then you will get sickle-cell anemia, a deadly disease. But the sickle-cell gene remains a part of the population because, if you only have one of them you will be resistant to malaria, a benefit. The thing is, people’s sexuality can be affected after they are born. People who experience sexual abuse, for example, can struggle for years with their sexuality, and in more ways than just orientation. There is a psychological component to sexual behavior. Separating that from the biological orientation is very complicated. I’m just hoping they find that gay gene some day (soon). Then we could test Marcus Bachmann!

    • 1) It probably isn’t linked to one single gene because those traits are incredibly rare. Plus, it would make more sense in the degrees of sexuality existing in the world.

      2) I actually remember reading awhile ago that bisexuality (yes, I know, cringe at the word!) could have been advantageous for females prehistorically. Apparently, the ability to pair-bond with another female was advantageous when the males would die sooner. So, two mommies raising kids is better than a single mom. I don’t think this really makes that much sense if you look at, oh, you know, everyone else on the queer spectrum, but it was a neat theory in that it was looking for a positive spin.

  28. I don’t really like to say “i was just born this way” either, it smacks of the apologetic or even an excuse. I think we should stop saying it because quite frankly we shouldn’t have to. its irrelevant why we are gay, lesbian, queer, bi. the fact is that we are and you know what? it ain’t changing no matter what they think or say.

  29. Oh boy, you guys. I am feeling A LOT of feelings for a bright autumn Friday a.m. after reading this piece and all the comments.

    Chief among those feelings: perplexity. For one, perplexed because there is no link to the original piece in all this article? Really? Not even a mention of the publication that ran the original piece? Hey, @internrachel (did I do that right…) can this be edited to include that information? I did finally find the original piece, thanks to the commenter who mentioned the title. Googling “Lindsay Miller” didn’t get me anywhere.

    I’m also perplexed that according to many a commenter here, Ms. Miller and those with similar experiences (hi! Like me! Right here!) are “hurting the movement” and being dishonest and participating in some kind of auto-bi-erasure and hijacking the REALGAY community and I dunno what-all else because of how we choose to identify. It feels super shitty! I dunno, thought you all might like to know how it feels. Just a heads up.

    For almost a year now I’ve been wanting to write some epically epic essay about my sexuality and my identification and every everything ever, and I haven’t yet and I don’t think I’m gonna accomplish it in this here comment box, but I guess the short version is, don’t you dare tell me what word I am allowed to use to describe my experience and I will extend the same courtesy to you.

    If I call myself gay it’s because that’s the word that fits best. Period. You’re just gonna have to trust me on this one. And trust me that I will fight to the death for the rights of my born-this-gay peers, but humbly request a seat at the table when the day of fighting is done, along with a respectful acknowledgment that we have traveled different paths to our shared table and that this fact is a-o-fucking-kay.

    That’s all.

    • Is it okay if *I* call you bisexual and not gay?

      There doesn’t seem to be one accepted definition of this word and I’ve found it problematic. Like it’s use, or lack of, makes people feel shitty.
      In my vocabulary, gay=homosexual. I realize it’s different for you, and others.

      I want you sitting at the table when the day of fighting is done. We can have a slice of pie and talk about our different paths and what makes us happy.

      • [Heyyyyyyy @newtexan ! Just prefacing this with an @-mention here in the hopes that it means you’ll be notified of this comment. AUTOSTRADDLE WHY IS THERE STILL NO COMMENT REPLY NOTIFICATION JUST WONDERING]

        No, actually, it’s not okay for you to call me by a name I no longer identify with.

        I understand your frustration about the many interpretations of words like bisexual and gay and homosexual and on and on. I would suggest that language on the whole is a fragile and unstable system. For the most part, language can only gesture at meaning. It doesn’t possess meaning in any stable way.

        However, I would also suggest that the times when the usage of such words results in shitty feelings are really only when someone feels their own identity/identification is being disputed by the way someone else is using those words. You know? It’s just not gonna end well, feelings-wise, for someone to disregard another person’s sovereign choice in self-identification and say “Well, you can call yourself X, but *I* think by X you mean Y and that’s what I’m calling you.”

        That said, I’ve got no problem (and no business protesting) if someone calls me “gay” and mentally adds “…but in a way that feels more like bisexual, by my own understanding of those words,” or perhaps “but in a way that is very different from the kind of ‘gay’ I am,” if it makes them feel better about having to apply “gay” to someone with a not-so-static personal romantic-sexual history.

        But in conclusion: bisexual does not describe my present reality any more than 4’5″ describes my present height. Those both describe a very real reality, but from the past. And while gay and 5’7″ may still only be approximations, they’re closer than anything else these days.

        THE END. NOW FOR PIE. (Man I really wish I actually had pie right now.)

  30. All the emerging biphobia on this thread is making me sad :( So some points:
    1) A bisexual person saying something that you find dickish isn’t an invitation to bitch about all bi people. Just like every time a lesbian does something bad we don’t talk about its a larger indication of how shitty all lesbians are. I’m really sad to be seeing a lot of this here. Considering the wide amount of variation within any label (lesbian, bi, queer, etc etc) making sweeping judgments about the people of any label seems silly.
    2) While she has dated men and women or used to date men or once fell in love with Johnny Depp’s smile or whatever, we don’t get to label her. While a bisexual label may seem appropriate for her or lesbian may seem legit since she’s no longer dating boys or blah blah blah we don’t get to assign labels for other people. We should also not try to police those labels.
    3) Not all gay people feel they were born this way, not all bi/pan/queer people feel they chose it, and that’s all fine. Deviating from the standard born this way argument isn’t “harmful… to the gay rights movement” as I worryingly saw up there. We are people first, not parts of a political movement. None of us are responsible for upholding “the cause” 24/7
    4) Think before you speak (write, whatevs). That goes for everyone. The LBGTQWTFBBQ community includes a lot of people with a lot of feelings, and rather than working to invalidate some peoples experiences we should work to have a better understanding of them.
    5) Let’s all be friends! Please? I have ice cream

    • I WILL BE YOUR FRIEND and bring pie to share with your ice cream. Thanks for this comment. I feel a lot better after reading it. FEELINGS.

    • re #2: I think people’s problem is with how she’s using her own experiences (that read as bi to others) to argue that being gay is a choice for all gaymos. If she’d chosen to label herself as bisexual, or at least “formerly straight all out lesbian” or something, it wouldn’t come across as awful and insulting as it has. Her stupid generalizations would still be stupid, but then she wouldn’t be smacking obviously queer people who can’t be any other way with “being gay’s awesome, I could’ve been straight but chose differently”. It’s hurtful to bisexuals too. Being attracted to men and women doesn’t mean liking them equally or wanting to have relationships and/or sex with both the same way.

      • “Being attracted to men and women doesn’t mean liking them equally or wanting to have relationships and/or sex with both the same way.”

        I’m kind of confused about this, because that is exactly my experience. When I am attracted to a woman it does not feel different than how I feel attracted to a man. So please don’t assume that your experience is a substitute for everyone else’s. I also don’t see how this has to do with the problem at hand?

        • My experience too.
          Which people have all kinds of problems with! They just don’t understand that I can feel the same about men as I do about women, tough to explain to them other than saying I just do!

  31. “Neither of us was raised to believe, on some subconscious level, that the way we perceive the world is the default setting, and everyone else is deviant. ”

    Perhaps not in the mind of male privelege, ok. But if she is white, middle-class, college educated, able-bodied, thin, has English as her first language in the US, the list goes on, then she does just that, all the time. That’s a pretty bold statement to make.

  32. Also, w/r/t to the many partially or entirely biphobic comments above (see Ash above for some more points):

    Implying that for ALL people who are bi / pan / queer-in-a-non-monosexual-fashion, choosing/being forced to choose to express attraction/desire/feelings about only one gender (out of so many incredible options!) would be no big deal is INCORRECT.

    For MANY of us (who knows if it’s most or not, but that part isn’t actually important, duh), that would be a big fucking deal. I like girls and I like boys and I like genderqueer folks, etc. and I am ONE HUNDRED PERCENT (100%) QUEER, and no one gets to take that away from me. And it is NOT OK to tell me I’m not, or that you know more than I do just how queer I am.

    Likewise, even though I (a girl) would theoretically be able to only ever date boys, if this happened via a conscious pressured choice to fit some mould rather than coincidence or some-non-coercive-choice-situation, although the sex, etc., might be more fun than for someone who ID’s as a lesbian, the pain of not being to express who I am, of having to hide such a huge part of myself (not just ‘liking girls’, but my whole darn sexuality) would be, for me, UNBEARABLE.

    Furthermore: WTF is with all this ‘bisexual privilege’ nonsense! It’s not a frackin’ privilege to have all sorts (read: staight, and not straight) of people to assume you’re only attracted to people of the gender you happen to be in a relationship with at the time. It’s not a privilege to be told outright and otherwise (see many times in this comment thread for instance) that you just aren’t queer enough, or aren’t as queer as some other people who choose/were born with/have the non-neo-natal yet relatively immutable attribute of exclusively liking folks of the same gender as themselves. It’s not a privilege to find yourself erased in media, or to hear derogatory messages about your identity from places that are supposed to be good at representing the ‘being gay is ok/awesome’ POV (read: that episode of Glee where everyone was a biphobic asshole). It’s not a privilege to be told by so many people (hello Dan Savage!) that it’s ‘just a phase’, or that if your sexuality happens to be fluid and it really was a phase, or series of them, it’s somehow less/not valid (see: http://pervocracy.blogspot.com/2011/08/praises-of-phases.html)

    Moreover: to suggest that every bi person would really prefer to be in an other-gender relationship (esp. one that the heterosexist society at large would consider to be such) because of the accompanying perceived-to-be-heterosexual relationship privilege, AFTER talking about all the awesome qualities of the queer community, is really silly AND hurtful. Some bi people choose to only have same-gender relationships, because they really like not having the gender-related-privilege-imbalance, or because they really like being a member of the queer community (and they feel/know that they might be somewhat/totally excluded from their local community if they were to be in an other-gender relationship), or many other reasons which are probably not your business.

    So yeah: as a straight person in an read-as-het relationship, there is a certain (and frequently large) degree of privilege. But queer people in read-as-het relationships are still queer, and any privilege they might have comes at the cost of pretending to be someone they are not (ie, a straight person). Which, as anyone who has been in some sort of closet or other knows, is a pretty high cost. Not to suggest that being in a read-as-het relationship is necessarily AT ALL totally less fun/fulfilling/etc as being in a read-as-queer relationship, or that being in a read-as-het relationship necessitates denying one’s queerness (obviously!!!). Just that if you have to pretend you are straight in the contexts of your relationship, how others perceive you because of your relationship, or at work, at church, at home or whatever, it FUCKING SUCKS. And I would say that this suckiness is about as near as it gets to a universal queer experience, regardless of what particular way you identify as not straight.

    Love,
    April Q.

    • I LOVE YOU AND THIS. Seriously, those were all of the feelings I had that I didn’t include in my aforementioned rant >.<

      As to the "Being queer in a het relationship" thing, IT SUCKS. I dated a guy for two years and people constantly assumed I was straight. It made me upset, because I was constantly dealing with this internal struggle of "Do I correct them? Does it matter? I don't want to fuck them and I am content in my current relationship but this doesn't feel right." It was like they were putting me back in the closet. I also hated the assumption that I wasn't part of the LGBTQ community, it made me feel really isolated since I don't feel comfortable in the straight community.

      And being forced to only date one gender would be a big fucking deal!!! I am attracted to people and not their gender, so this idea of excluding everyone but men from my dating pool just doesn't make sense to me. Finding someone attractive is not something I can just turn off, and the possibility of falling for a girl and then not dating her so I can keep straight privilege or whatever just makes my heart hurt to think about. Like there is really no way I can express how much that doesn't actually work, and this idea that it does seems to come from outside the bi community.

      There seems to be this perception that bi people are part of the straight and gay communities, but in reality it is more and more feeling like we are welcome in neither.

      • Aw, thanks for the love!!!

        I think the thing that many people don’t understand (or guess, in some cases, agree with), is that what makes me queer is that I am a girl who likes people who are not boys (ie, girls, as well as GQ, etc. people). Whether I also like boys is beside the point. For real.

        Also, in addition to your EXCELLENT points about how difficult it can be to be queer in a read-as-het relationship, I just wanted to mention that it can also be very difficult/confusing/etc. to be a queer-girl-who-happens-to-also-like-boys who is in a read-as-queer relationship, for both similar and different reasons (usually the whole ‘I am not straight’ aspect of your identity would presumably be assumed/respected, but the assumption that because you like girls, you don’t like boys and/or if you like girls, you are less queer might be all over the place; or not, there are also lots of non-biphobic people, thank goodness :P ). Not to mention that apparently some exclusively-lady-loving ladies have arbitrarily decided to choose not to date girls who also like boys. WTF.

        In bi / pan / queer solidarity,
        <3 April

    • Hi! Thank you! <3 It's nice to see other eloquent people fighting against the constant tides of biphobia here.

    • Thank you for saying all this.

      Personally, I’m in a gay reading relationship but I identify as bi/queer.
      My girlfriend identifies as lesbian through and through and has in the past had little issue with my bisexuality. She still jokes around sometimes that I’m a big lesbian, and I do correct her.
      I feel when i’m out on the gay scene, when I was single, I still got judged for being bi, and sometimes felt that it was viewed as wrong to talk about it. I never hid it though and would always be upfront about it.
      When I’ve dated men in the past I do feel like I’m dismissed a bit by the gay community, like have to say ‘heeey, I’m queer too even though I don’t look it at first glance cause i’m with a dude’, but same in straight environments, I read as ‘lesbian’ looking and when single find it harder to pick up guys as they assume I’m gay.

      Anyhow I don’t know what I’m going on about here..
      Yay BISEXUAL CLUB :)

    • Just a question… are you familiar with the invisible napsack?

      Being read as queer doesn’t come with privileges. Being part of a marginalized community doesn’t come with privileges.

      Privileges are identifiable advantages. A queer person having privileges doesn’t make them less queer, nor does it mean they aren’t at all oppressed in some way.

      You don’t have to be “this” oppressed to be queer. Whatever “this” is.

      Take Ken Mehlman. He’s gay, gay, gay. But during his time in the closet he was just another privileged white dude. His success was built in the closet. He chose it. That he wasn’t being true to himself doesn’t actually cancel out the privilege nor take away from his past success. He wasn’t less gay during that time either.

      • While reading as queer does make you part of a marginalized community, it makes you part of a COMMUNITY. When bi/pan/queer people are in read as het relationships, they are both isolated from the straight community, whether people recognize that or not, and from the queer community. So while they may technically be getting straight privilege it is not without a price, a price that many of us do not want to pay.

        I think that you are arguing that this straight privilege is more valuable than inclusion within the queer community, and as a person who has been through this situation I would have to disagree. I’ve experienced the marginalization that occurs in read as queer relationships, and I would honestly take it any day over the isolation I feel from the community in read as het relationships. To others the queer community may not seem so valuable, but that is how I and many other bisexuals/pansexuals/queers feel.

        Of course, I feel this whole notion of a queer person having a choice in whether they want privelege or a community as absurd, as I do not feel that I can consciously just choose one gender to like. Because of this I have to navigate losing privilege or losing a community on a somewhat regular basis, and that causes me a lot of distress that is somewhat unique to the bi lifestyle. I’m not mentioning this to get in some sort of oppression olympics, just to point out that there are many issues unique to bisexuals that go unnoticed by the larger gay community. It is very frustrating to me as I know that it doesn’t have to be this way, that in theory I should be able to have a stable place within the community, but in reality I don’t. Of course, the only way this will change is if people within the LGBTQ community actually work to make it a more inclusive place for bisexuals, pansexuals, and the like.

        • Maybe it’s that people are assuming all or most queer people live in San Francisco or New York City or some other fabulous place with a large queer community.

          When I say “community” I’m really referring to more of an idea than a physical place or actual group of queer people in close proximity to me. I live in a rural county. So I don’t actually know what you mean by having a stable place in the community.

          For me the community is mostly a virtual place online I go to. I mean, this is it. Web sites like this. In which I sometimes feel like a proverbial punching bag for everything wrong in “The Community.”

          Every single person that has posted in this thread IS my community. You are my community, and I don’t even really know you. You want me to be more inclusive, and honestly I don’t know what I can do. If you wanted, you could all move here and we can start a PFLAG together.

          And now I’m going to get off the computer. And it’ll just be me and my partner at home, surrounded by straight neighbors. Then I’ll get up and go to work with all my straight co-workers and straight customers. And maybe I will see one other queer person who isn’t my partner.

          • I don’t live in a place with a large queer community. For me, when I talk about community, I am referring to the internet just as much as real life. Sadly the internet community is fairly reflective of real life, and the biphobia I notice in our internet communities is very much mirrored within the real life ones. For me there isn’t much of a line between the two.

            As for being more inclusive, it is as simple as not making exclusionary comments or attempting to draw lines between people, which is what biphobia is all about. When we say that people are making biphobic comments, we mean that people are saying “You’re not really part of this community- you have straight privilege, you can just chose, you’re going through a phase, you don’t actually know or have the problems that have brought us together.” And while you may not feel the community is super strong or a true presence in your life, it is very important to other people, especially if an online community is all they can get.

            Being more inclusive is as simple as not saying such divisive, unfair bullshit, as listening when people say they feel like they’re being picked on, as calling people out when you see this sort of rhetoric popping up in comments. So no, we don’t have to build a PFLAG as you sarcastically recommended, we just have to stop being assholes to each other.

          • I was not being sarcastic about starting a PFLAG. I’m trying to start one in my county. Because for me, where I am, the problem is not LGBT people being assholes to each other, it’s straight anti-gay people.

            If I am the problem here, I’ll just go. The Community? You can have it. I’m not finding it to be all that supportive.

            As for my local area, I’ll go it alone. Today my local paper published yet another homophobic “Sodom and Gomorrah” letter to the editor about needing to protect the innocent children from the big bad gay. My main concern is for the kid reading that who has homosexual attractions, doesn’t know why, and is being told God is going to kill them for it. Or the parent who of that kid who believes they can, and should, try and pray the gay out of their kid.

            You know why all this is happening? The LGBT Advocacy groups down in San Francisco and Sacramento decided we need to put LGBT people in school history books so as teach kids to be more tolerant. Which is all well in good, but they have no intention of devoting any resources to educate the ADULTS in rural communities who are flipping out. Why? Oh hum, it would not be strategically advantageous to devote resources to low population density areas as their strategy is to reach the maximum number of voters.

            But I’m a lesbian! My cup runneth over with support from “The Community” both offline, online and everywhere! Yeah…not so much. Being a fixture in a marginalized community doesn’t amount to having some endless supply of support.

            I’m just a person with a finite amount of resources and energy. And what you’re asking is for me to devote that to battling the queer community within. And you’re assuming that because I’m a lesbian I’m the recipient of copious amounts of support.

            You know what I feel right now? A little depressed, isolated, alone, drained and afraid I don’t have enough energy or resources to do a thing I think really needs to be done. I feel like I have a responsibility to do it because I’m one of the few gay people in my county who is willing to be out.

            And then, people within the community online are assigning me ever more responsibility, based on my identity and not me as a person. It’s too heavy. I’m tired. It’s like, people are demanding more support from me than they’re willing to give…and well…at some point something’s got to give.

            Yeah, pity part of one, right?

          • Hi GrrrlRomeo I think that you should not give up in trying to start a pflag in your community, maybe if you checked onlinesites like OKCupid or lesbianlexicon you might find people in your area who are interested. It is never easy trying to get lesbians together to build a community and it can be frustrating but even if you can get a few people instead of a large group at least you know you tried and reached someone. Have faith and keep up the good work.

          • Thanks Olivia. I know LGBT people in the area. It’s just a question of whether they want to be “that” openly queer. ‘Cause contrary to some beliefs, being always read as queer means being more vulnerable to discrimination.

          • Trust me I understand that more than most I am originally from an island which is very homophobic it is actually the main reason i left along with many others. We can’t be open about who we are with out some losing their jobs or being harassed, it is a very secluded and secretive society back home. Some friends and I have been trying to work on getting some sort of support group together but unfortunately only the gay men are willing not the women.

  33. I’d like to add my own spin on this, and I’m fully aware I’m going to make a lot of gold-stars feel icky. Bring it on.

    I’m bisexual simply through situation (not to say that I’m in denial or erasing bisexuality; I just don’t think it fits *me*). I truly feel that I was born gay, but because of societal pressures and influences, I entered a relationship with a guy years ago before I had any self-awareness of my attraction to girls. Now, I love him dearly and he accepts and supports my queerness, but that isn’t to say that I’m attracted to him as I’m attracted to girls. With him, it has always been an emotional attraction built out of a friendship-turn-love. With girls, it is a very sexual attraction, and lately it’s been anxious for me as I try to compare the two types of attractions: are they both valid? am I fooling myself in thinking one is enough?

    So, to put my own spin on this, I was born gay but “chose” to be bisexual.

    I’ll set up the stake for burning me as a witch.

    • I understand where you’re coming from. I dated a guy for a couple of years, and broke things off because I fell head over heels in love with a woman I thought was my soulmate. I would identify as gay now, but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t love him – I did. Had I not met the woman that I did, and had he and I had a better relationship, I could see myself having been in your shoes, at least for a while. I know that *I* would have had to leave eventually, because I was filled with the feeling that there was more out there than that relationship, and with a glimmer of hope that the holy grail of friendship AND sexual attraction could collide. Luckily enough, I found that. And as hard as it was when that relationship ended, I don’t regret it.

      Obviously that’s my experience, and it’s not necessarily the same for anyone else.

      And for the record, the bi-hateathon is not cool guys. They’re a little different from the gold-stars among us, yes, but perhaps we could LEARN SOMETHING FROM ONE ANOTHER?

      • Yeah, the difficult thing I’ve had to deal with is that I feel he is my soulmate, but because it’s a guy a lot of other gay people feel like my “but I really love girls!!!” is invalid. So, what, I’m supposed to end a near-perfect relationship just to justify my sexuality. Ironic, since we’re all crying that it shouldn’t matter who we sleep with and that “love knows no gender”, but it’s not okay if it’s in a het-relationship.

    • I don’t feel that what other queer people do or feel says anything about my own gayness.

      I only feel “icky” when someone implies that because they had or have a relationship with a guy so could I. And that ickyness is really due to people asserting they know me more than I do. Well, I did date guys when I was a teenager. I didn’t think they were icky. They were friends and we ended up “dating” because I felt pressured to. We didn’t have sex because I just didn’t want to.

      I don’t feel like being friends, even really good friends, with guys says anything about my sexual orientation. It just means I’m a human being with a diverse range of emotions, some of which aren’t related to sexuality.

      I would like people to stop projecting their own insecurities on to everyone else. Like, for instance, assuming “gold-stars” are going to think you’re icky and want to burn you at the stake. For one, gold star lesbians like myself are rare.

      My partner, who I’ve been with for 14 years, had relationships and sex with guys before we met. It never mattered to me and it has never had any affect on our relationship.

      • I was being sarcastic because quite often on this site, it’s been a few very narrow-minded lesbians who attacked me personally behind their “gold-star” badge.

        • Don’t you get tired of having to answer for the behavior of a few? I do.

          I’ve never considered my not having had sex with a guy to be a badge. That’s something other people have stuck on me. The reason I never did is because just making out with a guy felt horribly awkward. And whenever it got to that point, I’d break up with them with the whole “I think we should just be friends.”

          There was this one time when I thought I could. I was really drunk and he was a long-haired sensitive hippy. When he took off his shirt, I literally threw up I was so drunk. It’s not something I consider an accomplishment. I was just lucky he wasn’t an asshole and didn’t try to pressure me while I was drunk.

          • That happened to me once, except I wasn’t drunk. I was like 12 and went on a “date” with a boy to a skating rink…. round and round and round and round

            and round …

            I came back and my cousins were like soooooooo how’d it gooo?

            BAAAAAAAAAAAARRRFFFFFFF

      • “I don’t feel that what other queer people do or feel says anything about my own gayness.”

        Omfg this. this. THIIIIS. Gold stars and non-fluid lesbians (and others that this might apply to) take note of this statement so you don’t go around policing people’s sexual behavior. You can have your opinion about it but you are better up shutting the fuck up about it. Real talk.

      • Ah, and here’s the one who wants to burn me at the stake. You’re late! I was expecting you a few days ago. Shall I get the rope myself, or do you- oh, yes, yes you already have the rope. Naturally.

    • I don’t think being gay is *just* about sexual attraction though. It’s also emotional and romantic….Who you fall in love with.

      A lot of women out there tend to have emotional attraction to men and sexual attraction to women, that doesn’t make them gay.

      • No, that’s true – I’m just saying that *my* bisexuality doesn’t manifest itself the same with both sexes which is one of the reasons I don’t really feel that the term fits me. And honestly, I have very few male friends because I just can’t connect with them on an emotional basis, so that makes the fact that I’m happily with one man even more peculiar. Except to the outside world, everything else about me is the peculiarity. *sigh*

    • You and I have almost the exact same experience, and after a lot of wrangling I identify either as queer or as lesbian-with-an-exception. “Bisexual” just didn’t *fit* because I couldn’t see myself dating another man (or at least another straight cis guy); it’s *queerness* that I’m attracted to primarily, even if the queerest thing about my boyfriend is me. So YAY for the rants above, because YES community is *so important*, and it’s *alienating* to be in a “straight” community and have to deal with stupid assumptions – one of the few places I’ve felt at home was amongst queer South Asians, who understood the pressure of having to erase your sexuality. It’s not like straight people adore me a lot more; it honestly does feel very strange and alien.

  34. I have a lot of feelings about this article and this comment thread, but a major highlighted one is disappointment. I keep coming to comment and then backing away because I don’t want to be rude or rash, but I’m going to organize my thoughts more and come back to it…I just do not understand the backlash this article is getting, especially since this idea (re: born this way/not born this way) is not exactly new–it’s been brought up in almost every single one of my queer theory classes, by my professors no less…and they are some smart and interesting and privilege-checking folks. I think it is an interesting discussion, and one that we are privileged to have within our own community (where we don’t need to worry about some scary religious man holding our own words over our heads and saying “aha! you said it’s a choice! so choose to be straight! do it, now!” if we so much as mention fluidity or the like), but it seems like instead of engaging in a respectful way everyone is just being kind of mean. Maybe a lot of people feel attacked by this article and that’s where the venom is coming from. Personally, I think a fruitful discussion and a lot of self-identifying could come from it…but this thread is certainly not that discussion.

    • I agree with all of this. But also…the article wasn’t published “in the community,” it was published in the Atlantic. Though as far as I can tell, the original article drew only one “aha! I have found you out!” comment from a religious bigot and hundreds of “omg gurl, stfu u r soooo bi” comments. Except, you know, with bigger and better words.

  35. I can’t believe no one has said it maybe because you guys are just too gay to function and have GAY GAY GAY IN DA BRAIN BUT:

    NO ONE IS BORN (INSERT RELIGION) BUT THEY HAVE PROTECTION IN THE U.S (fucking) A!!!!

    Why is that? Well do not have a law degree, I just like read about art and talk about my feelings and thoughts in long winded art-related jargon (especially when I have been drinking wine).

    This (the all caps statement) is bothering me and what is bothering me even more is this whole queers who feel are born this way are saying queers who don’t think they are born this way are messing up the cause for human rights. We should turn our attention to religious people (and the random few secular people) who feel the need to police our happiness in sexual/romantic expression. This means queers are religious might have to do some extra work, sorry (not really).

    I hope this makes sense because I have been reading and thinking about this article and comments and five things are on my mind:

    1. It really doesn’t matter if it’s a choice or not, seriously.
    2. I agree with magiclovemuffin that people will “allow” things when they feel it’s immutable, which sucks and makes me more cynical towards straight people on this issue.
    3. Umm bisexual-privlege, whaaa? You mean heterosexual privilege that even Gay gays have but it *can* manifest differently depending on the individual, right? Yes, dammit.
    4. I may not be bi but I want to join this BISEXUAL CLUB so I can hit on some sexy bisexual ladies thus me having to do less work looking.
    5. INTERSECTIONALITY GAWWWD LOOK IT UP! In regards to the “equal footing” thing.

      • You did!!!!! Thanks but you still got GAY GAY GAY IN DA BRAIN! <333333

        Seriously doesn't that bother you? It bothers me and makes for this born this way battle cry ummm immaterial. No one is born Christian/Muslim/Pagan/etc. it is purely environmental and a protected class of (religious) people. Yet LBGTs are not afforded the same right regardless of choice?

        • well actually in Malaysia (where your religion is something they take a note of) if your parents are Muslim you’re legally born Muslim and therefore have to deal with all the trappings – like having Islam on your ID card, taking Islamic Studies at school all the way up to college, and having Syariah Court rules being applied to you when necessary. It doesn’t matter how you actually feel spiritually, and trying to “convert out” is nigh impossible. Some of us who would be considered ‘ex-Muslim’ have to be stealth in Malaysia (where I’m writing this comment, incidentally) because of it.

    • I agree.

      If anything I find this conversation thought provoking and challenging. I always felt that given my sexuality I cannot ignore the component of gender-the cultural and intellectual component of this conversation and my being. I am more or less cis-gendered female and in some ways how I present myself, I can choose *not* to present female. I can be the *other*. This born this way carries a lot of baggage and assumptions, assumptions that lies within the people observing not the individual in question. Then again I feel that sometimes I feel helpless as a social being because a lot of my survival in the 21st century comes from the acceptance and agency of others who believe in me.

      Gender is different from sexuality and for me a lot of the born this way folk are those who do not adhere to gender norms and/or are sexually non-fluid (like myself). I feel at times it is not about bisexual*/pan/fluid and the illusion/delusion(?) of their choice when it comes to the “us vs. them.”

      I want to tell you as painful/frustrating/beautiful this conversation is, this is a VERY important conversation. In fact I think at times this conversation is a our true test of our humanity and community and the last frontier of this thing we call life (In a Western Society Perspective on well…fuck this disclaimer you peeps know what I mean, gah!).

      I have a lot thoughts on this and hopefully with other opinions it can flesh out something wonderful.

      Keep it sexy (and safe).

      XD!

    • gtfo. Since when did bisexuality become something so removed from homosexuality that the experiences don’t overlap whatsoever? Does the part of me that is attracted to men subsume the part of me that is attracted to women so that my sexuality doesn’t deserve to be included in the LGBT dialogue? Biphobia is just as bad as homophobia, and it hurts a lot to read a comment like yours.

      • I think telling someone to “get the fuck out” is highly inappropriate and uncalled for. And even if people think being bisexual is half like being gay, it isn’t. That’s a whole other discussion and another argument, but being gay and being bisexual aren’t the same. The author here is presumably speaking for gay people when she isn’t gay.

        • I like how that’s going too far, but all the biphobic bullshit going on elsewhere in this thread isn’t enough to garner your attention.

          • …that came out 10 times more offensive than intended. This is exhibit #1 for why wine and the internet shouldn’t mix, and I’m going to go ahead and apologize for this stupidly passive aggressive comment. Oh what I would for the option to delete comments.

          • If you consider something biphobic, why can’t you address that instead of ad hominem attacks on the individual? It’s just attacking the messenger and not the message. In the end, the messenger isn’t educated as to what may be wrong and the attacker looks petty as hell. In other words, nothing is fixed and things get heated when an exchange of ideas could’ve happened.

            Or, you know, people can just accept people have different opinions than them. Basically what I saw was: Person A is not allowed to express her opinion on a piece written by someone else not on Autostraddle, according to Person B. But Person B is allowed express her opinion about both Person A and about a piece written by someone else not on Autostraddle. Forgive me if I think that’s asinine.

        • I can’t say anything about whether it’s appropriate, but it is sure as hell called for given the blatant attack on bisexuals that is raging throughout this thread. When someone says something like “no, you can’t be born bisexual, and you can’t speak for the queer female experience because you are bisexual,” it makes me mad. And please, inform me of how the bisexual experience is like, so totally different from the lesbian experience. Yes, I will grant that many bisexual women have “passing privilege” when they are dating guys because people may assume that these women are straight.

          However.

          Even if males are added into the mix along with females, bisexuality is not a choice because you. can’t. pick. who. you. are. attracted. to. And if anything, being bisexual can incite even shittier reactions from people than being lesbian. You get blasted from both sides because the straight community thinks you’re slutty or questions your sexuality while the lesbian community can be equally distrustful and prejudiced. Want proof? Scroll through this thread.

          My point being, when I read something that is dismissive of or prejudiced against bisexuals, and it makes me angry, I will use the appropriate language. Like “fuck.” I like that word. It’s very expressive.

          • I just didn’t read Olivia’s original post as an attack on anyone specific so I’m not sure how specifically telling her to “get the fuck out” is a fair response. I mean, the whole point of Autostraddle comments is for discussion. Once telling someone get out/you’re not welcome is OK, discussion stops and only people with X view are allowed to speak up.

            And furthermore, Olivia’s post was ONE SENTENCE. Maybe she and you interpreted Miller’s point differently. Maybe there is room for common ground or understanding why Olivia thinks Miller is speaking for lesbians, etc. Maybe if you asked her about her position, you could’ve corrected her, or maybe she could’ve better explained her thought to you. But we’ll never know, because you told her to fuck off instead of talking to her.

            You don’t have to agree and I’m pretty sure a lot of people here won’t agree, but I notice people regularly taking discussions of broad topics very personally and making discussions downright hostile. It turns into us. vs them and it’s just… unneeded. Every feeling a lesbian has on bisexuality is not an attack on you personally. Vice versa for lesbians. I wish some people would stop taking it that way and stop making shit so needlessly tense.

          • Yes you are right, that is quite possibly true. My anger had been building up through reading the thread and I kind of just let it all out on one comment which seemed to espouse the same sentiment as a lot of other comments I had been reading. If I were a rational level-headed person I would have just asked her to clarify or expand her opinion, but things like this are very personal and can incite pretty visceral reactions. But I’m not, so I responded angrily.

            However, there are still things about your comment that I take issue with. First off, I do take an attack on bisexuality personally just as an African-American would take a racial slur personally. You can’t detach yourself from these things when they degrade something that you view as integral to your identity. So while I don’t mean to make it us vs. them, and I would never claim that all lesbians feel a certain way about bisexuality, I will be a little snippy when I react to a comment that offends me.

            So yes, it wasn’t nice of me to tell someone to fuck off. I like happy unicorns and rainbows and hugs and friendship.

          • Just to be clear, all Olivia said was (copy and paste): “Ms Miller can not claim “born this way” she is bi-sexaul, she can’t speak for lesbians.” I really fail, even trying my hardest, to see how this an “attack on bisexuality.” Maybe an attack on grammar and punctuation, but on bisexuality? Maybe the problem is bisexuals thinking they are being attacked when they aren’t? My guess is Olivia didn’t mean bisexuals aren’t born bisexuals, but that of course Miller correctly cannot claim she was born to like either men or women because she wasn’t — she likes both and can make a choice of who to have relationships with if she wanted to. I mean, I can only speculate because she was told to fuck off and no one asked her what she meant. If she did intend to say Miller wasn’t born bisexual, then I too wouldn’t agree with that and would also not really understand her point. Luckily no one accused me of “attacking” bisexuals because I too speculated Miller was probably simply bisexual but never seemed to even acknowledge it in her piece, all while speaking about lesbianism and seemingly for lesbians.

            Side note: Why didn’t Rachel include a link to the original Atlantic article? I had to google to find it. Second side note: First hit when I google it? American Family Association. Lesbian admits being gay is a choice!!! Lovely. It’s damaging for people to sit here and say being gay is a choice but downright offensive when it’s someone who is not gay but presents herself as being gay. To me it appears Miller is bisexual and implying gay people have the same ability to choose their romantic path. She has no place speaking for gay people, in my humble opinion.

            I’m not out for an argument and not out to attack anyone so I hope I didn’t offend anyone (but I’m sure I did). I don’t care if anyone is bisexual. Just don’t go around saying lesbians could be with men too and we’re cool.

          • Krissy if you had read this you would realize y I feel so strongly: I just want to say this the ability to say I was born this way is a privilege for some for me growing up in a country where homosexuality is against the law. Where you don’t have the freedom to express and be open about who you love, where everyone else who is gay are so closeted for fear of losing their family or their jobs, it is a very freeing feeling to be able to say I was born this way and I don’t apologize for who I am. How do you think gay people in Uganda feel for them it is their life that is in jeopardy they can’t declare their sexuality so let us not take it for granted or think that it is statement that is being banded about so easily.

          • Thanks for chiming in Olivia. (Maybe some people will step back, look at things and take a break from the knee-jerk reactions, hostility, indignation, and P.C. police stuff. God, it’s exhausting.) It’s so amazing that someone from a country like Uganda is able to come here and talk about something they can’t really talk about at home. That’s what makes having a real discussion — a dialogue and a conversation — so special. I think we’re all in this together, we just have different ideas and perspectives.

          • Thanks magiclovemuffin I was not trying to be offensive or to reflect negatively on bisexuals, I am in awe of the conflict that exists between lesbians and bisexuals. But for me I spoke on my interpretation of what Ms Miller said and unlike her I have not had a choice I am only attracted to women. But I believe that bisexuals are attracted to people and not gender if that is offensive I apologize.

      • Wow that is so funny I never said anything offensive about bisexuals, actually I have no problem with people who are bisexuals but by my interpretation Ms Miller came over as someone who was speaking for lesbians but as I see it Ms Miller is bisexual that is all I referred to. I have no problem with you saying fuck off or whatever you said I don’t let words bother me. I find it so strange that there is so much animosity between lesbians and bisexuals I don’t understand it since we all belong to the same community the LGBT.

        • I think the knee-jerk defense was because of the way you phrased it, but I’m glad you came back and cleared things up.

  36. We should watch “Babe” seriously, I feel it would have a teaching moment somewhere between the animaltronics and adorable singing mice. WAS BABE BORN THIS WAY TO BE A SHEEP-PIG?

    “If I had words to make a day for you…”*

    *I feel like this should inspire a vegan/think about the animals you eat post on AS

  37. I’m conflicted on this. Saying “I was born this way” is just a statement, and maybe some people mean it apologetically but I don’t think most people do, even subconsciously. Explanations aren’t excuses. But, like. Born this way or not, I AM this way, and it shouldn’t need an explanation at all, y’know?

  38. The fact is that the old slogan is correct. The personal is political. At least for LGBT people. While it would be nice to think that we now live in a world where that isn’t the case, believing that is fooling yourself.

    Heterosexual people will always be able to control the destinies of gay people through sheer force of numbers. A lot of them already think that homo/bisexuality is a choice and that therefore we shouldn’t have the same rights and protections that they enjoy because we could just be normal if we tried. Yes, I know it’s a stupid argument, but it’s the way a large number of heteros feel. When they are faced with the evidence that we are born gay/bi, it makes it harder for them to say that we should be treated badly as we chose this. This ‘no label’ culture makes it harder to present our case in a way that heteros will understand and accept. And yes, it’s ridiculous that that’s the way we have to think, but it’s reality.

    I know the gay rights movement is in the best position it’s ever been, but history is cyclical. It doesn’t just go one way. Look at history in general and gay history specifically. It’s littered with examples of places and times where gay behaviour (if not a gay identity necessarily) was acceptable and then religious or social changes rendered it unacceptable, and gays/bis had to go back to the closet or suffer the consequences. This is the world we still live in. Making things easier for them to deny gay rights does not assist anyone, gay, bi or label-resistant.

    • What is up with this politically correct nonsense? She can call herself what she likes. That’s her right. And I’m not afraid to call a spade a spade. That’s my right.

      • How exactly is respecting someones right to label themselves “politically correct nonsense”? Labels are highly important in the LGBTQ world, I find it hard to believe anyone would have to explain that here.

        • The moment that someone uses MY label and starts throwing around words like ‘choice’, is when I stop respecting their right to use my label as they see fit. Because that affects ME and how people perceive ME.

          I am gay. I was born this way. I cannot change. I had no choice in the matter. If someone says they are gay and contradicts these things, then they are straight or bisexual or have strange ideas floating around in their little head.

          I will not apologize for this. I will not apologize when it’s MY survival at stake.

          • “I don’t feel that what other queer people do or feel says anything about my own gayness.”

            This quote was brought to you by GrrrlRomeo a couple of comments above this one.

            The people that are threatening your survival are not queers who feel it is a choice, it is the annoying straight people ( or closeted cray-cray folk) who use religion to make our lives a living hell.

          • Bur Orko is talking about her survival and her acceptance in society, not her “own gayness.” GrrrlRomeo’s quote does not apply and I think you are seriously missing Orko’s point.

          • Her survival is based on the acceptance of straight people/society not queer people who think their queerness is a choice.

            So their queerness (or choice of it) will not and should not reflect on Orko’s, yours or any other non-fluid lesbian on the planet.

          • Incorrect, bra, because when bisexuals go around saying gay is a choice in a mainstream publication read by mostly straight people, that affects how straight society sees homosexuality. Again, you’re missing the point. No one here cares if Ms. Miller has fluid sexuality or not. We care about the article she published in The Atlantic.

            (But I don’t want to speak for Orko.)

          • Oh darn I can’t reply, anyway I hope this makes sense…

            I see what you are saying because of majority vs minority where those in the majority are more likely to be seen as individuals vs minorities are more likely to bee seen as a monolithic group. Miller who is (incorrectly) seen as a leader of the queer/lbgt community by straight people says that queer is a choice. This *should not* reflect or represent our feelings that gay is (not) a choice. I am saying this as statement that should be true or will make the world a better place, while you say it (as I interpret it) a cold hard *cynical* personal observation that a lot of straight people do not see gays as individuals who can have different opinions about what it means to be gay. Again this can be applied to a lot of things that involve majority and minority dynamics.

            My point to all this is that “queer being a choice” should not matter because I personally think the “born this way” mantra is *not* the best/realistic way for us to get us our human rights. I say this because it does exclude people who *feel* it was a choice, an exercise in their agency to fulfill a happy life. Also more importantly choice or not we are all in this together.

            Up thread you said that people are more willing to accept things/conditions when it cannot be helped. I agree but I think in our case I find it to be completely pathetic and makes me want to punch people because being gay does not hurt anyone. My sister is straight and luckily she has critical thinking skills (which she had to learn) because she would sometimes allow actions of one queer person affect her perception on all queer people. Yet she is an ally and works her damnest to not appropriate gay things, affirm non-fluid lesbian/bisexual/gay/(trans*-she learning more about it) identity in conversation and does not expect to get a cookie every time ( a trait I LOVE ABOUT HER but that’s a different topic/rant) she’s being a decent human being on these matters.

            Also novastar mentioned that religious people are given the same protection human rights and we all know damn well religion is a huge fucking choice. Or in the case of queer being a choice vs religion being a choice, there are so many parallels.

            It’s because of that it makes me more frustrated because the people who are threatening our *collective non-fluid lesbian/gay* survival, are not queers who say it is a choice. It is the people who are using their religious upbringing to deny us our human right when ironically a lot of the environmental factors that makes one “Christian” can be said for those who are gay/queer, also QUEER RELIGIOUS folk. However I should not speak anymore about these parallels for I am not religious and will end up offending…lol.

            I hope this conversation was good for you as it was for me magiclovemuffin.

          • Thanks for the thoughtful reply. I think we disagree on some major premises here that we’ll probably just need to agree to disagree on.

            Firstly, I think for most (quite frankly, if not all, gay people) being gay is not a choice. I can’t speak to anyone who self identifies as queer. But I feel pretty confident being homosexual, heterosexual and bisexual are not choices. (Sexual behavior is a choice. Sexual orientation? No way.)

            Secondly, we are in this together, choice or not. Which, to me, means not intentionally or perhaps simply ignorantly hijacking a term like “lesbian” and telling straight people lesbians can choose to be men. Choice or not for some, it’s not a choice for others who don’t have the luxury of choosing an easier route to happiness.

            Thirdly, I think that “born this way” is one of the best/realistic way to achieve acceptance. It elicits one of the most powerful emotions we have: empathy. Anyone could be born gay. Anyone can fathom it. But any straight person probably can’t fathom choosing to be gay. It doesn’t hurt anyone, but it is different, and different is most acceptable when it’s not a choice.

            Fourthly, there’s nothing pathetic about “born this way.” It’s just the truth for many (most? all?) of us. It’s not an excuse or an apology. It’s the situation. No, I can’t marry a dude and be happy because I was born to love women. I was born white, I was born with brown hair, etc. These are facts.

            Lastly, I agree with you on religion being a protected class despite not being an immutable characteristic. We’re not discussing that. That’s a separate issue entirely.

          • I feel almost too tired to address this. But here it goes.

            Lesbians are always having their sexuality questioned. We’re told it’s a phase…you just have to meet the right guy.

            Bisexual women…are you listening? Do you not see the commonality in our experience? Yes, I hear you say, but it’s worse coming from lesbians because lesbians should know better. Actually, it feels pretty much the same regardless of who it’s coming from. But then some bisexual women attempt to explain their bisexuality by claiming women are sexually fluid…as if to say you are bisexual because you’re female.

            Lesbians, I’ll tell you this. People would question your sexuality regardless if bisexual women existed or not. Because you are women. You were made to be the sexual playthings for men, to give birth to the children of men, and then to raise the children of men and be the mothers of men.

            The way to shape other people’s perception of you is not through identity, but by simply continuing to be you so that they may get to know you. People are slow learners. They’re not going to get the gist of who you are by you simply telling them you’re a lesbian or bisexual. There isn’t a shortcut.

            Everyone holds prejudices of some sort. If it’s not someone assuming all lesbians are bisexual, it’s someone assuming all lesbians are ugly flannel wearing liberal environmentalist vegetarians that drive diesel trucks and eat fish and have been sexually molested and hate men yet would still be interested in threesomes with dudes because “That would be sooo hot!” even though they’re sort of sexually cold and asexual except when they’re hypersexual in which case they want to see the video unless they’re big butches with strapons which all lesbians are because they have penis envy.

          • “Lesbians, I’ll tell you this. People would question your sexuality regardless if bisexual women existed or not. Because you are women. You were made to be the sexual playthings for men, to give birth to the children of men, and then to raise the children of men and be the mothers of men.”

            This = brilliant

  39. all these biphobic comments about how the writer isn’t a “real” lesbian and is “ruining the movement” are making me sad.

    it’s like in the 70s when the feminists told the lesbians that they weren’t real women so they couldn’t be feminists, and would they please be quiet because they were making straight women look bad.

    c’mon guys, we’re better than that.

  40. Just some food for thought on the whole bisexuality dialogue: I am currently dating a wonderful woman and there is a high probability that we will have sex soon. For reasons of not feeling comfortable, I have never had sex with a guy. So if I “lose my virginity” to a woman, does that make me a “gold-star lesbian”? I don’t think so, I still think of myself as queer/bisexual. It’s really pointless to assign sexual orientation or identity based on past sexual behavior, because there is so much more than actual sex involved in your sexual orientation. I mean, if a gay man lived in the forest his whole life and remained completely celibate, does that mean he’s not gay? Sorry if I’m repeating arguments that were said earlier, 125 comments is a whole lot to scroll through.

    • “I am currently dating a wonderful woman and there is a high probability that we will have sex soon.”

      Uhhummmm get it gurrrl! *high fives*

      • ohhh yeahhhh. B)

        (good thing she doesn’t have an Autostraddle account, she’d kill me if she knew I was posting about this)

  41. I just want to say this the ability to say I was born this way is a privilege for some for me growing up in a country where homosexuality is against the law. Where you don’t have the freedom to express and be open about who you love, where everyone else who is gay are so closeted for fear of losing their family or their jobs, it is a very freeing feeling to be able to say I was born this way and I don’t apologize for who I am. How do you think gay people in Uganda feel for them it is their life that is in jeopardy they can’t declare their sexuality so let us not take it for granted or think that it is statement that is being banded about so easily.

  42. I’m a ‘gold star bisexual’.. *melts brains*

    I dislike the ‘but you can choose to only be with X’ argument because it doesn’t really take into account the importance of the individual person you’re attracted to and how much you can’t help being attracted.. To me, if you switch out gender for any other attribute it shows how silly the argument is. e.g.
    A: I like blondes and brunettes.
    B: Omg. No way. It’s just a semi-permanent phase. It’ll wash out.
    A: Er, no, I really do not care about hair colour.
    B: But like, there are so many more brunettes in the world, and they’re taken much more seriously than blondes, so you can choose to be with a brunette. Much less chance of noticeable roots.
    A: But I just met this blonde who I can’t stop thinking about and is omfgawesome and they make me mixtapes and can quote from monty python while cycling backwards on a tricycle and saving small puppies.
    B: But life is so much easier with brunettes. Everyone’s a brunette. You could pass for brunette.
    A: -_-

    That probably didn’t really work as an analogy.. but even within one gender, I don’t think anyone would say that you choose who to be with based on how ‘easy’ it is.. otherwise everyone would choose to be with ridiculously wealthy people..surely?

  43. I don’t get all the hateration towards “Born This Way”. I think the “Born this Way” argument is apologetic at all…It’s saying that “My orientation is a natural part of me, and that’s okay…deal with it!”

    I mean I was born black, does that mean I’m apologizing for that? Hell no! I was born black, gonna be black and gonna die black…It’s a part of who I am, just as one’s orientation is part of them.

    Now as for bisexuality being a choice- I don’t know about that. When tried to suppress my feelings for a [female] friend three years ago, it ended in nuclear-type disaster. And believe me, I tried to just stick with one gender cos imo, being non-monosexual is nothing but a thorn in my hide. I’d prefer to either be 100% gay or straight, but it just never happened. :[

  44. Sigh. I wanted to stay out of this conversation entirely, but I just remembered a comment I saw on AfterEllen from someone who “gets it” and wanted to share part of it:

    If labels don’t mean anything, then why bother using them? Why bother calling yourself a lesbian in your profile if it’s not important to you? If it’s so disposable to you? […] I’m primarily attracted to women but, technically, I’m bi. I’ve had relations with both men and women. But the thing is, I don’t admit to stuff like that online and then have the nerve to claim “I’m lesbian” or even that “I’m gay.” […] Call me self-righteous if you will, I don’t give a crap. I just call it being respectful of actual lesbians.

    • And this girl isn’t even writing about being a lesbian in a major, national publication! She’s just posting on AE! How can we get her and Lindsay Miller to just trade places or something? Gah.

  45. Does anyone else find the word ‘bisexual’ as icky as I do? As someone who has found love, lust, and general attraction all over the gender spectrum, it is inaccurate to call myself bisexual. Bi = two, yes? Genders = multiplicitous, yes? Perhaps – and I may be out on a limb here – this is precisely why Ms. Miller doesn’t identify as bisexual, but as queer. And personally, I find it kind of horrifying that many of the commenters here (and at the Atlantic) have chosen to smack her with that label when she so obviously doesn’t claim it.

    • Not a fan of the word either…It implies that one’s attraction to multiple genders are purely sexual and nothing more.

    • Whoa. Hang on there. It may be icky to you and your so obviously encompassing and all inclusive queerness, but it’s how some people identify themselves by.

  46. Thanks magiclovemuffin for the defense you are correct. Let me clarify since it seems I have offended someone I have nothing against bisexuals I have dated a bisexual, I do not think bisexuals are confused or don’t know who they are. What I said is Ms Miller can not speak for lesbians, I believe that lesbian and bisexuals see the world differently I have dated men but I have never slept with them or done anything intimate with them because I a not physically or sexually attracted to them. But I do find them to be very interesting intellectually and they are cool to hang out with, I believe that bisexuals have the right to love, date and sleep with who ever they want to. And for all of you bisexuals who got pissed and what I said before that is fine you see I don’t take offense but I find that women per se fight to much amongst themselves instead of fighting for the cause which at the end of the day is equality.

  47. I was born *me*. I don’t know what it’s like to be anyone else, and I never will. I’ve only experienced the world through the filter of my eyes and my mind and body and whatever meanings and assumptions the rest of society attaches to that body and mind, for good or ill. And all the empathy and learning in the world will never completely alter the fact that I don’t know what it’s like to live someone else’s life, whether that someone is black or deaf or bi or cis-gender male or tall or Christian or Lady Gaga.

    So how can I say that person is *this*, or they were born *that* way or choose to be *this*? What gives me the right to judge them for it?

    Maybe this writer is bi, or lesbian or pan but fucking who cares, anyway? Maybe some folks were born queer and some chose it, but we’re all human. Putting labels on others, separating “us” from “them” is where the problems tend to start anyway.

    And I’m not writing this in direct reply to any of the previous comment threads, I just felt like throwing in my own cynical-humanist-influenced perspective.

  48. This thread to be important, infuriating, delightful and enlightening.

    If culture had nothing to do with sexual orientation/preference, we’d see (and mmm, experience) a whole lot more general Queerness.

    We’re all so soaked in heterosexual media- as well as a shit ton of other socializers- that it’s a Gay Miracle that we all came to name ourselves for who we are!

    Why is it so wrong for a woman who has partnered with, loved, and enjoyed fucking men in her past to identify as a lesbian? I’m a dyke. I’ve done all that. So has my sister, who, as a very young woman, was married to a man.

    My sister was never “closeted”. When she divorced her husband, she took some time until she met the Love of Her Life at a Gossip/Le Tigre show. They’ve been together now for six years and plan for a lifetime. They- we- march at Dyke March and she’s going into law specifically for LGBTQ rights. She won’t renounce her past to make her, haha, “more dykey”. She’s loved men. She’s a dyke.

    My story is somewhat similar, minus the marriage. Anyone calling us out of our name is hurting rather than helping, creating rifts where there should be bridges. If we call ourselves lesbians, we don’t need to qualify it to anyone, especially not the people we are marching, voting, and fighting with and for!

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