I am falling in love with the Tarot in a way I never thought I would. Thanks to this group I’m just at a really good place with it right now and that is making me really happy. You all are awesome!

I was really inspired this morning by Dani’s article about Pride. I really liked her journaling questions and decided to use them to do my daily reading today. This is a big reading (no doubt, too big) but I’ll try to make this short.

1. Where was I a year ago?
5 of Pentacles – pretty poorly, out in the cold and all alone, wallowing in my own negativity. I just had to turn around and open that door. Thanks AS for being there just when I needed you!

2. Where am I right now?
Ace of Wands – I’m still at the beginning of my journey, with possibilities wide open to me. Now I just need to take my wand and set out on my journey.

3. Where do I want to be?
8 of Swords – I’m having difficulty figuring out where I want to go, and I’m sort of in denial about some things! I really don’t want to face what I need to in order to move away from those swords!!! I really don’t want to!!! Don’t make me!

4. Where are you on your journey to becoming your most authentic self inside and out? (this is slightly redundant, but it still was meaningful).
7 of Swords – I’m running helper skelter in my mind. I’m also not in a position to be “out” in my household right now, so I’m being tricky and deceptive.

5. What have I done this past year that has moved me closer to that place?
II The High Priestess – I’ve been solitary, still, and reflective, plumbing the depths of my wisdom and intuition.

6. What has held me back?
4 of Wands – Marriage and structure have held me back. This is usually a really positive card with no negative meanings. In my case I have definitely gained from these things and feel grateful for the benefits but it is definitely holding me back from being my authentic self!!!!! The 8 of Swords and 4 of Pentacles are saying that I don’t want to face the insecurity of letting this go in order to move on.

7. What would I like to change in the next year?
Knight of Pentacles – I want to work. I want to bring the swiftness of my mind down to earth to skillfully contemplate action instead of wildly (possibly blindly and recklessly) seeking adventure like the other Knights do. I want to make sure that my actions will avoid the possible danger in those cliffs in the distance and will be ensure stability and security.

8. Who can I enlist to support me in those changes?
Ace of Cups – Love, healing, grace, emotional and spiritual nourishment. These things will be there for me when I need them without my having to earn them or struggle for them. These things are all inside of me. I need to be aware of their existence and make use of them.

9. What am I proud of?
Knight of Cups – The image on this card confuses me. I get this one many times in readings and every time I see it I’m like ‘oh, no, not this one!”. My gut reaction to this card is that it’s about being uncentered, not having a clue where you’re going. This isn’t something I’m proud of but it definitely applies to me! I absolutely hate the feeling of not having a clue where I’m going! The qualities I am proud of are that I have an adventurous spirit when it comes to exploring and facing my emotions. I am on a quest for answers within myself.

10. What can I make peace with?
4 of Pentacles – I can make peace with my intense need for stability, security, and structure. I worry a lot about losing what I have and don’t want to do any thing that risks that in any way. I’m constantly worrying about it (the hat on the person). I need to make peace with this part of me that needs this, let go of my worry. I’m ok right now and will be in the future. I am capable and me and the Knight of Pentacles will make sure that everything is ok.