Hi, all. So relieved to find this group. Another late-late bloomer. I’m 38 years old. Married to a man for 11 years (we lived together five years prior to that, for a total of 16 years). No children between us, not for want of trying. I grew up working-class in Texas, and while I was always outspoken on LGBTQ issues–supported friends and family in coming out and eventually became a civil rights attorney–I never felt courageous enough to assert my own identity, until we moved to the East Coast a few years ago. Recently, I finally came out to a couple of old friends, as well as to my spouse, who is supportive and even open to me seeing women. I don’t think I want a divorce–we are good friends and solid life partners. And when it comes down to it, I’m bisexual–albeit with a stronger attraction to women–so it’s not like I’m repulsed by sex with him. I just have no idea what to do with all of these variables. At my age, being relatively shy and reserved, and especially having been with only one person for so long, it seems utterly terrifying to go out into the world in search of casual sex. I wouldn’t even know how to tell whether a woman was attracted to me, much less how to engage with her responsibly, i.e., without hurting her or anyone else. But I have this urgent sense that something is missing. Also, I’m still trying to figure out whether these feelings are purely sexual? Sometimes I have lesbian fantasies of a more domestic nature. I don’t even have the language to describe it. Moreover, from what I understand, married women keen on exploring their bisexuality are viewed as sort of a scourge in this community, no? What should be my next step? Thanks in advance for any advice.