Hi there, this is a very quiet group! I only just realised (after a year and a half) that this site has groups, that’s embarrassing!

So here’s the story of how I’ve ended up here…

I didn’t have any reason to think I wasn’t straight until a couple of years ago when I started thinking I was feeling strange things for my roommate and started googling things like ‘what’s it called when you have feelings for a girl when you’re a girl too’, you know dumb stuff like that that you get the answer from reading what you’ve just typed. I repressed it for at least a year but then I started to get a bit more honest with myself and allow myself the space to investigate my feelings. This mainly involved getting a Netflix subscription and secretly watching lots of The L Word and going on Autostraddle every weekend.

I finally told my friend (some of) my feelings for her. She didn’t flip out, which was nice. Then I felt that I could tell a few more friends how I was feeling. I changed my ‘looking for’ status on OKCupid and have joined an LGBT Meetup group. I’m still not completely feeling it though. It’s like I’m allowing myself to feel things for girls that I would have pushed aside before but it’s still mostly about this one girl. I don’t really know any lesbians so it’s hard to ‘test out’ my feelings on anyone that I have a real chance with. And I still have days when I’m crushing hard for the girl I live with!

Anyone else had similar experiences?